Pursuing the Love of my Maid
2. Forced By Circumstances

Amanda's coming home in a mess. He went straight into the bathroom when he got home. At that time the mother who was in her room did not know that her daughter had come home.

Amanda cried without a sound, the deepest cry from the recesses of the heart. The cry of loss for something very precious. Something that he takes care of and he specialises for loved ones later.

"How could I have lost it overnight and Mr. Abi whom I knew well and was well mannered turned out to be him. He took it from me. I should how?" muttered Amanda slowly.

"Manda! Have you gone home, son? How's the job, smoothly?" ask aunt Ninik from behind the door. It sounded like he was busy cooking even though his legs and arms were injured.

"Yes, Mom, I'm home. Everything's fine, all right." Amanda answered him by holding back her tears as much as possible. He did not want his widowed mother to be troubled because of her problems.

"Sir Abi's home?" asked Ninik's aunt with the intention of making sure that her employer came home that night.

Hearing the name called, Amanda's heart again melos. He felt a great but invisible pain. Only her mother was able to make her return to that dark night.

"Go home, Mom, come home. I saw her car there and it was supposed to be next to the door" Amanda replied, clearly lying.

Amanda had noticed the shoes and the car in the trunk. His eyes were too busy pulling out his clear fur. His brain was too busy thinking about what medicine he could use to release the seeds that had already entered his womb.

"Yes, you'll be there again. Mom will rest first. Mom's leg still hasn't healed properly. Later only cook and iron the clothes of the Father, the afternoon can go home. You want to, son?" ask bibik Ninik.

Amanda is increasingly intrigued where when she realizes, she will return again to the terrible place that holds and perpetuates the bad memories. His heart was broken, circumstances forced him to continue to be around Abimana who had usurped his crown. A flash of last night returns, where Abi does it mercilessly not even poking Amanda's cry.

"Yes Mom!" said Amanda who after her body was broken and limp. He had no energy but to cry. Many times he also beat his own stomach hoping that the thick white liquid would fall out completely without anyone sticking to one.

Bibik Ninik went back to sleep after he took his medicine. Amanda who had just finished with her cry could only look at the mother who was curled up alone while enduring the pain. Mother who has been struggling alone in living it.

Without feeling it, her tears fell again. Amanda wiped it and just left. He did not want to linger in grief.

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"Come Manda, you must be strong! It's nothing, it's his time. Even without bondage is not something considered sinful. I have to accept this and live my life as if nothing happened" Amanda said.

"Bak asked for medicine to release the already entered spe*ma," Amanda asked innocently because she did not know na of the drug.

The pharmacist looked at him strangely. Amanda was like a dazed person back then. His face was empty and his face pale.

After getting it, Amanda immediately drank it. It was very expensive for Amanda. Where the price of the drug is the same as the gamis of present-day mothers.

He cried all night, and all night he cursed, beat his stomach, and kept pulling his own hair. Amanda was depressed by the circumstances. Something precious was missing but he could not hold her accountable.

"What I have to do tomorrow Mother has not healed and I still have to replace her. Can I go back to see Mr Abi?" Amanda asked her willingness and readiness.

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"Son, this morning you went to Mr. Abi's house. You make him breakfast. He cannot eat food. Ma'am, Clarissa's not home. Please help my mother, son. Make dinner and keep it in the refrigerator. Just make soup, he likes soupy food at night," bik Ninik told his daughter.

Hearing the mother's long request made Amanda can only nod without resisting. There is no denial or rejection. He was unable to say what had happened and so hurt his soul.

"Your mother I still want to meet her. I swear, if it wasn't for you I wouldn't have wanted to meet that bastard!" heart of Amanda.

"Yes, then Amanda just go there, Mom. Assalamualaikum," said Amanda without long staring at the face of the mother. He just kissed my mom's snag hand and lowered his face.

"What's the kid, is he sick or tired? From that moment he just looked down and spoke a little," muttered Bik Ninik after observing his daughter's strange behavior.

"Son what's sick ma'am? He was silent after returning from Mr. Abi's house," said Amanda's sister Aska, a 10-year-old child who was still sitting on the SD bench.

"Maybe Aska, there you are also preparing to go to school," dropped out bik Ninik.

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Amanda has arrived at the Abimana residence. He looked up at the towering fence. He again shed tears as the painful night glint returned.

Amanda remembers how Abi did what she loved and became deaf. She can't seem to hear the cries and pleas of Amanda to escape. He kept doing it not just once but many times.

What Abi did to Amanda was so violent and brutal that the girl's body had so many traces of bluish bruises. Amanda recalled how Abhimana silenced her and continued to beat her mercilessly. Those bad memories made Isak cry Amanda back.

"I have to be professional. There are two lives I have to live. My mother and sister. Without Mr Abi's job, what would they eat? While I don't know whether or not you can recover yet" Amanda murmured, slowly entering the mansion.

Amanda came in through the back door. He went straight into the dirty kitchen and made breakfast. All he knew was that his master loved fried rice in the morning.

Abimana, suddenly came out of the clean kitchen and threw a white sheet along with a thin mattress. Amanda was shocked when she saw him. He rubbed his chest.

"God! Why are you in my house again?" hiss Abi by lowering his voice like a person who is anxious.