Prince Modosa
Chapter 73 (We must separate)
Today Farah will meet Hilman at a cafe. Farah was determined to tell Hilman the truth about her. Although bitter he must be honest so that in the future Farah can breathe a sigh of relief without lies even though he must be prepared with all the consequences.
"Are you sure you're going to let Hilman go? Farah, you're innocent this is an accident that happened unexpectedly and I'm sure Hilman will forgive you and continue your marriage" Dini said
"Yes Farah, I agree this time with the opinion of the judge. You deserve to be happy Far." - timpal Vania
Dini just glanced at Vania who always called her judges, wanting to feel protest but now Farah's answer is more important now.
"I'm sure this is my last decision. Hilman is a good man and shouldn't have him with me and bear all this. If he would accept me and my son, but not his family. I know how Hilman's family and I have to be self-aware that now I don't deserve him anymore. "Farah answered while glazed, his heart hurt but this was the decision he had to take.
" If only I had met that br*hsek guy, I'd want to feel like I'd strangle his neck and slap him, huhuhu... "Vania was crying so badly.
" If I had met that br*hsek guy, I'd have taken all the atm and the money. I don't care if he's going to be poor that matters I'm happy. "deadly
" What is my wonder, what is your brain made of? Why is money only on your mind!" furious Vania
" Now be realistic, getting pregnant and giving birth need money. See now, Farah is not working and only rely on the savings he keeps in your mommy. She is not likely to work during a big pregnancy, where there are companies or restaurants that want to accept pregnant women so therefore just drain the money of the br*ngsek or his mother, it is, uh even the Farah just took the perfume, it's crazy! " Dini is so fiery. While at the Keken house, the big lady said what Farah wanted and surely she would grant it but in fact Farah asked Keken perfume to take home. Irritatingly.
" Seek money cake, car or palace house so it can be sold again eh this instead ask for a worthless perfume. Forgive Farah!" continue Dini still with grumbling mode.
Farah just lowered her head, not knowing what she was thinking when Miss Imelda asked what she wanted, and she quickly said she wanted to ask for Keken's perfume lying in her room. Strange isn't.
Vania understands Farah's current wishes, perhaps not her wishes but those of the baby.
"Sorry if I offend you, but I'm so sick." Premature
"I know I'm stupid." Farah smiled wryly, she was not angry when Dini chided her.
"I'll take you to meet Hilman." Vania swiftly helps Farah, she does not want her best friend to go alone. Vania knows that even though Farah looks tough and tries to smile but in her heart crumbles dimly, the coveted marriage just crumbles. Vania doesn't want Farah to feel alone when she's hurt.
" Are you sure you're gonna drive me around while your heart's fucked up like that." Farah looked at Vania's disheveled, shabby face. This morning Vania came crying because she was cheated on by her boyfriend. Vania breaks up after finding out Andrew has another lover.
" I'm sure, you don't have to worry about me, I'm fine. Wait a minute I want to polish my face to make it a little neat."
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~Shine Cafe ~
"Why do you want us to meet here, I should have picked you up at home." Hilman stared intensely at Farah, his increasingly thin face with dark circles around his eyes. "Are you sleep-deprived to think of our soon-to-be marriage?"
"Far, I'm happy because soon you'll be mine." Hilman put on a very happy smile
Farah felt more guilty that her face could not look at Hilman, her feelings were raging. Sick, very sick when staring at her future husband. He feels very guilty.
" I'm sorry. " Farah let out a long sigh, trying to regulate her increasingly rapid heartbeat.
"Ma. I'm sorry bang." Farah's voice choked in the throat. "I'm sorry." That's the only thing that came out of Farah's lips
Hilman was getting riled up, this was the first time Farah had said an apology repeatedly. The feeling grew even more uneasy when she saw Farah shed tears .
"Pardon me for what, Far?" Hilman tried to throw away his bad thoughts.
"Pers... Our marriage will not be consummated. I can't continue this relationship and we better split up." Farah tried to stare at Hilman's face, the man she had been there for when it was hard and happy.
"What does this mean." Hilman's mind seemed to be not well connected, trying to digest Farah's words which he thought were absurd.
"Farah, please explain to me. What do you mean!" hilman's voice was now starting to rise
"I can't marry you, we can't be with bang." Farah's tears grew louder, she was unable to say anything more. His voice was always choking in his throat.
"Don't talk Farah nonsense, our preparations are ninety-five percent. Invitations are already printed, the building, the catering is booked, the wedding dress is ready, please don't joke like this because I don't like it!" Hilman stared intently at Farah who looked puffy as she cried. He wondered what caused Farah to go like this.
" Give me a reason why you can't continue our marriage? " asked Hilman, he tried to lower his tone. Farah is not the type of girl who likes to be pressed let alone yelled at. Hilman tries to be patient so Farah will tell him what really happened to her.
Farah was silent for a long time and occasionally wiped away the traces of her tears, and only glanced at Hilman.
"A. I'm pregnant bang." Farah was unable to look towards Hilman who was now stunned.
" A.. What...?!! How could? Who's that guy!" he clenched his fingers. And pressed his jaw in anger.
"Flood!!" hardik Hilman, he was so impatient because Farah closed his mouth. And some of the surrounding people had glanced towards them.
" I'll explain but not here." One woman's voice drew closer to them. Vania grabbed Farah's body and carried her into the car.
"Can you explain!" Hilman again asked, currently the three of them are in Vania's car and are in the middle passenger seat with Farah's position in their midst.
This is Vania's reason for joining Farah because one of them Farah will be weak and powerless to say everything to Hilman. Farah always hugged Vania and did not dare to look at Hilman's sad face.
" Farah's pregnant with br*the son." Vania breathed her long breath
"Br*ngsek, which one?!" Hilman was still furious at Farah, the girl he had loved wholeheartedly now with a double stand and pregnant from the seed of another man.
"Abang met him once at a D&R restaurant, an arrogant man who wouldn't shake hands with you, bang." Farah, who had calmed down, now broke down Vania's embrace, trying to explain herself to Hilman.
"You mean the guy who was with the pretty girl and he was Antoni's boss!" terka Hilman, and got a nod from Farah
"****!! So when we met him, did you know the guy?" Farah nodded her head
"You lied to me?" Hilman doesn't believe Farah dares to lie to him.
"I'm sorry" he said with regret. "It started with our engagement ring."
Farah tells the beginning of their meeting and Vania also helped justify the words Farah.
"Then how did you conceive her child, did you love her?!"
"No! I don't love him, deep down I think it's still the same, only Hilman's brother I love."
"After you tell me something like this, I don't know if I should believe you or not, because right now I'm disappointed that you lied to me Far." Hilman said it firmly
"I don't care if you don't believe me, it's my brother's right." Farah shrunk the water of her nose that was almost dripping. Several times he wiped it with a tissue and threw it under his feet.
" But one thing you have to believe, I love you. And now that I'm broken, my dream with my brother is gone and there's no more happiness."
Vania stroked Farah's back several times to give her some strength.
"I'm also not my father's biological son and I now know why you've always been indifferent to me."
"I was selfish to never tell my brother for fear that my brother would change his mind and cancel my marriage but in fact it is a god of other wills, I was impregnated br*hsek man when unconscious."
Hilman rubbed his face violently. Between pity, annoyance, anger, disappointment mixed into one. Her dream with Farah is eroding.
" Why not call the police? "
" What a commoner like me is capable of fighting a top class person with many colleagues and high positions. Fighting him is like suicide." Farah looked far away, her mind was empty. Remembering the bad incident was tantamount to reopening the wounds he had sealed tightly. Feels like chest tightness.
" Will he be responsible? "asked Hilman
" He didn't know I was pregnant with his child. "
" What!! How could? "
" He is being assigned in Malang, probably in this week to return to Jakarta. I'll tell her but I don't want her to take responsibility, don't want her to marry me because I don't love her."
" Don't tell me you're gonna drop it, Farah! this baby is innocent, don't kill him. "
" Do you think I'm that cruel? Doesn't my brother recognize me? " Farah repeatedly breathed his long breath
" I can live with him both without him. I want to raise him myself. "
" And you want your son to live without a clear status without a father, don't talk Farah nonsense! "
" What do I have to do! Receive the br*hose man! " cried Farah, her emotions began to stabilize, Farah began to raise her tone. My heart ached as I recalled the bad events and how could I live with that man!!"
" I'm ruined, bang! It's ruined! "yell it again
" What you think is that it's easy for me to live my life!, even breathing is so hard, I even want to kill myself. Dumped family, estranged, alone, never cared for by parents and now pregnant from the man, everything feels stifling.Sick, it hurts so much!! " Farah hit his chest, his breath was hunting, his chest seemed to be crushed by something very heavy, his mind was depressed and wanted to explode. He cried sobbing
" Farah, you calm down. Quiet Farah. "Vania hugged Farah's body back. Farah's tears flowed down Vania's sleeves." Relax, you must be calm, not to the stress of remembering the baby in your womb. " Vania repeatedly stroked Farah's back
" Sick Van! So sick!! My life is no longer worth anything. I want to get out of here, get as far away as possible and start a new life, huhuhu... " Farah sobbed loudly, so that Hilman who was beside him now felt pity and did not feel his tears coming down in the corner of his eyes. The happiness that was almost in sight was now instantly shattered into pieces especially when he saw the woman he loved crying loudly. His heart also hurt.
Fate is so cruel and impartial to him, the woman he loves looks very hurt by this. An unwanted event. And now Hilman knows how Farah feels.
" I'll keep marrying you, let's continue with our wedding." Hilman tried to grab Farah's body to hug her. Farah refused.
Vania and Farah looked at each other, a second later Farah shook her head. Hilman pulled Farah's hand into his arms. Farah resigned.
" It's not that easy bang. "say Farah" I don't want you to take responsibility for what you don't do. "
" I accept you and this child. "knee Hilman
" Maybe you can accept me and this child but not your family. " Farah broke her embrace
"Marriage is not just a problem for both of us. Marriage brings two families together. I know an only child brother who is very proud of my parents, then how can I give red stains on my brother's family with this pregnancy, let alone this is not a brother's child. They definitely can't accept me and this kid bang, can't! "
" I'll talk to Mom, she'll understand. " Hilman is still trying to convince Farah with his decision.
" No need to bang, I'm already convinced of my decision and we better go our separate ways. I don't have any face to see my mother anymore, I'm ashamed. I hope you can accept my decision, hopefully you can get a better woman than me. "bluff Farah, her voice more hoarse holding back her tears again.
" No! Nah! I don't want to! Farah I can't accept any of this. " Hilman was getting frustrated, he hugged Farah tightly while kissing her forehead
Vania threw her face out the window of the car, she could not see these lovers crying and one of them said the word separate,even he who is currently still sad because cheated on by his girlfriend is still not how much pain, compared to a couple who are now in his car.
"I beg Farah, let's continue our marriage." Hilman pleaded with a heartfelt face hoping Farah would melt when she saw herself crying
" I can't bang, it's not as easy as you imagine."
"Then you want us to separate like this, HUH...!" Hilman cried out in frustration, his dream shattered into pieces. The dream of living with the lover extinct already. Unremaining
Farah shrunk her nose water, she tried to calm herself down. This was the first time he heard Hilman yelling at him.
" You know, bang, the reason I don't want to marry you?" Farah clasped Hilman's hand tightly
"It's not because I don't love, it's because I love you" she continued
"I just don't want this kid to live like me."
"First, my father married my mother because he loved my mother. But after mom died, there was no love left. I was neglected, living as if alone with no direction or purpose. You just love your mom, not me. I'm just another boy he saved so that the mother's family doesn't bear the shame, then how can I carve this history back. I don't want my son to live without love, it hurts him so much later, bang" Farah said
" But I'm not that kind of man, I'm Hilman the man who will always love you and your son. "
" I know, I just wanted to protect this kid because I promised to love my mom and me but it faded with time. "
Vania who knows the life story of Farah can now only be as much as she wants, her heart is very sick considering the first time she met Farah.
" I beg Farah. " Hilman still asks for mercy
" I'm sorry bang, my decision is already unanimous"
Hilman again drew Farah's hand and hugged her tightly as if inseparable, crying over her strong adorable girl parting with her, so Farah repeatedly said an apology to countless so
numerous. And in another corner a car always monitors their movements while shooting towards Vania's car.