Pesantren I'M In Love
33. GEGANAS

JLEEB............

I'm sitting drowning already not caring about the bloodstains that might be growing in disbelief with what I see

"MY LOVE'S......IMAM INSYAALLAH...."

the circle of love is red ,

I saw every note of Sarah showing every feeling on the doom she poured on some notes, enough to prove that sarah really liked and admired the doom

"stupid....."

I murmured to myself , all this time sarah liked azam maybe even before I came to their lives and messed it all up , ' ' she said ,did I come at the wrong time or should I not have come here, how could Sarah and I like the same man,why did Sarah never tell me anything impressed like fine only when others teased me with azam, did she close her wounded heart with a smile she was willing to sacrifice her feelings for me.....

I regained my senses and put the box and its contents back in place and rushed to change clothes and quickly ran to class because it was too late, keeping all my shock in my mind

"anti-sil for a long time." said sarah now I was in class and sitting next to sarah I looked at her for a long time.

"sil luckily ustadz Farhan has not entered, but anywhere else"the poking of ayu on my shoulder made my daydream conscious

"haaa...oh this is me changing skirts, because my monthly guests just cheered out.." I grinned.

the treett.....

entry hours .....

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all this morning I was really not excited and just thought about the matter was disappointed???ohh..very ......

this has been my reason for never thinking about heart problems,,, I think, heart problems are complicated but now I'm stuck

after the first hour of study was over and the break I preferred to leave my three friends with the excuse to go to the library when I just wanted to avoid I just wanted to be alone at this time

maybe it's true that I was wrong I shouldn't be between azam and sarah ,sarah was my closest friend she was the first one to accept me here when everyone was staring weirdly at me she was the one at the time when I needed a friend, too,kaka but on the other hand I also like azam as well as azam even seems to take azam seriously to me no matter what it means

it may be yes ... I am currently troubled, even though there used to be no bad word in the dictionary of a priscil upset only for children alay.....after the lesson ended I prefer to go to the tree house trying to avoid sarah and azam

some days I refused every single one of her deeds or letters and I avoided Sarah, be ashamed, angry, unkind I didn't want to meet Sarah

every sarah calls even if I meet in the room I prefer to go straight to sleep....

"sill.."call sarah, I turned around lucky when I met Fitri.

"Fitri...wait.." I ran towards Fitri and joined him.

"sorry I'm sarah.."my inner.

it seems that ma'am yati spoke to azam that every gift of his has now been rejected even his letter never once opened azam felt strange to me ,he's brainwashed whether he ever made a mistake or something that changed when I usually reply to his letters

in class

"yu, how do you feel now priscil is different ,??"ask sarah to ayu

"how different??"tanya ayu scrunched her eyebrows together

"like avoiding even sitting moved so with anti yu.." thought sarah.

"is there any wrong, yu ??"sarah remembers

"maybe try to think about sar" replied Cici

"but if you think about it, it's like staying away.."ucap ayu.

"try later we ask the ukhtinya directly" he added

outside of 'class,,,, I accidentally ran into the azam ,azam pulled my arm into a passage that was rarely passed

"what's up ??"tannya

I scrunched my eyebrows

"the idea that Ko loe pulled was supposed to be me ??" I replied nervously, I had expected Azam would be suspicious and asked

"anti why ???did ana make a mistake ??"ask worried

"uh I must answer what ....huffttt okeh priscil we finish this now it seems like this is the best way for all I will retreat and let the doom with sarah " my inner crying is also the first time I feel in love ......

" huufffttt.

"zam,, I'm sorry it seems like your intention to get to know me even more let alone to a further stage I enough until here ......"my lips trembled with no power to utter it let alone see the azam expression that turned to disappointment

I don't feel my tears dripping I immediately wiped it

"but why???is there any wrong or any reasonable reason ???" ask her to investigate

I couldn't answer, I ran away because my tears kept flowing

azam pov

"various struck by lightning in the middle of a hole, hearing priscil break the relationship without giving a reason, lately priscil changed and always avoided even though we were still good before ,joking even though only through the letter even I have begged Abi and ummi so that we'll always be preaching priscil ...."

today is right on schedule pencak silat training inevitably I have to come I know azam must be there and maybe this is the last time I follow this activity , at least there was no reason I would meet him anymore and maybe that would make it easier for me to forget the chastisement

before my three friends entered the room I first took my clothes to avoid sarah, until now I was confused what to answer if they asked....

now I've changed clothes and headed to the field really I'm not ready, from a distance only a pair of eyes look at me sharply

"yahh...today I will resign at ustadz Rahman.."my murmurs steady.

during the warm-up and following the movements of Ustadz Rahman,azam went around justifying the position of the students

deg...

deg...

deg....

my heart was racing I guessed he must have been deliberately towards me and sure enough I didn't dare to look into the eyes of his eagle painting a look of disappointment on his handsome face

tap....

"anti hasn't answered ???" whispering while confirming the position of my hand I was silent without being able to say anything like numbness of my mouth and lips

"answer....!!!"

his strangulation made everyone turn their eyes to us

I understand he's angry, disillusioned with me leaving him without giving any answers and explanations

"astagfirullahaladzim, forgive ana,sill ana did not mean that ...."

I could only be silent and subconsciously crying made her feel even more guilty

"woyy loe tuh why ..pake yells out loud loe ,loe apain priscil...." vito arrived arrived and angry at the azam about to hit the azam but repelled the doom made vito feel challenged and raised a fist on the azam, the corner of the azam lips spit out blood ,ustadz Rahman ran over and injured those who were fighting

"stooopp....stop.....!!!"all eyes on me peeked training became chaotic ........

I wiped my tears

"ustadz ,, sorry starting today priscil resigned.." said I loudly make everyone surprised including my three friends who are on the sidelines because they know today my pencak silat training .........