Rainbow for Aqila
Is that love?

"Mother's sick?" The plain question that came out of Bilal's mouth, he saw his mother looking pale and like a daze

"Mother's well" Aqila tried to smile, right, this incredible headache wasn't as painful as it used to be

"Where did you put that blue glass?" The boy scrunched his eyebrows, but the blue glass had just been placed by his mother beside the table, why he even mfsf encari in front of the sink

"It's mom"

"Thank you good boy, now sleeping yes, it's already nine" the boy nodded and walked into his room even though his head still left a question mark looking at his slightly different mother

"Better rest, don't get too tired"

"I'm not doing anything, why should I be tired?" Naufal tried to smile even though his heart was crying, as soon as his wife forgot, but Aqila had just finished washing dishes and did not want to be helped

"It's time for a break"

"Be careful" Naufal held the arm of his wife who had almost lost balance

Is this really the woman who said she was okay this morning? Is this really a woman who confidently says that this disease will have no effect on him?, Naufal now finds the answer behind his wife's recent strange behavior, often forget to put things and sometimes like not remembering what they discussed. His mind never bothered even in the disease that returned

"I'm sorry" Aqila suddenly hugged her tightly

"I must be troubling you now because of this disease"

"Hey, what are you saying? Trouble what?" Diseases that affect mood changes make him sometimes happy and sad suddenly

"If we hadn't met the impossible Sister Naufal felt this way, Sister Naufal would have lived happily with a healthier and better partner"

"I don't like to hear those words, because it means we blame the God who set this all up" Naufal held both of his wives' shoulders while shaking his head

"I never meant to be like that, am I really just a burden that can be troublesome? When can I be useful to others?"

"You are not a burden, but a precious pearl that is difficult to find in the deep sea"

"Can Brother Naufal promise something?"

"What?"

"I don't want this to happen, but keep this secret in God's hands, if I go please take good care of Ila and Ilal"

"What did you say? Don't talk anymore, let's go to sleep, you're already sleepy to talk like this. Go what? There would be no one going anywhere" behind his stern words, Naufal's heart was already broken hearing that

"Can you promise?" Aqila directed the man's face to stare at him

"We'll do it together, you'll be healed, isn't that what you said with passion this morning? Don't give up that fast, let's fight like you said"

"You can live, you can be happy and you can smile to see your child grow up, we'll do it together until this hair bleaches, until this sturdy body bends in as the age goes on"

"Don't you want to live with me?"

Naufal shed his tears as he said that, it was never unexpected that in five years of marriage they would have to face such a test

"I would love to do that, don't cry anymore" Aqila smiled with her pale lips, wiping away the tears that fell on her husband's cheeks

"I will fight as much as I can, I will fight this pain for my neighbor and my little angels

"I promise to try"

"The rainbow will disappear if there is no refracting light"

"If you can't be a rainbow forever for me, be a rainbow for our little angel until they find their heart"

"I told you, no rainbow would form if there was no light, so never think of losing" Naufal held his wife's shoulders to sit down

"I love you, is there a deeper word to express a taste than that? Actually, according to Naufal, what is love?"

"We're talking about the rainbow, why the sudden direction of love?"

"Because sometimes the beautiful color of the rainbow is associated with the colorful feeling of people falling in love. So I want to ask what does love mean for Sister Naufal? What's a colorful world surrounded by fun things?"

"That is the definition of love for a person who thinks as short as one centi meter" Aqila furrowed her brows cluelessly

"The definition of love for a short-minded person is like that, meeting, falling in love at first sight, getting to know each other, getting married, having children and happy ending, that's the picture of love for them, consider love colorful and surrounded by a lot of happiness"

"Then to Sister Naufal what is love?"

"Love is not far from pain and sacrifice with uncertain results"

"Love is like a beautiful red rose, amazing, fragrant, but full of thorns. When you hold and hold it too tightly you'll get hurt, that's the definition of love"

"Beautiful but full of sacrifice and not always ending happy ending, because the crown could have fallen" Aqila to blink her eyes repeatedly heard Naufal's words

"If I ask now, what is your answer? What is love?"

"Love is a rainbow"

"The rainbow is not in short thinking, but in long thinking"

"It does not start from a light drizzle exposed to sunlight then create seven beautiful colors. But starting from the process of formation of gray clouds, sometimes flashes of lightning, heavy rain, wind, then remaining drizzle and sunlight that becomes perfect until the complete seven colors of the rainbow"

"Just like our journey through a long process"

.

The first day of chemotherapy, Aqila was accompanied by Naufal, much different from ten years ago where she and Kirana were hiding in another hospital because of her troubled heart

"After finishing the chemo, he used to have a little memory trouble" Darren patted Naufal's shoulder waiting for his wife outside

"I understand"

"Is it sometimes like that at home?"

"Initially I thought he was a bit forgetful because he thought about a lot of problems about children, his mood can sometimes change quickly, only he never once said dizziness to me"

"He always felt as if he were the most powerful human being as if the burden of this world he could face alone"

"Now that I can be grateful that at least he's not trying to cover everything up like he used to, there's you he can trust to tell me the problem"