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Grabbing Restu 1

What love has taken all the place in your heart? Who do you remember most often? That is the most in your heart. 

Perhaps you too often remember, desire and adore a creature. Until noon at hayal seagrass. Dream night dreams.

Could it be the love of the shobwah that has melted with you until the eyes of your heart become blind.

He is present with lust. Like an invader.

Finally forget who is more worthy of fulfilling the soul. Worth the endless suffering. The wounds became.

His voice was an inaudible groan.

For the Owner and the Master of the soul are not placed in it.

When love shobwah has colonized (soul). Dark, blind enveloping. For there is no omnibbatullah as a light. Until they are trained, they do not know the direction. Finally fell in pain.

Loving God, love is approaching. But in reality, love is far from God. 

How the mahabbah is present. Love is greater for humans. Love for God is only present when two people love God equally with words, soul and deed.  Meet because you love the One. For who loves God. It will take care of and not hurt loved ones. Tarbiyyah will be found in love.

Every human being has the right to hope. After what will be done. So do you, beautiful adult woman.

The bottom of your heart is stored longing to be happy with your beloved. Both roofs in marriage. Flowering love blooms on the affection of husband and wife.

But all is not as imagined, present you in the midst of his relatives as reluctant to accept, create a estrangement to the bond.

The decisiveness you need, carried away by the river, you can't find even if you receive unfair treatment.

Although heavy and forced, you choose to return to your father. While in prayer hoping, may there be kindness they realize.

Whether that hope will be realized in real life, keep praying with all hope in every prostration and your prayer.

You are able to control your race with the sincerity that you continue to cultivate, rest assured that your love will not find loyalty as long as you are still on the straight path while still holding your principles as a true Muslim, he said, keep your marwah as a woman of faith to keep chastity awake for your halal man.

Sahira, a twenty-six-year-old girl, a renowned university graduate with perfect grades, fair skin with wide eyes has pliable fur with thick eyebrows, perfect beauty for women but not with their love story.

Since her love story failed, Sahira decided to close her heart to the love offered by some men, not only her heart was closed, Sahira also had covered her face with a niqap. His heart has been carved to one name that is ustad Zaki, a charismatic man who has a myriad of achievements with businesses where.

Blocked by the blessing that separated the story between them, Zaki who did not have the courage to oppose the decision of his parents chose silence and accepted even though his heart had to be hurt.  Realize that the blessing of parents is one way to a happy household.

Putting Sahira's name in the depths of his heart, Zaki wanted to ask her to keep quiet on the owner of the heart, only at the blessing of an unlikely love that would be possible with his name destiny.

Since the rejection, Sahira no longer met with Zaki ustadz, the distance is increasingly stretched but does not make the love in Sahira's heart fade, he believes if his love will find a way someday. Now all he wants to do is really improve himself, all he knows about a mate is that a good woman will meet a good man, and vice versa.

Although later his soul mate is not in the Zaki ustadz, Sahira is ready with his heart not to blame fate, but if destiny unites them Sahira has prepared himself to be worthy of side by side with the man of his tribe later.

The heartache and disappointment of course Sahira felt, but the girl preferred to stay still and keep it to herself, all she made as a reprimand for herself to learn to be better again.

That afternoon when Sahira came home from her mother's boutique, Sahira met with Zaki who was deliberately waiting for her to convey something, somehow Sahira felt bad, something will happen that makes him cry, his mind was suddenly twisted.

“Asalamualaikum Sahira.” Sapa ustad Zaki started the conversation with intonation so soft, to make Sahira's chest rippled.

“Waalaikumsallam warahmatullahi wabarakatuh ustadz.” Reply Sahira gently with a submissive look, his heart arrived at the filling of the subtle-spirits that created the nelangsa.

“Sahira, may I ask for a short time, there is something I want to convey about our relationship.” Zaki did not dare to look at the face of the woman before him, with a painful heart Zaki threw his eyes towards the left by staring at the street vendors lined up across the street.

Sahira hesitantly agreed and pointed at the long iron chair on the edge of the garden not far from where they stood, without anyone making a sound they stepped with a soft mind. 

Zaki walked in the footsteps of Sahira who first walked in front of him with his head still down, between willing and unwilling, and not willing, but his umi request cannot be denied and today Zaki must finish his relationship with the girl who is still strong fill the space of longing in his deepest heart.

Zaki took his place at the end of the left seat and Sahira also did the same sitting at the right end with the same view straight ahead. Silent with no sound between them, preoccupied with his thoughts.

“Sahira forgive me, maybe this relationship should be finished until here. Sorry.” Zaki was unable to continue his words, with the handsome ustadz's roaring chest strengthening himself to break the relationship created between them. Because he didn't get his parents' blessing.

Sahira lowered her head, smiling wryly, she could already guess what Zaki meant when he asked her to speak. With all her heart Sahira held back her tears so as not to escape wetting her face, 'must be strong, must be iklas, self-conscious sahira,' inner Sahira strengthened herself by squeezing both her hands tightly.

Seeing Sahira's response, who just silently lowered his head without the two hands squeezing each other, making Zaki know if Sahira also felt disappointed and even hurt by his decision. But he can what, all will not get blessings without the ridho of parents and Zaki also does not want to hurt his umin heart by opposing his decision.

Zaki chose to leave after a few minutes of inaudible sound from the woman beside him.

“ I'm sorry Sahira, may you find a better man and you are happy with him, now I can only ask you in prayer, if we mate surely fate will bring us together with its way, by the way.” Zaki stepped his foot away leaving Sahira still glued in place, with the position still unchanged.

“I will also continue to say your name in each of my prayers, and I will learn to be better in order to be worthy of your companion. Until whenever you are the only man who fills the longing in my heart.” Reply sahira lirih while looking at the departure of Zaki who looks increasingly distant. Of course everything he said was not heard in Zaki's ear. Let the love that is in each other soak in the longing that creates the heart.

Maybe this is how I am in your heart.