Pseudo Shadows
13. Ambition

"Too ambitious sometimes ends tragically."

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No one is not captivated by Aihara's sweet voice. Even for a moment their gaze was as blank as their minds when Aihara's voice penetrated gently through their eardrums. There, Hanna felt something called longing after temple after temple after temple fluttered from her cleavage. He could feel the same tightness that Akihiko felt back then.

About five minutes out of the recording kitchen, this was their highest record since they only did one recording with outstanding results. Matsuo and Kekai flocked to Aihara, suddenly they were curious about her figure that was too perfect. While Hanna was sitting next to Akihiko who somehow looks moody.

"Your song lyrics don't match what you're going through. Ck, aren't you in love?" Ask Hanna curiously.

Akihiko pulled the corner of his lips, his gaze still could not be separated from the figure of Aihara who was smiling in shame because of Matsuo's temptation. "Aihara created that song. So that's the story."

The deg!

Wait, the look on Akihiko's face is really cloudy, the man who always looks flat now looks fragile. And that breath-filled answer, Hanna was sure it must have something to do with Aihara's late ex-lover, then did Akihiko know about it?

"You know something about him?"

Shut up for a moment, "No, he's full of secrets." Although he had expected that Aihara still loved her ex-boyfriend, he could never prove it.

What is less than him?

Why is it so hard to forget this guy?

Akihiko let out a heavy sigh, he decided to go home early, his heart condition is not fine. He then got up, walking towards Aihara ignoring the brown bead that was looking at her wounded.

His fists tightened, Hanna began to believe one thing more. Aihara doesn't really love Akihiko, the girl just makes it as an impingement. And Hanna would never let that girl hurt Akihiko more than this.

"You going home now?" Akihiko asked who managed to attract the attention of the three people in front of her.

"Are you done?"

Pulling the corner of her lips responded to Aihara's adorable look, "Hm. Today is done, let's go home."

Aihara then got up, bowing her body slightly to Kekai and matsuo who turned her face sour.

"Ck, you're just interrupting! We just want to chat with him, you possessive!" Matsuo's murmur was answered with a soft nudity Aihara.

"Thank you for today, Matsuo, Keki and Hanna." A little awkward when calling the girl's name, while Hanna just gave a thumbs up in response.

"Yes, hurry home your beloved is waiting." Kekeh Kekai found the tangled look of Akihiko who had been waiting for Aihara.

"Well, I'll see you tomorrow!"

"Be careful with your lover is Aihara! His face looks like a chicken butt, creepy!!"

Ignoring Matsuo's words, Aihara again chuckled softly beside Akihiko who was just silent. He was very happy today, because he was very familiar with music again after a long time. And it was so much fun that he spent his days with Akihiko, really amazing.

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"Hanna go home with Matsuo, danger if a girl walks alone at night." Keki's advice when he saw Hanna was preparing to go home. And again Matsuo's attitude changed, the man seemed to have no reaction.

"What am I to be alone." He smiled awkwardly to find Matsuo who seemed to ignore him.

"Omong empty. Oy, Suo! Take Hanna there, why are you?! From morning on, keep acting shitty." His grunts were upset, this was unusual. Matsuo will automatically apply to drive Hanna home, then now? Are they fighting? Her thought.

"It's okay, I have to go home now, bye!"

"Hey, Hanna!!"

Matsuo actually carried out his orders to no longer deal with him, but if it was like this, why would Hanna be hurt? Ck, totally selfish. Didn't he forbid Matsuo to love her, even suggesting her to date anyone if it could shift the love towards her?

Even the expression 'cruel' was not enough for him, and now he behaves hypocritically as if he were hurt by Matsuo's behavior. Hmh!

Still running alone, following the schedule of night bus operations. Cold, Hanna rubbed her palms a few times, trying to warm herself up with it. But useless, because a few more weeks will come winter so that tonight feels many times the cold.

Flinched, both eyes widened abruptly as someone put on a warm jacket. He turned to the side and found Matsuo there who was walking silently beside him. For a moment his heart warmed.

"Hm."

I don't know how it feels to be so awkward. Hanna sighed a few times trying to act like she used to, "I'm glad you've been able to open your heart to others." He pulled the corner of his lips, smiling wryly.

"....."

It seemed that Matsuo did not want to talk to him. They continued to walk towards the bus stop, still in silence. It was strange to go hand in hand with the quiet Matsuo, the man would usually tease him at all times, but now he did not. Hanna tried several times to steal a glance at him, she could see Matsuo's cold gaze staring blankly at the road in front of her. It wasn't Matsuo he knew.

"Ekhem! If you're acting like this to keep your lover's feelings in check, why do you still intend to drive me home?" In fact Hanna could not stand it anymore, she was completely fed up with Matsuo's abandonment. "This attitude of yours means that you're still-"

"Stop!"

Hanna was shocked. Matsuo looked at him sharply after he snapped at him, it made something behind his chest go hard.

"Yes, I still love you. And it turns out that this love is wrong. Don't you understand?" His breath was stirring, indicating he was holding back anger. "I'm trying to get away from you, because I don't want to fall for you anymore."

He was tired, bearing a feeling that would never be reciprocated. Matsuo has struggled hard, he managed to hold back jealousy for years when he found out the girl he loved was so bewildering to other men. It's been around too long, hasn't it? He fought as hard as he could. So it's okay if he gives up now? His heart needs to be healed.

Along with Matsuo's departure from his sight, his tears fell painfully on the ground. He has hurt his heart so much. He who unfeelingly asked her not to love him. Made him leave because of his ego. Although at the last moment he wanted to tell her not to leave him, yet what a cruel mind power he was shamelessly still able to think about the condition of Akihiko's heart.

If one heart has made it sick, then it will remove the other heart before it is hurt. Aihara will only hurt Akihiko, then he will separate them to keep Akihiko away from being disappointed. Yes, the crazy thoughts that only Hanna can create as a sense of relief from the pain she suffered by her own actions.

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"Hey, Kio." Slowly she called her lover, Aihara felt that something was wrong with her lover.

"Hm?"

He drew a small smile to find Akihiko's response outside his dugan. The man only responded with a flat look. "Did something happen to you? You just kept quiet."

"I'm fine."

Don't you know Aihara? Akihiko was just calming the growl on his chest every time he remembered the song you created. He's afraid of something.

The pair of lovers walked amidst the moonlight, with silence engulfing both of them. Aihara became worried, did she make a mistake? "You know that Matsuo was just kidding, in my eyes you're so handsome." He pulled his smile wider and revealed his teeth as Akihiko stopped his steps and turned to look at him with his eyebrows raised.

"So I'm really handsome?"

Wait, is Akihiko really angry because of Matsuo's words? Jeez Aihara's innocent thinking was unsettling, but at least because of her earlier remark Akihiko's mood improved a little.

"of course! Very-very handsome!" Said cheerfully.

"More handsome than your ex-boyfriend?" Oh turns out to be wrong, Akihiko's mood has still not improved. Both of her eyes looked expectantly at Aihara, while the girl looked so nervous.

"Hey what are you saying! You're better than anyone, don't compare yourself to anyone else. You're different." He thought that answer was the most appropriate answer, but it turned out that Akihiko caught something else that further troubled his heart. He was disappointed with Aihara's words.

The two fell silent again while continuing the journey, back awkward with Aihara who tried to think hard to make her lover was not misunderstood.

That sturdy arm he hugged tightly, "Cold."

Akihiko understood, he freed his arm from Aihara's embrace switching by draping his hand over Aihara's shoulder, embracing her tightly. He only realized if his beautiful lover was trying to please him.

"......"

"Hey, please don't misunderstand me. You're different. Besides I already have you now, there's no point comparing yourself to him because right now I just love you." Afraid of mispronouncing again, he later added, "I mean very, very much love you."

How cute is this little creature? Akihiko finally gave up, the girl was too expert to change her mood. And that's the fact, Akihiko can feel angry, jealous, sad and happy at the same time. Aihara is really interesting.

"Yeah, because I wouldn't be satisfied just by getting you. But I also have to get your heart and mind. I asked many times, please just think about me. Not the others." Sliding perfectly behind his lips, and had a great effect on Aihara's heart.

They are still fighting together. Akihiko who is trying to seriously grab Aihara's heart, and Aihara who is about to let go of her past. Both are still in pain.

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