My Life is Difficult
Sorry Alinda BU

I turned my body and I looked towards the end of the Gang where Marco Still Stands to see me he is still waiting for what will happen to me because I forbid him to take me to the front home and because I still don't want to if my Father sees himself .

Tonight I came home escorted by Marco with the hope that my father and mother would not be angry to see my situation , because at this time I can no longer say the word with my circumstances, my clothes that I can not wear normally , make up on my face was faded because of tears, my hair is already messy and can no longer be tidied up . I could only cry bitterly, because I was really afraid to go home this time .

" Big... I'm afraid to go home 'I'm afraid that if my Father and mother would scold me 'cause today's incident was really very severe and destroyed all her ."

This fear is so great and I cannot imagine if my Father and Mother would see my situation like this , their hearts will surely also be broken and plus they will get all the insults that people have been saying about me all this time, this is all true .

I cover my face with my hands because I keep crying and crying I can't think what I should do again after this .

" Be calm dear, don't cry constantly, I'll meet your Father and Mother, I want to see what your Father and Mother will do , if they can't accept you anymore, I'll take you away from them and I'll marry you ."

Marco's words were enough to make me happy and happy for a moment, but I couldn't accept them . because I still love both my parents and my sister's sister .

" Big... Don't first, not her I don't want but I still have to finish my school first , our agreement is that after I finish the new school I will marry you and also I still want to help my Father and Mother and I also still want to take care of my sisters , Whatever will happen later I will try to stay with them until I finish school and my sister can already take care of each other " . My word .

I tried to talk to Marco and give him an explanation, although I was eager to be his wife and devote myself to her , but right now my main task is that I have to finish my school first, so that my father and mother are not too disappointed in me .

" Ok, Already in front of the alley of your house, you want me to take you to the door of your house ?" Ask Marco to me .

Answer me .

" Wear this suit, and wipe away your tears ."

Marco gave me his suit to cover my body and the clothes I was wearing .

Then I immediately went down and walked into the alley towards my house .

I turned my body and I looked towards the end of the Gang where Marco Still Stands to see me he is still waiting for what will happen to me because I forbid him to take me to the front home and because I still don't want to if my Father sees himself .

" lady.. Mother...!! come here Alin has gone home ma'am !" I heard Dad calling Mom to come out and see myself coming home.

It was beyond my expectations, it turned out that Dad welcomed me with feelings of haru and also happy , I could not say a word because it felt like this heart was screaming and resting at the feet of my Father and Mother, because this feeling of sin in me cannot be paid for by anything .

Then I saw that Mom was walking slowly out of the house because she wanted to welcome me home.

" Old.... You're home, baby.. We're all so worried thinking about you.. ".

Mother's voice was very soft sounding like a razor as if slashing my heart .

I tried to move my lips because I wanted to say to my Father and Mother, But .. My tongue and mouth were stiff and my vocal cords were lost instantly...

" Don't have much to say first, Come on in first, here the air is already very cold, Whatever happens to you, we believe you have grown up , you must know what you've done to yourself, good or bad we've all left it to you ." Mother said wisely made these tears come back with her profuse wetting my cheeks, unable to look at the two faces of my parents then I immediately kowtowed to kiss Mother's feet .

" Mom..sorry Alin ma'am..sorry Alin...!" I said with a face soaked with tears.

This is all I can do, to face my Mother and Father .

I saw the shadow of Marco waiting for me at the end of the Gang had now been told, maybe he had seen that my mother and father had done nothing to me , they both accepted me well and with gratitude that I had returned safely .

" Mother .... Father, I'm sorry Alin .... Forgive the sins that Alin has committed all this time.Pardon Alin... !!"

I said again to apologize and forgive me for all the mistakes I have made by kissing my Mom and Dad's hands, because I can't say anything other than apologizing , even if I have to say it a thousand times .