Pesantren I'M In Love
37. Still don't believe

the Priscil house

as if still hoping all this is not the reality I rubbed my eyes saw my house was filled with people dressed all in black with yellow flags stuck in between the top of the fence not to forget some garlands lined up to form the line along the road reads sorry from various parties because in addition to being a naval soldier my father also has a business so naturally when his departure many parties sympathize....our car went into the garage and a little jammed considering the number of people and chairs lined up ,when the car stopped immediately I went out and slammed the car door running towards the front door of the house that was wide open my steps stopped when I saw the figure that I had always idolized ,my protective figure was stretched stiff in the middle of the house covered with rags next to the bars. surrounded by people dressed in black who were unpretentious to read the do'a ,next to him sat hugging each other ka tyas and mamah who was sobbing....

instantly my legs like powerless I collapsed in front of my father's corpse....cuddle and hold him tears?????....huuhhhhh already escaped just flooding my cheeks .....

mamah who saw me suddenly hugged channeling intense sadness and mutual strengthening

occasionally I glanced at the burly body that used to hug me, pampering me was now lifeless, the hand that used to hold my face pulled the whistle that was carried and blew it even gently rubbed my hair had lost its power, the mouth that used to scold me, praised me today silent, silent, sharp eyes piercing if I do wrong and even radiate affection now will never open again...

"a..yah...priscil longs...dad wakes...do not stay in priscil....huuu....huuu....."my voice as much as I cry makes everyone in the room feel my sadness.

"ade, who is stoic dear we fight to be patient the same yes..."mamah said his voice shook and hoarse signifies that he had been crying for a long time and father like Habibie and Ainun 2 version couples wherever father went mamah always follow ,even their romantic relationship with Romeo and Juliet makes others jealous of the harmony they have 30 years of their marriage

I know mamah is very trying to toughen up even with a bitter smile to endure the pain of his heart ka tyas was beside mamah with bang Hilman bang jaya beside me beside mamah there ka Airin

today my father returned to Rahmatullah at 05.00 wib in one of the naval hospitals in Bandung due to a heart attack caused by high cholesterol and blood pressure

my veil is wet with my tears, suddenly it's time for my father to be bathed ,his body was taken by some of the closest mosque attendants and his son-in-law father was bathed and pardoned today but his funeral plans will be held tomorrow , waiting for the arrival of family members father including omah (mother of father) who was in Jakarta, for a long time I cried I went to my room to mourn the departure of father, considering all the memories with him too much.....yep......

it hurts my heart to remember the memories with my father.please God if you have to choose better I'm the one who left........I lay sideways on the bed opening my veil without taking off my shirt my tangled appearance and hungry stomach I no longer felt

"tock..tok.....

"dek, can you come in???" bang jaya's voice behind my bedroom door

I didn't answer, but the door to my room wasn't locked so bang jaya opened it straight away, he brought a tray of food and drink considering it was late and I hadn't had lunch

"deak eat first, do you want a bribe brother ???"ask her while putting a tray on the nightstand and sitting on the edge of the bed

"taro, I'm not a laper yet." I said flat without looking.

"but from noon you haven't eaten,,, eaten huh ?? ntar pain ..."pinta bang jaya

I shook slowly

" yes it's taro brother on the table but promise eaten yes ..."bang jaya left my room

he knows my stubborn character is not yes no I will not be easily seduced that there is an end to a fight that has been able to conquer me all this time just dad.....

not yet has my heart healed from the wounds now plus more pain .. I feel my life is no lucky lucky her, she said, long time I cry makes my eyes moist even now like aga swell because of too much crying.

the night my family arrived including omah, I don't know what happened just that there was a lot of crying down there

tap.....

ceklek.......

"sad,......priscil has eaten???"her question is soft to vibrate her glass-glazed eyes are interested in narrowing as the folds of the eyes indicate her age is no longer young

I shook my head

"no sense of omah.." I replied slowly.

"sadly do not be like that .later a pain pity father will not be calm there if priscil like this." he replied.

"yes later priscil eat omah .

"patient sweet heart please let your father do not make his way.he is calm there, God loves you more.."clear omah with tears.

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in ponpes pa kyai was chatting with umah, ustadz Rahman, ustadz Farhan, ustadzah nurul, about ta'ziyah to my house they agreed to go tomorrow morning, take sarah,ayu,cici,vito, say,and Azam because from this afternoon they were protesting in the room of Nurul's ustadzah to join because of a coincidence that tomorrow's Saturday pa kyai got the news that tomorrow is the day the father will be buried

ayu, sarah, Cici, Vito and azam who had been waiting for news finally breathed a sigh of relief because they were allowed to come

the next day ba'da dawn they set off pa kyai with umah , ustadzah nurul and ustadz Farhan while ustadz Rahman accompanied Azam, Vito, Sarah,ayu and cici in different cars

"ana titip pesantren ustadz "pronounced pa kyai on ustadz Haikal

"well pa yai..be careful on the road.." replied ustadz Haikal.

"salama-oom......"

"wa'alaikum....."

their cars drove too

"vr... wekkkk hoekk....."

Cici who is not used to riding a car even drunken journey

"haaaa new so already uekkkk..ga ever ride a car ya.."ucap azam.

"ikh noisy akh. emang yes ana is not unusual." he replied while holding a scraped pouch.

make them laugh...

"ci.ci.. especially if you get on a plane to.. has passed out anti.."ledek ustadz Rahman.

"yes it is in front of us to pull over first, all rest ..." said ustadz Rahman