My Name JOANA
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"where is it, you're the gangster leader but face this alone fear?" ask Joana

"it's different, Boo, they're scary"

"you're not Joana's father, you're not going to come" Shilly said

Shilly lets Motheo in, only when he starts explaining Joana's work, everything about the patient's life story, and Joana starts to understand everything about the patient, starting from the complete biodata, to the patient, the origin of stress experienced, up to several habits since the patient became crazy

"understand everything, right?" ask Shilly

"yes, brother, I understand everything, then where is the patient?"

"let me take her, she's in the pasung room"

"okay"

Joana is going out, Motheo is coming with Joana, forcing her to come more precisely when Joana has explained she went to the pasung room

"you just wait here, I'm going to my patient's room" Joana said

"i'm not here, I go where you go" Motheo replied

"i'm in the patient's room"

"yes, I'm with you"

"yeah"

pasung room itself is a sacred room in every mental hospital, provided that the stress level is so heavy

Joana scared? clearly not, even before where Joana had overcome two of the worst mental patients, namely Alisia and Wilson, where both had entered the pasung room

and after arriving in front of the pasung room...

"are you seriously going into the pasung room? I know the story that the shackles in the mental hospital were for the most dangerous patients" Motheo said

"yes I'm sure, I'm dealing with a brave killer alone, especially with a pasung room patient" replied Joana

"who did you say that to? you're talking about me?"

"yes baby, I'm talking about you, shut up baby, I want this job"

"you call me baby?"

"yes let you release me to meet my patients first, yes"

"yeah, 'cause you call me baby"

Joana came in, saw that there was a man there, the man had a very dull face, his face was so scary, gloomy, dark, full of anger when Joana started to enter

this is a patient whose real name is Calvin..

Calvin Anderas is a new mental patient in Jorshy with traumatic symptoms, he is traumatized to light, just imagine, if he sees light either from the sun, lights, or other rays, he said, his body will be in pain and he thrashed

this is the reason why Joana would not allow the light in the pasung room, yes not Joana if it could not make the patient accept Joana

"hi's brother?" hello Joana

"who areyou?" yelled the man

"meet me, I'm Joana"

"you who? you're the doctor here, aren't you? you're gonna kill me, right?"

"i won't kill you, no one will kill you here"

"then what do you want?"

Joana begins to sit down, touching Calvin's hand in an iron chain and recounting his bleak childhood

joana tells how she was born as a blind girl until she was 15 years old when she saw the world for the first time

everything is told by Joana..

"so you were born blind?" ask Calvin

"yes, I was blind from birth, until I was 15 years old, only then could I see it, but it was the first time I saw the world"

"then can you understand colors, things, and more?"

"no, I learned from the beginning again, yes I know, for example, the chair, I know the name of the chair, but I do not know the shape of it, right, after being able to see and know the shape I even tried to remember what the name of the object was, and this is the level of difficulty I have to learn from the beginning again"

"why do you finally want to see?"

"the color I want to see the greatest women and men who have always been with me, my mother, women fighting for my breath, and my father, men fighting for my life and my mother's"

so do not be surprised if Joana must be dark somewhere because indeed she was once in a darker situation than that

here Joana began to be able to penetrate Calvin's mind, yes.Joana easily interfere with Calvin's mind, the first day, the first day, it is not easy to conquer the soul patient so it needs process and patience even though to just open the attachment

after a day that followed Joana, Motheo and Joana home, in the car, Motheo glanced at Joana and proudly he towards his wife for her kindness even able to make the crazy patient become calmer

Motheo touched and clasped Joana's hand

"why Boo?" ask Joana

"no papa, I just want to hold your hand"

Motheo grasped Joana's hand without letting go until when she got home, Joana took a bath in the bathroom downstairs, alternating with Motheo, then they went up to the top house, and sat on the couch in front of the television

instead of turning on the television, Joana instead picked up one of the books on traumatic for mental patients, and it still has something to do with Calvin, so Joana went back to reading and studying it

"i'm tickled if you take care of a crazy patient, dangerous loh Boo, it's not work anymore, I've given you a monthly ration, different from eating you" said Motheo

"it's a job for me, I can't leave a patient who needs me"

"yes I know, but I'm worried, you're the same crazy patient, Calvin was, that's dangerous for you Joana"

"more danger where am I living with a gangster chief like you?"

"let's Joana why do you always talk to me again"

"that's the fact that, if my patients are clear, they're shackled, off my license, and I know when they're released when they won't hurt anyone, including me"

"yes, but I'm worried, how did he one day lose control? stab you?"

"yes the same way one day I know when you're about to lose control, even when I'm sleeping and having sex violently, you always strangle my neck every time we have sex my life is at stake" said Joana

"Joana, don't talk about it, I'll treat you well when you have sex again, but I don't want to be rejected, so don't refuse"

"i've never refused, have I? but you still play rough"

"this, I give you the fee you get as long as you work as a mental doctor, I pay double but stop, no more work"

"okay, but I'm asking you to also stop and get out of the head of an American gangster" Joana said

"where is it possible? it's not a job, it's my soul over there"

"just like me, I don't think doctors are jobs but my soul is there"

"but if it's dangerous how to try?"