
Family is the surest place to return. Such is the meaning of family for those who are always outside the people closest to them. So when returning to the family in addition to the feeling of comfort, of course, is a sense of awkward because of the lack of togetherness.
Nadia felt moved because she was well received in her husband's family, Nadia thought no one could accept her again after she had a failed marriage, so Nadia had given up on getting married and wanted to live single forever. But Nadia was wrong. Behind all the tests there is ease.
"Can't Chandra extend his leave? She's on 1 month off, but she's not on her wedding day" Merry's grandmother told Chandra's mother.
Nadia did not think about it, Chandra never discussed about his return to Flores or how the work system will be after the holidays are up.
"Maybe you can, Grandma. But I think my brother has to get permission first. He married suddenly yesterday." Joy answered her grandmother's question.
"Nadia wants Chandra to go everywhere?" Mom patted Nadia's shoulder slowly. Made Nadia smile.
"Hm, if her Chandra asks Nadia to come along. Nadia must be coming, Mom."
Grandma looked at her granddaughter-in-law with her eyes twinkling with worry, and so did Joy. "Loh, but Chandra's duty outside the island of Java continues. Grandma can't have you living on the border."
"Yes, brother-in-law mending lives here aja, in Bandung the same we hehe ...."
"Truly, let it be once in a while Chandra jengukin to his place of duty. You just stay here. Stay in this house, so grandma can have another grandchild."
Grandma and Joy eagerly persuade Nadia to stay with them. But Nadia only smiled faintly in response to the request. The mother who had listened had protested.
"Loh, how the hell is this same mother Joy .. pity Chandra dong, long time with his wife."
"Hm, anyways .. even Chandra is still willing to task out of the area. He is the General should be able to choose his own service location," complained the grandmother with a sour face.
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Chandra came home after picking up her father from work. His father Chandra is a 5-star hotel manager in Bandung. Instead of participating in the career of the father, Chandra actually prefers to follow his grandfather's poll as a state servant. Whereas at school, Chandra seemed not interested in the world of officers, the man liked music even several times Chandra joined the school band.
Chandra brought a towel to the 1st floor, and it appeared that he was carrying his toothbrush, Mother who was sitting in the TV room frowned confusedly. "Would you like a shower?" ask Chandra.
Chandra nodded.
"Well, what's the bathroom in your room, why?"
"Hm, Nadia's taking a bath ... So, I just give it up."
Mother was bearded, but in the next second the beautiful mother smiled as she approached Chandra. "Why not take a shower?"
Chandra's two round eyes opened wide when he heard the advice from his mother, Chandra did not expect that his mother spoke so.
Nadia is still confused when it comes to staying at the Chandra family residence. Nadia doesn't know when she should stay in this house, and if Chandra goes to Flores what is Nadia's fate?
After bathing, Nadia instead daydreamed in front of Chandra's dresser. The dressing table was clean and tidy, there was only Chandra's array of perfumes and deodorants there. Nadia also does not know where her clothes were stored by Chandra last afternoon, finally because there is no clothes any Nadia by forced to take a white T-shirt owned by Chandra and wear it. While Nadia's pants only wear short pants that she was wearing earlier along with the dress.
Chequek.
The door opened from the outside, Nadia turned her gaze towards the door. Turns out Chandra's bowing his head there.
"You ... Have you finished your bath?" ask Chandra slowly. Chandra did not want to catch Nadia if the girl was not dressed.
Nadia smiled a little. "I took a shower for half an hour."
Chandra finally went into the room and sat down on the edge of her bed, staring at Nadia through the glass of the dresser. Each pair is like this and after bathing, Nadia and Chandra are both stiff and nervous.
"Oh, tumbens."
Then it came back to silence after Chandra gave that response to Nadia.
"Yeah! This ... I pinjem your t-shirt, huh? Where did you put my suitcase?"
Chandra who was just aware of Nadia's clothes that had changed clothes also noticed Nadia's goal-setting. Oversized plain white t-shirt, very short pants black and tight bandaged her petite body.
Nadia's skin is yellow and smooth making Chandra immediately turn her gaze to and fro.
"Chandra ...," call Nadia again.
"Copper .. your suitcase, I took it for a while .. Your suitcase is still under." Chandra was about to leave, but Nadia held back her arm, leaving Chandra restrained beside Nadia.
"No, take it later."
Chandra complied with Nadia's request, and then sat back on the edge of the bed.
"Oiya ... If you go to Flores, you want me to come?" tanya Nadia opened the conversation, if not Nadia who started it felt like Chandra would not open his voice first to her.
Nadia turns from chair to bed, sitting right next to Chandra.
"Hm. I'm glad you came. But I'm also not sure if you can stay there."
Nadia pouted then sighed. "You're my nyepelein, huh?"
"Eh, no! Not so, I am only worried that you feel burdened with my obligation to serve in Flores .. there is very different from in Bandung. Everything is hard."
"If so. .. What is our relationship?"
"You mean?" chandra asked confused.
"Yes, our husband and wife relationship? If we're LDR, what does it mean we're married."
"LDR'S?" Chandra's birthday doesn't understand.
"Long Distance Relationship, long distance relationship."
"Oh." The man was bearded, his face was still so flat and expressionless.
"We can call each other or text. A lot of people like that there, not only me later the LDR."
Nadia smiled at her husband. "You, won't miss?"
Chandra looked up, finding Nadia's innocent pretty face without makeup smiling witfully at him.
Drrt drrt
Chandra is surprised, but the man is grateful in his heart because the voice of the phone from his phone saves from Nadia's question that makes his heart pound uncharacteristically.
"Ck, just pantes you don't have WhatsApp. Your phone is still nokia educational," complained Nadia annoyed when she saw Chandra grab the phone on the nightstand and received a call. Believe it anyway? In this modern era, Chandra mobile phones are still nokia old models that can not even make video calls.
"It's Ong. My men are there." tell Chandra while activating the speaker phone so Nadia can hear it.
"Commander! Said marriage!"
"And ... Why not say it?"
"Well, the artist's wife. Bring it here, Dan."
"Huhu And .. Kangen. Poyeum with chocolate!"
Chandra and Nadia giggle at the sound of a lot of noise scrambling to talk on the phone.
"Rame, huh?" nadia murmured to her husband.
"Yes ..they have taken their leave, so only I can go home" Chandra replied to Nadia. Nadia smiled a little, simple Chandra this.
"Ong ... is it all complete?" ask Chandra to Ong.
"Complete And. Here are me, Alif, Usman and Johnny. If the others are already in sleep," replied Ong firmly.
"Acity ... Ong, I'm married. Sorry for being so sudden and not inviting you all."
Nadia again laughed, which now sounded not Ong's voice, but another voice.
"Yes, Alif. I didn't know that my photos were circulating on the internet a lot."
"Well, you know their voices?" nadia asked in amazement at Chandra.
"Yes, of course I know. I was already with them when I was an enlisted training student" Chandra replied to Nadia. Making Ong and his friends whisper teasingly.
Nadia was bearded again.
"Well, pie-cie. And his wife's voice was so loud. Again, yeah?"
Chandra gave a small smile, glancing at Nadia who did not seem to mind the words of her commanding soldier.
"Hello everyone .. I am Nadia," Nadia said to a phone held by Chandra.
"Kyaaaak .. hello bundaaaa ..." The soldier began to lose control making Chandra feel ashamed of Nadia.
"I'm closing, yeah, the phone. You should go to bed soon, tomorrow you'll have training."
Beeping. The phone was turned off by Chandra, making Nadia frown her forehead, there was a slightly disappointed expression that Nadia showed.
"Why are you closing? They seem to miss you."
Chandra moves her index finger raised to the left and to the right in protest. "Emm, can't be, it's 11 p.m. That means they will lack rest and not focus on training. If I don't close the call, they won't stop talking."
Nadia pursed her lips, and Chandra immediately prepared to pick up a pillow and bolster to sleep on the carpet.
"Would you sleep on the carpet again?" nadia asked badly.
"Yes, you can sleep well tonight?"
"Emm, you sleep on top. Yesterday ... I was too selfish to think about myself. Your bed is much bigger, it must be enough for both."
Chandra smiled, the man took his pillow and bolster and put it back on the bed.
Nadia swallowed her saliva with great difficulty as Chandra laid down her body on her side.
"Accept ...."
Nadia sighed, she followed Chandra to lie on the bed. There was a bolster that limited him and Chandra. In an atmosphere that was so quiet and silent, Chandra even set her breath so as not to be too obvious if she was nervous. Chandra does not want his nervousness until it is known by Nadia.
While Nadia flips her body to turn her back to Chandra so Nadia does not need to feel awkward in the middle of her sleep.
Nadia tries to close her eyes, she forgets not to bring sleeping pills and can be sure that tonight will be a very long and difficult night. Instead of trying to sleep hard, Nadia finally took her phone and started watching Korean dramas recommended by Joy this afternoon. Nadia had watched half the episode anyway, but because it was chatting with Mother and grandmother Nadia had not had time to continue the spectacle.
Nadia smiles watching the streaming drama, a drama that tells the love story of the different professions between an active military soldier and a beautiful doctor who was met for the first time during task training.
"Ih .. so sweet," Nadia murmured unintentionally when the scene showed a handsome soldier handing over the doctor's scarf that fell in the wind.
Chandra who heard the sound opened her eyes again and tilted her body towards Nadia.
"You're not sleeping?" ask Chandra in a hoarse voice.
Nadia giggles. "You have to watch it."
"Watch?" ask Chandra wonder.
"Yes, Korean drama. Gemesh is very, who plays the drama handsome is just as beautiful. The story is that the guy is also a soldier. I think you're."
Chandra began to approach Nadia and get rid of the bolsters between them, Nadia also shuffled to share her phone screen with Chandra.
Chandra mangosteen, enjoying the spectacle with Nadia who was even carried away until biting her index finger.
"If the men are soldiers, the women's profession, what?"
"So, her partner was a doctor. They're both on duty in the military zone."
Jem! Chandra swallowed his saliva roughly.
"Cool, yeah. If in the real world there is not a pair of soldiers the same doctor who met in the area of the gini emergency zone?" nadia asked Chandra who was starting to not focus on the Korean drama.
"Hm, there may be."
Nadia immediately turned her head excited towards Chandra and smiled sparkly. "Seriously? Is your friend like that?"
Chandra was just flat as usual when Nadia looked at him at such close range. "The director's "fictitious stories are usually from real stories. Who knows, you've known soldiers who date or marry the same doctor," added Nadia, without knowing that Chandra actually does not want to discuss love stories in the military like her.
Nadia did not get any answers from her husband, and time has shown Chandra's passing hours of sleep. The girl turned off her phone and returned to her original position.
"Why did you stop watching?" chandra asked in astonishment, because Nadia stopped watching her Korean drama.
"I'm sorry, I'm selfish. You don't like to watch, do you?"
Chandra gave a smile, Nadia looks like a child who changes her expression in less than a minute. Maybe because Nadia had played soap operas so she was good at expression. In contrast to Chandra is required to continue to be serious and focused.
"No. It's late, so .. I think, better get some rest."
"But ... in a moment, I will return to Flores to take care of my work. If you want to say something, just say it now. I will be a good listener. Itung-itung approach," explained Chandra with her voice made soft.
Nadia smiled and began to tilt her body towards Chandra. "Really?"
Chandra nodded solemnly.
Nadia really needs a storymate, compared to being lectured. Nadia just wanted to reveal her whole heart to Chandra. Whether it's about her becoming a new person, or about her feelings that are still unclear in the midst of family happiness.
"I miss mama .. I think, after getting a new family and getting married to you, I feel like my miss is the same mom can be lost. Apparently not .. your mother and grandmother make me feel sad because .. I actually miss my mother more," said Nadia with a smile forced on her lips.
Chandra raised his hand and gently rubbed Nadia's head crest. "I never knew my mom. Since my mother died in childbirth, I knew my mother from her 'she said' and after that, the memory of my mother from my father's and grandmother's stories never appeared at all, because I really never saw his face even once."
Until here, tears came out soaking Nadia's cheeks making Chandra pull Nadia's body into her arms. The small body was wrapped in big hugs from both arms of Chandra, Nadia closed her eyes sobbing in the field belonging to her husband. Nadia did not refuse at all Chandra's touch, she actually felt awake and safe in that embrace. Chandra presents itself in a different form of warmth than usual.
The man did not say a word, really being a good listener as he promised.
"I'm sorry, if later I can't be a dream woman for you. Hiks ... because .. I have no mother role in my life."
Chandra nodded slowly, rubbing Nadia's right cheek gently with a smile. Chandra's soft fingers for not touching the rifle for a long time made Nadia close her eyes comfortably.
"Your instinct remains the woman Nad .. You are my choice as a companion. It doesn't matter who your role model is to grow up to be a woman. Me and you are destined to be together, sooner or later your instincts as a woman will present themselves. I am also not a perfect person, you say I am always flat, non-expression, but .. There may be meaning behind our quick marriage. I have to be very good at adapting to you. In other words, we must both learn, without excluding each other's shortcomings and differences. L am. Ye. Or maybe ... someday, our children will be present. Everything is going on and on."
In her arms Nadia watched Chandra speak, following the reddish lips in seriousness. Assured in the heart every sentence that resembled that prayer with a faint smile.
"Sander."
"Hm?" Chandra's eyes were half closed, but the man reopened his eyes only to respond to Nadia.
"May I sleep in your arms?"
Chandra gave a small smile, and held Nadia tighter and tighter.
Because the lie that Chandra does not want to hug Nadia, lies if Chandra does not want to breathe deeply into the scent of his wife's body. If Chandra does not want to kiss his wife's forehead with tenderness and affection, Chandra is a normal man who is in adulthood, he is married, he is married, common sense and instinct also said to make a beautiful marriage with Nadia. However, in the midst of the idea, Nadia fell asleep in her arms.
Chandra looked at him, looking at the tiny face with eyes drowsiness but the smile on his lips never faded, still drawn even so thin.
"Vidi .. don't go."