My Brother's Substitute Role
Part 104 Lean
Efforts have been made, but have not yet brought results now only to wait for when God will bring them back together, or there will be no more meetings.
Little by little Alby began to enjoy his life without Azmia beside him although inwardly still hoping that his wife would return. Alby had asked the cafe, but Nina said Azmia had not come to the cafe waiting in front of the campus for a long time the result was not to find the figure of Azmia because Azmia's new appearance made Alby did not recognize him.
Today Alby has a road appointment with Rania, but as usual Alby always invites Daffa every time he goes to meet with Rania.
"Al, you have the same heart as me" lamented Daffa. While driving his car to the city park where Alby and Rania make a deal.
"Why did you?" ask Alby who doesn't understand what Daffa means.
"Lu make me a mosquito repellent. You two are good at dating lha I feel like a demon that is between you two" replied Daffa.
"Hahaha, that's why you're all looking for a girlfriend" Alby said.
"Finding that girlfriend is not as easy as turning the palm of the hand" Daffa replied. Like the word we buy clothes alone choose let alone life companion for a lifetime it must choose carefully, have chosen it sometimes there are still regrets behind let alone the origin of comot.
They stopped the bullet because it had arrived at their destination. After parking his car Daffa and Alby waited for Rania on the edge of the waterfall to sit on the seat that had been available.
"Al, I'm looking for a drink with a snack first yes," said Daffa.
"Yes," Alby replied.
Daffa left Alby alone, he set his foot around the park while looking for food to suit his tongue's taste.
"There are finally people who tempt the faith" said Daffa when he saw the egg seller roll.
"Sir, order five yes" said Daffa.
"Ready, Mas. Please wait!" traders reply.
Daffa sat in the waiting chair provided by the merchant while waiting for his order to be completed, making Daffa look around the park. He accidentally turned to one bench next to the flowers occupied by a woman. Daffa continued to look at the woman to make her unfocused when she was invited to speak by the egg roll trader.
"Mas--mas-this mas rolls his spicy eggs isn't it?" asked the merchant who kept calling him Daffa because there was no answer until the third time there was no response from Daffa, the merchant patted Daffa on the shoulder making Daffa surprised. "Astagfitullah, sir surprised me" complained Daffa.
"Well, look," complained Daffa. "Ah .. the Father kagetin me so tell me where do you go?" Daffa went into a frenzy looking for the whereabouts of the woman he saw.
"What's wrong, Mom? I keep on why I was wrong. Si Mas I called from earlier did not answer." The unaccepted egg merchant sir was blamed by Daffa.
"Ah .. have forgotten. What did you ask me?" ask Daffa.
" Is this the order spicy?"
"Medas, sir," replied Daffa.
"The order is ready" said the merchant, giving Daffa's order.
"Thank you, sir. Nih." Daffa paid for his order and walked away from the merchant. "Ah .. because my fathers have lost track, I have to find where to try this," grumbled Daffa along his foot. Feeling tired from continuing to walk Daffa stopped his steps sitting on an empty chair in the garden area while enjoying the egg roll he bought earlier.
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"I'm sorry, I waited a long time" said Rania who had just arrived.
"It's okay" Alby replied. "Sit down!"
"How's Mas Alby doing?" ask Rania.
"Alhamdulillah, now it's much better" replied Alby.
"Has Azmia not come home yet?" ask Rania.
Rania finds out everything because on the second day of Azmia's departure, Alby calls Rania asking for Azmia's whereabouts at Pranata's residence.
"Not yet" replied Alby.
"Already, Mas. Maybe Azmia did not love Mas Alby so what to keep. Didn't Mas Alby ever promise Nia will always look after Nia until anytime," said Rania.
"However, until now in my heart there was only Azmia" Alby replied. After Azmia's departure, Alby did not forget Azmia, but instead missed his wife even more even though he was now in better condition than in previous days at the beginning of the first to one week of Azmia's departure, Alby completely messed up his disheveled appearance, disorganized diet, lack of sleep because he busied himself with work until late at night. If Daffa doesn't scold him every day, Alby's situation might get worse.
"Mas, why the hell is Azmia not a little bit of my name in your heart?" Rania started to get emotional.
"I'm sorry your own Rania made my heart forget your name. When that love blossoms you yourself are the one who melts that love. Did you forget all that?" Alby started to bring up the events of that time.
"Why the hell would Mas have to bring all that up. Yes, it was my fault, but now that I'm back can't we walk forward to set the future without having to look back. Can't everyone be wrong? is my mistake so fatal that it makes you still hate me, do not want to know me anymore" said Rania with tears.
"I'm sorry." That's all that came out of Alby's mouth.
"If I don't mean anything to you anymore, why then should you hold me back, pay attention to me, why not let me leave this world" Rania said.
"A lot of people still love you, Nia don't be silly just because of me" Alby replied.
Only because love is willing to take its own life. Life is full of scenarios so don't despair if you break up. Just enjoy what God has given you, please yourself and prove to her that you can be happy without her love.
"I love you, Mas" said Rania.
"What you feel is not love, but obsession. If you sincerely love me then __." Alby deliberately held back his words.
"Then I shouldn't have left our wedding" Rania continued.
The heartache that Rania felt turned out she had misjudged to get Alby's love back was not as easy as she thought because Alby still remembered the incident on the wedding day.
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Sometimes the past is difficult to forget, especially about the bitterness of life until a lifetime will always be remembered and may also have been stored in his brain memory.