Rainbow for Aqila
Trying not to promise

Kirana stared at Aqila who closed her eyes and looked back at the hospital examination in her hand with a tremble

"Aqila"

"How can you be like this?"

"Hide this deadly disease and fend for yourself"

"Let's wake up Aqila I'll scold you" Kirana shook Aqila's unmoving body

"AQILA" she cried out shedding her tears, fortunately the guest room was soundproofed and the door was locked

"This you mean? I'll be your helper?"

"Aqila!"

He saw sweat begin to flood Aqila's face, he approached and opened the hijab that covered his cousin's hair, but the thing he saw again made him have to shed tears

What he knew from the small among Bramadja women, Aqila who had the thickest hair and pitch black, but now look how thin her hair is and this is all because of the disease

"AQILA!" Kirana shook Aqila's body, almost an hour and her cousin was unconscious or perhaps chose to be unconscious because of the excruciating pain felt

"Kira?" kirana's intention of scolding Aqila when she realized that she had instantly disappeared as soon as Aqila mentioned her name, she immediately hugged Aqila and cried her eyes out

"Lo why?" Kirana shook her head to answer the question, she hugged Aqila even more

"Why? Why not a story?" Aqila understood now the reason her cousin behaved this way, especially when she saw the items in her bag scattering on the mattress

"Why should you tell a story?"

"Why?" Kirana repeated Aqila's question in an angry tone, she might ask why

"Lo was suffering from the deadly disease Aqila and you asked why should the story?, you realize not really you say what?, if you..." Kirana could no longer continue her words

"Akh be it"

"If I die, don't you mean?" said Aqila smiling miris which even made Kirana's tears flow more and more

"Gue's tired of Kirana, I'm tired of it..."

"Gue tired of continuing to be with them, I'm tired of being accused of continuing, I'm tired of hoping, I'm tired of envying them, I'm tired of being considered as nothing, I'm tired of being forgotten, I'm tired of being, so tell me, why do you have to tell a story?"

"Why should you tell me that no one believes you?" aqila asked once again with tears that could not be held back, finally she could release the burden of her heart to her cousin

"Gue man, I have a heart, I don't always keep quiet and give in to them"

"Gue was tired of laughing like a mad man when my heart was hurt" Aqila imitated Naufal's sentence

"Gue never tears in front of them, except myself and complain to God about my life"

"Stop Aqila, stop" Kirana was no longer able to hear the words her cousin said

"Gue was just tired of Kirana, I was tired" Aqila leaned her head on Kirana's boat which shook violently because it kept crying

"Why don't you tell me the same story?" Finally after a long cry Kirana opened her voice

"Gue only found out about this two weeks ago, and you're happy in those moments, how could I possibly ruin your mood?"

"Lo would break my heart if not the story"

"If you want me to forgive, you must recover first, you must seek treatment Aqila"

"Gue tau and two more days of my chemotherapy schedule in the hospital"

"But brain cancer is a disease that is very unlikely to be cured, chemotherapy is only a way so that the cancer does not grow and infect other organs"

"It is precisely because of this that you must repent and always do'a the same God"

"Gue know, but if God says something else please forgive me and say I'm sorry for the other family if I don't have time anymore, so I can go quietly" said Aqila holding Kirana's shoulder

"Don't tell me Aqila, you have to get well"

"Yes, but no promises"

"Gue will tell Papa and Brother Davin about this problem, let them find the best oncologist for you"

*oncologist: a specialized doctor who treats cancer

"Don't! Don't tell them just yet, two more days Reyna's birthday, I don't want to make the party ruined just because of me, and Davin's sister just happy, don't spoil her mood first"

"Alright, if that's what I want" Aqila was about to refuse but Kirana's next remark made her nod resignedly

"If you don't want to, I'll tell them right now"

"Just make sure you get well, you have to promise me Aqila"

"Gue doesn't want a promise, but I will try to make it better" Aqila replied, after all, life and death are in the hands of God, if he promises what if he goes to the power until that promise cannot be kept?

"Don't feel alone, I always support you" Kirana said hugging her cousin tightly and only answered a nod of the head by Aqila

.

Meanwhile, tens of kilometers from there, in front of the gate of a boarding school, a man dressed in all black was still sitting on his motorcycle with no intention to enter

Yeah, she's Naufal, if it wasn't Nia's mother who told her she probably wouldn't come back here today, they called the orphanage and told her that her abi heart disease was coming back

Because he did not want to be an ungodly child who did not know the return of his parents he heard the words of Mother Nia, to come to visit him, just visit

Naufal immediately put on a helmet and entered the ponpes where he studied for twelve years

Just contact the reappearance other than the Eid al-Fitr holiday, became a question mark in the minds of the santri who saw it, he said, all they know is that Pak Kyai's youngest son chose to focus on college until he came home only once a year during the Eid al-Fitr holiday and not until a week he will return again

He parked the motorbike and opened the helmet in the yard of his house, seen a white car that was familiar to him was also parked there

"Assalamu'alaikum" he said his greetings and immediately greeted Umi Sarah who hugged him tightly

"Naufal you're finally home son" he said happily

Naufal is not an ungodly child who forgets the struggle of his parents to educate and care for him, but his heart often argues considering that those who are too constrained it first, must be like this and like that, he therefore dared to resist, against their desires which were contrary to his heart and mind

"Naufal permission to study outside the city not to Egypt like Kak Hasan you want, we are different and never the same, Kak Hasan is Kak Hasan, and Naufal is still Naufal who wants to be free from pressure and not be compared to anyone, so please let Naufal go rather than continue here which even makes Naufal feel more sinful because of arguing with you"

"I'm sorry Naufal, abi, umi, but Naufal will prove that Naufal can"

That was what Naufal said when he decided to go to college out of town, he even had a great debate with his abi at that time who wanted him to continue his studies in Cairo, he said, but Naufal remains a rebellious Naufal who chooses to prove he can and does not compare with anyone