
Shanum immediately wiped his lips that had just vomited. He did not finish his meal when the food was only half eaten.
"Oh Allah.if I am really pregnant what if my father and mother know it, ruined my future, why am I still pregnant even though I have a lot of drugs that I drink," Shanum staggered towards the inside of his room while occasionally wiping his tears dripping down his cheeks.
"God may not what I worry about happen, is this karma, the falling fruit will not be far from the tree, there is no evidence of black on white but I am very sure that Sahnun is my daughter Gina my cousin's sister" Ms. Siti walked behind her.
Ms. Siti immediately finished her cooking show she was about to follow where Shanum went. But his footsteps came to a halt with his scream Bi Minah.
"Where is Siti going? Look at the cake batter is not finished, remember the 29th has been eid al-Adha but the cake has not been cooked as well" said Bu Mina Laila Sari.
Bi Siti was forced to abandon her intention to pursue Shanum, instead helping to complete some kind of pastry according to the instructions and requests from the Goddess herself.
Not that Dewi can not afford a finished cake, but for him the homemade cake all-round can be guaranteed everything. Both the purity of the ingredients, the quality of the product, and the hygienic cleanliness are more monitorable than buying a finished cake.
Shanum immediately changed his clothes and rushed to the pharmacy to buy a testpack. He didn't want to just guess or guess. The results of the examination directly are more accurate than just thinking that sometimes misses.
Shanum has a chance to get out of the house, because it just so happens that his parents are traveling to the village. Coincidentally his grandson from his uncle Dewi was having a wedding party so they yesterday afternoon returned to the village.
"I have to go to the pharmacy immediately after the results are found out, I don't want to know the child should not be born into the world,otherwise I will humiliate my parents who have given birth to and raised me in this world,"
Shanum walked towards the front door by going down one step at a time and occasionally observing the surrounding situation.
"No one should be suspicious let alone know what I did, I am with Allah SWT who knows this incident" Shanum said.
When he just wanted to start his car engine, he was forced to stop for a moment because Mang Joko reprimanded him.
"Eh non Sha, where are you going in broad daylight?" Ask Mr. Joko who just mince words.
"Eh a-nu Pak there is a campus task that I have to complete," he replied Shanum stuttering.
"Ohh it's well Non if so please be careful well Non, be careful on the road," said Mamang Joko.
"There are still many Mr. Joko, assalamualaikum," Shanum said goodbye.
Shanum was only able to breathe a sigh of relief after successfully leaving the safe guardrail of his house by the highway. Sahnun threw out her breath quite harshly.
"Alhamdulillah finally got away too, it turns out like this it feels well if I make a big mistake, somehow I used to be too brave and care to do things that are not good, he said, but now it's scared to death and like it's always been overshadowed by my own mistakes,"
The roar of his car engine sounded so loud as if he was being hunted by someone alone. Sahnun drove his car at a fairly high speed.
"Why did this happen to me!? What because all this time I have been too much wrong to Mama Dewi and Papa Sham so that I am rebuked by Allah SWT, O Allah forgive your servant who has been wrong, khilaf and sin,"
"Are Abya's brother, Aidan and Dede Shaira bound to be disappointed in me if they found out who I really am, I'm sure they're disappointed to have a brother like me" she lamented.
Until a few minutes later, he immediately stopped the pace of his vehicle when he saw there was a pharmacy not far from where it is now. Shanum first noticed the area around the location of the pharmacy. He didn't want anyone to recognize him.
Sahnun wears a cloth mask to cover his entire face wherever he goes he does not want anyone to know if he is transferring at the pharmacy. Because most likely the secret to being discovered is zero.
"Sorry, is there anything we can help you with?" Ask the pharmacy guard.
"Eh a-nu a-ku want a testpack with various brands," said Shanum.
"Sorry Mbak we only have about five types of brands that our pharmacies sell, all the quality of accuracy is good" he said the pharmacist.
"OK I just take everything," Shanum said.
After completing the payment, Shanum immediately continued his journey in an uncertain direction.
"Where else have I gone, God, I can't possibly go home right now and where is a good place to test whether I'm negative or positive pregnant,"
Sahnum continued to drive his car until the corner of the tail of his eyes saw not far from where there was Pertamina SPBU.
"I just check in front, the location of this SPBU is far enough that there will be no neighbors, family or friends who see me here," Shanum again circulated his gaze around the place which was crowded by various types of vehicles.
Be it two-wheeled or three-wheeled, Shanum locked his car tightly and walked back in a hurry to the inside of the girls' bathroom.
But unbeknownst to him, there is someone who follows in his footsteps wherever he goes. Since Shanum came out of the pharmacy to the nearest gas station through it.
"Throughout three months I searched for your whereabouts my woman, you finally came too. But unfortunately your appearance has changed. My men couldn't find your whereabouts, but today I won't allow you to be free from my grasp" the young man hit the steering wheel hard instead of getting angry.
But, he was too happy to see the latest appearance of the woman he liked with all the obsessions and arrogance.
Sahnum locked his car first and then took some testpacks in the bag. Shanum immediately checked one by one the pregnancy test kit. But all the results were the same, he came back hysterically sobbing in the bathroom.
"Astaughfirullahaladzim, why is all this happening to me, what should I do if Mama Dewi and Papa Sam know this ugliness of mine,"
Shanum sat down on the sitting closet with tears in his eyes. She did not expect that she was pregnant with a man she did not know at all.
"How do I hold that man responsible? Or I'd better just drop this shit of mine,"
Shanum closed his mouth so that the sound of his crying could not be heard outside, he did not want to be caught crying lamenting his sadness and regret when he found out he was pregnant with a boy he did not know at all.