OFFERING CONCUBINES
CHAPTER 159 ADMIRING WITHOUT HAVING

"I feel guilty for not being able to thank you..." Suddenly Xiao Yi's voice broke silent, he turned around and faced Zhao Juren, looking into his eyes directly like a friend.

"Thank you for what?" Zhao Juren stared back at the eyes that sparkled as beautiful as that brilliance.

"For all the things you have done for me..."

The sentence was so clear, it felt as if it had reached the deepest recesses of the soul.

Zhao Juren fell silent, she looked at Xiao Yi.

"I didn't do anything." Sizzle Zhao Juren.

"I know very well, who has been my protector..."Xiao Yi raised his face, his smile looking faint and charming.

"Whatever you've done for me, I probably won't be able to repay you for the rest of my life. I stand in front of you today, unable to escape every help you have done. A piece of my life might not be enough to repay..."

"No.no. Don't say that." Zhao Juren shook her head, she really felt unworthy of the remark.

He knew very well, his life was saved by the life pill, a precious treasure from Xiao Yi.

"Juren..." The voice was slow, but like a lightning bolt that reached his heart, making him instantly float.

This was the first time anyway, Xiao Yi did not address him with the frills of Master or even the prince.

The woman called only by her name, so close, so familiar.

"I heard from His Majesty, you refuse to accept the title of prince..." Xiao Yi raised his beautiful black eyebrows.

"I don't feel I deserve it." Zhao Juren replied shortly.

"It's not about merit or not but it's the reality. Your father is the king of Yan Houcun, which is why you deserve the title of prince." Xiao Yi said straightforwardly.

"But my own mother has been trying to embarrass ancestor Yan, I feel responsible with everything."Zhao Juren.

"A mother's fault is not a child's fault. There's nothing you can take responsibility for that mistake you didn't make. Each person is responsible for his or her own actions beginning when he or she understands good and bad, black and white." Xiao Yi smiled warmly at Zhao Juren, she looked so wise with her enlarged belly.

"But I have closed my eyes and ears to things I might be able to prevent." The sentence was said by Zhao Juren regretfully.

"Juren, there are things that we can handle, there are things that are beyond our ability to solve them. If we can't prevent a mistake, at least we have a chance to fix it." Xiao Yi had never lost words facing a desperate person.

"What can I do with the title of prince? nothing will change, my mother is remembered as a criminal and a traitor in everyone's eyes." Zhao Juren cast her gaze at the sky that was starting to clear completely, her light that was warming as if wanting to melt the snow that was on the peach twigs.

"But as a child you can fix what your mother has done, when people are good, all eyes can see your kindness."Xiao Yi slowly knocked on the flute he had in his hand.

"Do I deserve this?" The question that was full of anxiety sounded floating, as if it wanted to ask itself.

"Yan's blood flows within you, not because you chose it. Which makes you worthy or not when you remain firm with your conscience to the end." Xiao Yi stared for a moment at Zhao Juren's face.

"Be brave, Juren. Because now you are no longer living for the surname Zhao but also for the surname Yan Family. We know that everyone is imperfect, but if we keep a good heart, then we're still good people." Xiao Yi was about to turn his body around when Zhao Juren called out his name softly.

"Xiao Yi's..." The voice was similar to a whisper, sounding smooth and a little afraid if Xiao Yi became offended by his sassness.

But even though Xiao Yi's face did not change, he did not show her discomfort or offense.

"Thank you." Her chest felt so pained looking at the woman who had made her truly grateful to have met him.

He did not feel wrong to have admired and loved this woman, even if it was only in his own heart.

"I'll keep your blue chai kumala as a sign of our friendship. I will remember it as a gift from a good friend who saved my life many times." Xiao Yi said softly, the look on her beautiful face was so calm.

A sense of pleasure and pain melded within Zhao Juren, hearing herself being considered a good friend to Xiao Yi.

The word friend for a person who has openly confessed his feelings of love for the person is certainly something that is not pleasant to hear.

But, what was he really expecting? Loved reciprocated? He also did not expect it, as he did not want to betray his sister twice. After his mother, he was unable to do so again by seizing his sister's wife, as much as any life would have passed.

"I'm sorry for everything you expected, but I can't give you. Everything that is destined to us, sometimes many that are not in accordance with our will. But, that destiny is the best for us to live." Xiao Yi smiled widely.

His hands extended to Zhao Juren,

"Get this Xiao, I really like this stuff. When I was lonely, I would play it, and I realized I wasn't alone when other people heard the sound. That's how I hope you'll keep it as a gift from a friend who always remembers you as his protector." Xiao Yi said, sounding so sincere.

With hesitation, Zhao Juren greeted the shiny Xiao in his golden color.

"Hopefully as Prince Yan Juren, you remain one of Yanzhi's pride.and hopefully as lord Zhao Juren, you also find his true love." Xiao Yi bowed his body slightly, he lowered his head in his homage to Zhao Juren.

Zhao Juren looked at the back of Xiao Yi who was walking away from her in graceful and slightly heavy steps, as her visible belly weighed down her steps.

Xiao Yi's...

maybe my path is too narrow to be able to walk with you...

I was carried away by a love that was only one side of the heart,

What my day, inhaling my own miss.

Maybe it's like a floating kiambang that has no place to hold on to,

our destiny is not on that road.

Admiring without having is really okay for me,

Seeing you happy, I don't want anything.

Xiao Yi's...

If in another life we meet,

will you look at me for a moment

and love me just a little bit, too,

So that I may know how beautiful a goddess is to love....

Zhao Juren tightly grasped the bamboo xiao in her hand. His heart was wounded but he was happy.

(Juren's love adventure will continue in the spin off novel later yaa...LAST LOVE ZHAO JUREN🤗🤗🤗)

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