
Again and again I woke up with the infusion in my hand, but now the room looked all white. Maybe I'm at the Hospital or the Clinic, I don't know for sure.
Kolkata. . .
"Good day, how does Dek feel?" Ask a friendly nurse.
"Siang Sus, it's been straining sus." Say it slowly.
"Thank God, please wait a minute! The doctor will be here soon to check on you." Said Sister, writing something in her book and looking at my situation.
"Yes Sus." Say it slowly.
Soon the doctor came and checked me.
"Your blood pressure is still low! Don't get too much thought, get enough rest and eat, healthy food. You can go home tomorrow if your blood pressure is normal." The doctor explained
"But I've done it Doc, can't I go home now? Please Doc, I have to go home. I can't be treated for a long time Doc, please do doc!" I said begging you to come home soon.
"No way, your body is still weak. You better rest here! Then excuse me." Said the Doctor who then exited the room, while I exhaled a rough breath.
"What should I do? To get out of here! I must be worried about you." I muttered confusedly.
Kolkata. . .
"Good day, sorry to interrupt. I want to deliver this." Said Sister while keeping the package in the nightstand next to my patient's bed.
"Siang Sus, what is it? I didn't order anything." I said confused.
"There was a man who entrusted me, and I was asked to convey it. She said, inside her was the identity of that man." Sister's speech tells.
"Yes, thank you very much Sus, sorry to bother Sister." Said I felt bad.
"No hassle, I happen to have finished guarding. Then excuse me "Sister said goodbye.
"Yes Sus, thank you." Said me, shortly after Sister came out, I tried to get up and open the package.
Inside it contains porridge, salad and milk packaging. I kept the food, and started to figure out who it was from. I finally found you a letter, and I started reading.
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Evas
I'm sorry I couldn't see you in person and apologize for what happened that night.
I'm really sorry, I shouldn't have taken it all out on you. Who doesn't know anything, I really don't know how to do that.
At that time I was drunk, again I beg you to forgive me. And please give me a chance, I want to take responsibility for what I've done to you.
Several times I tried to speak to you, but you refused. Even you fainted, when you saw me. The doctor said you had a severe trauma, and I had to keep away the things that made your trauma relapse. That's why I can't see you right now.
Eat and get healthy soon, I've scheduled a psychiatrist for you. I hope you don't reject it, once you feel better. We will talk, and find the best way forward.
Nathan
As my tears flowed back, the shadow of that dark night came back to haunt me. I sobbed, holding my knees with a trembling body holding back the cries.
Regretted?
It's too late, there's nothing to fix and there's nothing to talk about. I need to get up and put an end to all this, lest anyone find out.
I must be strong!
I should be able to!
For Mothers sake!
I wiped my tears and I looked at the food in front of me, slowly opened it and ate it. I need a lot of energy to face a tomorrow that is heavier than ever.
When I finished, I tried to get up and change my clothes that were placed near my bag with great difficulty. When I finished, I came out of the room looking for Sister.
"Sus." Call me.
"Loh! Why leave the room? If you need anything, just pull the bell next to the bed." The sister explained.
"Sus, can you please open the infusion!" I said slowly, raising my hand which was attached to the infusion.
"Why indeed? Does his hand hurt? Or swollen?" Ask the Sister while checking my hands.
"I want to go home Sus." Said me who switched the conversation.
"So much yes, we go back to the Treatment Room you used to be! I'll call the Doctor, Ca help you get the Doctor." Said Sister to her partner while leading me back to the Nursing Room and I just resigned to obey her.
"Body is still limp like this, why would you want to go home? Better wait until it improves, later if suddenly it gets worse how?" The sister advised me.
"I have to go back Sus, I must be worried. I don't want to worry Mom, I beg you to let me go home." I pleaded.
"But your current condition is still weak, what if you later go home and return unconscious? Your mother will be more worried." Say Sister.
"I beg you, help me get home soon." My speech.
"Have a rest first, let the doctor decide later. Let's go slowly up." Said Sister while helping me lie down.
"So soon, I'll be back." Sister said kindly and I just nodded.
Before long the sisters came, carrying different infusions.
"Right now the doctor is busy in the ER! If you want to go home just fine, just after 1 pumpkin runs out again and is not weak. Then you can go home, the doctor will come to check on you after the ER patient is done." Said Sister, while changing my infusion.
"Thank you so much, sus." My speech.
"Sama-sama, yes, now you rest first. Excuse me yes!" Sister then came out of my ward.
I soon fell asleep, no matter how long I slept. When I woke up in the evening and soon the doctor came to check on me and let me go home, because my condition was starting to improve.
I'm grateful that the hospital fee has been paid by Brother Nathan, and I just need to take the medicine. After that I went home, and just behaved normally in front of Mom.