Please Let go of me
Chapter 90 - Simon's big decision

Simon's body trembled violently, his legs limp and unable to support his now kneeling body. As if seeing the light when he saw a small child wearing white face, tears rolled down his cheeks when he heard the chanting of the Holy Quran. Arriving at the moment when Rasidha read Surah Thaha, he quickly sat down to join. Enjoying the beautiful melodious chant, he accidentally read the meaning of Surah Thaha verse fourteen.

He read until the fourteenth verse and focused on its meaning. "Truly I am Allah, there is no God (who is right) but Me, so worship Me and establish prayer to remember Me.” 

Simon cried with a little voice, all this time he was always looking for truth in life. However, just one surah in the Qur'an gives him guidance. Remembering his passing guilt, the sins he created himself by killing others. At once, his mind was open to the real view of Islam.

Rasidha stopped to read the Qur'an, immediately turned his head and hugged his adoptive father. She did not know the cause of her father crying, she quickly wiped away the tears. "Don't cry anymore, Dad." 

"Solve up that book, son." Pinta Simon still wants to hear the whole Surah Thaha. Rasidha quickly nodded his head, and again finished his reading.

Simon cried, remembering his sinful self. His life always started with a deep ugliness, considering he never felt calm. 

After reading the Qur'an, Rasida closed the holy book of Muslims, then kissed it, put it to the highest place while looking at it with a very confused feeling, he only gave a warm embrace as a tranquilizer. 

The little girl who did not know the cause of the adults cried, only gave a soft pat on the father's shoulder. "Don't cry anymore" she said gently.

Simon smiled behind his torch, peeked at his daughter's forehead and passed away leaving the place. He rushed to his room to clean himself up, so many wounds all over the body. 

Simon can't sleep, he's gone after sunrise. Wanting to solve his problems and not wanting to live in the midst of sin. Prepare one suitcase, and walk towards her daughter's room studying. "Dad has to leave you for a while," he muttered that he saw the little girl, and immediately dragged the suitcase.

In the car, he reached out to his cell phone and contacted the assistant. 

"Hello."

"Yes, are you okay?" 

"Hem, I'm good."

"Thank God if you're okay, what's the master to the office today?" 

"What does that mean, sir?" 

"Urus is my company well and I trust you. There's something important I want to do, don't look for me or call me first."

"All right." 

Simon disconnected the phone, he had already prepared his clothes during his departure. Really, his heart felt so heavy as to leave Rasidha within a few weeks. However, he wanted to settle matters of heart as well as the sins he had committed during his time as Israeli military commander.

"I'm sorry, Rasidha. You have to leave without telling you, after everything's done? I'll be back to be a better person." His monologue drove his vehicle to a place to calm the mind, where he would find the truth and also his true identity. 

Elsewhere, Ben's assistant shook his head slowly, making the hijab-wearing woman next to him sad. "What did Simon say?" holy Urge.

"Sorry, for the next few weeks he's not going to the office."

"Where is he?"

"Okay, I don't know either. But you take it easy, he'll be back at the right time."

"All right, I'm sorry." Saints immediately left Ben's assistant, bending his face and still reminiscing about his harsh treatment of Simon. "Is he angry because of me? Is he avoiding me?" her inner self seemed to think, saddened at not being able to apologize with the blue-eyed man, as his accusations offended the man. That was how he thought, he did not know when they would meet again.

"Where did Mr Simon go? Why did he suddenly leave? What cause?" muttered Ben's assistant inwardly, and immediately left the place.

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Until the car stops in a building that looks simple, down the view in that place. Convincing yourself to get calm and also justification, looking for a vacillating identity. "May I get a lead here!" simon murmured a sigh and immediately got down from the car, getting inside the simple building that was in front of him. 

Yes, Simon decided to enter the pesantren and explore the science of Islam, he decided to embrace the religion of Islam with full confidence. Rela leaves work only with inner calm and also removes all doubts in the heart.