Patience of a Sakinah
128. Decides

" Give the boy back to Raymond after that you leave Switzerland, go back to Indonesia. Because I want to hear all the details." Fic orders his confidant he orders to work in Switzerland to keep an eye on Amanda.

" Okay, Master! I will return the child to Mr. Raymond and I will also return to Indonesia soon" he said.

Fic then hung up on the phone call. Afterwards Fic continued to see a DNA test letter stating that Amanda was indeed his daughter.

" I'm sorry, Papa, my son! Papa's too weak that he can't give you a future on your side." Fic recalls being with Amanda when they had lunch together at their first meeting at the restaurant.

" Papa is helpless. Because Papa doesn't want to lose my wife and child who's here!" Fic was sobbing with tears because of the painful feeling in his heart.

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" I'm sorry mother of the orphanage but I didn't so to put her in the orphanage. I wanted to take care of him myself because I realized that I had made a mistake" said Fic's man who had kidnapped Amanda from Raymond's residence.

The mother of the orphanage looked sad that made the person become confused.

" What's up, Mom? Why did you breathe that?" tanyanya.

The mother of the orphanage looked at him with a look of guilt.

" I'm sorry but the little boy has been adopted by a wealthy family. They have now migrated to Italy. I don't know where the exact address is because they didn't tell me. They just called me last night, to let me know that they're not in Switzerland anymore" Fic's men were shocked and immediately limp all over.

After getting the information, Fic's confidants then immediately contact Fic with regret for his ignorance.

" I'm sorry Mr. Fic but Non Amanda has been adopted by a wealthy family and they've migrated to Italy. The orphanage mother doesn't know the full address now. Because their families wouldn't tell them." the person reported to the one who felt guilty at once for Amanda and Raymond.

" Yes, you have returned to Indonesia. I'm afraid that your presence there is dangerous. If Raymond finds out about you, it's over!" said Fic who immediately hung up the phone call.

Fic breathed heavily in frustration. Fic kept pacing around in his room thinking about Amanda.

Agnes listened to all the explanations from Fic's men from behind her husband's door. Agnes could only look at her husband who looked so frustrated.

" You're saying that you don't love Vivian but why are you so dizzy thinking about her son? Is Mark not enough for you?" asked Agnes who suddenly went into Fic's room.

Fic was surprised not to hear what Agnes said.

" That's not what I meant! I never loved Vivian You can be sure of that and I never took that night seriously either. But my son is something else. I must take responsibility because he is my own flesh and blood!" fic's words really hurt Agnes.

" So my son don't you think of it as something else?" agnes asked with tears dripping down her eyelids because her heart was so broken hearing her husband's words.

Fic heard his wife's words himself, "Dear you know, right? If that's not what I meant?" fic asked as he pulled Agnes' hand and hugged her tightly.

Fic kissed Agnes on the forehead to appease his wife. Usually Agnes is most happy to be treated like that when she is sad.

" Truly I never brought my feelings of love to Vivian. I just feel responsible with my son who is my own flesh and blood. But I was so scared to bring you back. Because I'm afraid of disappointing you and hurting your heart. Really, sweetheart. I never intended to hurt your heart with this matter." Agnes wept in the arms of Fic the man she had always loved with all her soul and body.

Agnes was still unable to speak. Because now his heart is sad.

" believe. I'm not looking for her because I love Vivian. My love is forever only for you and our Son. I just feel guilty for my flesh and blood just that, no less or more!" fic said in a voice that shook with overwhelming guilt in his heart that kept gnawing at his life.

" Bring your son here. I promise I'll take care of it like my own son." Agnes said in a trembling voice.

Fic is crying bigger. It made Agnes wonder herself.

" why? Don't you want me to take care of your son with Vivian? Don't you trust me?" asked Agnes who broke away from Fic on him wanting to see her husband's face more clearly.

" That's not what I meant, baby. But it's too late." Fic then sat on the sofa because he felt his legs were so limp and could not stand up again.

" Why?" ask Agnes curiously.

" Because of Amanda, she's been adopted by someone else and now they've migrated to Italy!" Fic scooped his face with both hands looking so guilty for having lost his own biological child.

" I've been guilty of Amanda and Raymond. Somehow I had to endure this mistake for the rest of my life. Baby I really can't handle this anymore. I wish God would take my life so I could be free from this guilt." Fic looks like his body is shaking because he is crying sad with his problem that never ends.

Agnes could not see the tears of her husband whom she loved so much.

" See Mr. Stanley for help in tracking down Amanda's new parents. We'll find him and I'm sure you'll be happy." Agnes tried to give support to her husband so as not to be sad again.

" I've had too much trouble Mr. Stanley I'm ashamed of him" said Fic, who objected to Agnes' idea.

Agnes was speechless listening to the words from her husband." Then we'll hire detectives ourselves and tell them to track down his whereabouts. After that we'll take Amanda to stay with us!" agnes said while hugging Fic.

Fic, who doesn't know that the person who adopted Amanda is actually an acquaintance of Agnes herself. Feel very grateful to him.

It was Agnes who had informed the couple of Amanda's whereabouts at the Orphanage and advised them to adopt her. After that told them to leave the Swiss Ager the boy was not taken from their hands back.

' I'm sorry if I had to go to such extremes to make you forget about Amanda.' The inner Agnes who couldn't bear to lose her husband who was always busy thinking about the child of another woman.

Agnes's feelings crumbled. But he couldn't afford to lose Fic. Therefore she can only do that so that her husband returns to their lives and forgets about Amanda.

But who would have thought that it turned out that Fic was so guilty of the incident and increasingly made him suffer from a very big heart.

After the incident, Fic became ill and eventually died. Fic's broken feelings melted down from feeling guilty for losing his own biological child due to his careless decision to kidnap Amanda.

Agnes feels guilty for not being forthright to the fix about her actions that told her acquaintances to adopt Amanda.

' Fic ''s. May you forgive me. That's not what I meant. I never intended to give a big inner wound to me. I just want you to forget Amanda and live happily with our son. But who would have thought that you couldn't forget him either. Your bastard son is with that whore!' bathin Agnes is in the cemetery.

Stanley and Sakinah stare at the red land that is now Fic's final resting place.

Their hearts were so sad that they could not help the matter of Fic who had been gnawing at his heart so slowly that it finally made Fic have to breathe out the last one in such great regret.

' I'm sorry Fic because I'm incompetent and can't help you to find Amanda again. Really Fic. I'm hiding this secret from you. Because I'm afraid you'll be angry and sad. If you find out that it's all your wife's plan!' bathin Stanley while glancing at Agnes who is currently still sobbing beside the tomb.

' I never thought that your wife was such a vile woman who never thought of anyone else. She is a very selfish definition of a woman and has never thought about the lives of others she has played with. Somehow Amanda's fate. I don't know it either. Because it's so hard to trace the whereabouts of the man Agnes told to adopt Amanda. That person was so powerful that it could cover up his identity!' bathin Stanley is sorry.