Please Let go of me
Chapter 16 - Too soon to conclude

The next day, Suci returned with a routine of caring for abandoned children, but moved with great care. How happy she has the opportunity to feel like a normal woman, stroking her stomach with a smile. 

Finished doing his routine, Suci chose to sit in the shade. Seeing the children playing with laughter heard in the ears, made him smile. Someone's hand on his shoulder made him flinch in shock, immediately turning his head and examining the perpetrator. "Darken?" 

"From yesterday I saw you smile, what's up?" tanya Melati who joined, sat next to her new friend who was both from Indonesia.

"No, I'm happy to see the kids playing."

"Lied."

Suci smiled, unable to say his condition was two-bodied. Someone came to greet the two, a sacrificial man who covered the face, leaving only the eyes. "Can I join?" 

Sacred gazed in the other direction, realizing that the blue-eyed man was looking at her. Melati saw that, frowning because she did not understand what happened between the two. He patted his forehead because he had just remembered something that had almost been forgotten. "I have to go!" 

"Where are you going?" ask the uncomfortable Saints if left with a foreign man.

"It takes a while, not long. I must have come back here!" obviously Melati for Saints to calm down. 

"But__." Haven't had time to continue his words, Melati first left. Sighing and down the view pay attention to the atmosphere around. 

"You look uncomfortable with me" said the curious Zaid.

"Hem, it's not appropriate for a woman to be with a foreign man." 

"Okay, I get it."

"Do you live here?" the curious Holy asked, almost every day the man came.

"Yes, my place is not far from here. Seeing the children playing made my fatigue less," Zaid replied, turning his gaze to the children playing. "How are you doing?" 

"I'm good, don't tell them anything about my pregnancy."

"Why?" 

"That's privacy, I just want my husband to know before anyone else."

Zaid stared closely at the hijab-wearing woman two meters away. "My guess is right, you married woman. This country is not safe for you, even the war continues. Harm yourself by going alone, are you avoiding trouble?"

Zaid smiled, seeing the toughness of women became an attraction in itself. "There are only two reasons to come here, no purpose and secondly avoid trouble."

Suci was a little nervous when Zaid's words were true, again crossed the shadow of the husband when he noticed Siska's condition. 

"No need to think about my words! You know, I came here to avoid trouble and also have no purpose. A lost man who was looking for a way, that's all." Zaid.

Sacred raised his head, looking at the blue-eyed man not far from before him. "Why did you say that to me? We're not that close."

"I just wanted to say it, you saw that little girl there." Zaid pointed to Rasidha who was playing the doll with her friend. 

Saints nodded. "I saw Rasidha."

"Right, I like kids, but the little girl's attraction got me here. I brought him here, when both his parents died being slaughtered by the army."

"I hate wars, they have no heart. Bombing their homes, losing their families and loved ones is painful." The sad Holy Speech, made Zaid speechless.

"Don't be quick to judge, not all soldiers are evil."

"Then why did they take away the children's happiness?" a clear fluid droplet glistened in the eye patch, as if feeling the same way.

Zaid mangosteen-mumble head. "I understand you feel sad, there are times when they do that out of helplessness."

"Yes, I hope you're telling the truth." The Holy Speaker expected that. 

"I'll go first!" pamit Zaid who passed away, for some reason his feelings were slightly hurt as the woman in the hijap behind him disliked the Israeli army.

Zaid stared at his palms, the hands used to kill Muslims in the country. So many people were exhausted at hand, even he was the one who killed both of Rasidha's parents. The little girl who saw his cruelty in that moment, wanted to kill an innocent child. But, his conscience seemed to move when he saw the little girl who was so traumatized that he never spoke. 

Notable commanders were ruthless in combat, snipers at close range and long distance. It was easy for him to lay innocent lives, but his conscience was against the ego in the mind. "Am I so bad? Being a commander is not my wish." He muttered in his Jeep and left the place for the Israeli military headquarters.

Suci seemed to be thinking about his wrong words, as a sense of anger made him almost lose control. "Astaghfirullah, because anger makes me too hasty to conclude something. Forgive your servant, Lord." He moved from that place.

Suddenly the taste of sour tongue makes him want to taste fresh fruit. "Am I in the cravings phase? I want to eat young mango." He murmured while sipping saliva, imagining young mango looks delicious.