Selfies
40 . What is sadness?

After they finished helping the owner of the garden, they rest in a place that has been provided near the plantation. with their crops selfie and the gang make sugar cane ice and share it with jesh and others.

they enjoy fresh treats while looking at the beautiful scenery.selfie takes out a strawberry gift from the zayn and stares at it for a long time while the zayn who is behind him smiles at the selfie hesitantly eating the strawberry of his gift.

reyno who saw the selfie continues to see the fruit was approaching him . "if you do not want to eat my love only ". he snatched it from the selfie

" ehh don't this mine ". selfie take back her strawberry with a frown, she stared a long time ago then chose to bite one bite.

the corners of his lips were drawn and smiled faintly as he ate it. "for some reason this is the most delicious strawberry I've ever eaten "

" uhh your ladies are cute but why is everything single? ". reyno asked to shift their focus.

" what's? we don't like it in the bridle . kayak can't get close to him, it's jealous.we just want to live free ". reply nancy

" and we just want to focus on friendship.didn't most courtship result in fractured friendships? ". violet and reyno nodded

they did not continue the conversation but prepared to go home as the afternoon wore on, and Jesh had to drive the girls back to school because their bikes were still hanging out quietly there.

cooking is a very difficult activity if you are not an expert in it. just like selfies and karina cooking dinner because their mom and dad are going to prepare a company party tomorrow night.

because the two girls could not cook them so hard and had to look at the recipe and watch the cooking tutorial, thanks to the two girls the kitchen became very chaotic now.

" sister cell don't forget to raise the chicken! " command karina who was washing the dishes

" yes "

selfie flipping chicken so as not to burn later he several times shouted because of the splash of oil .

" i just found out that you are the smartest kid in your school ". said Karina in between washing dishes.

" but it's a pity that we are different schools" he continued

" yes I'm very good at " . selfie sahut

" do you know, I was the most genius student who perfected the name of the school" selfie smiled proudly

" why didn't mom know? ". ask karina

selfie breaths "you remember mama never noticed me unless you rin " .

" sorry " . great-granddaughter karina

" no problem "

now comes the time for karina to cut vegetables and selfie boil water to make soup, everything goes smoothly until karina suddenly just screamed loudly.

" Arrghhhhhh! ".

selfie suddenly panicked when he saw the blood dripping on karina's finger without waiting for a long time the selfie approached and held the knife that sliced the karina earlier, without waiting for a long time again selfie approaching and holding the knife that sliced karina earlier, karina sat on the floor making the blood drip and fall to the floor .

" why could this be? " . selfie take a cloth and clean Karina's fingers, she was a little scared because the blood Karina continues to pour. see a lot of blood can make the fear inside selfie out.

the car rang indicating their parents had gone home, Karina who heard the front door open immediately stopped crying and quickly turned to the selfie.

" the piasun!! "

" why? "

" Ku-kubilan peelin!! " . shouted

not yet had the selfie to release the sound knife Josh who screamed reflex made them turn to him .josh's hands clenched then he approached and pulled a selfie from the reach of karina and hit the girl.

Bukhhhhhh

a punch that is so strong makes the selfie bounce back, not yet there josh was throwing a plate to his face. due to the throw of his forehead bleed as well as his nose .

" YOU TRIED TO KILL MY SON!! " . Josh's wrath, he again approached the selfie and slapped the girl.

can not be denied selfies are in great pain at this time, "tu-tuan is wrong pa..ham "answer selfie.

Josh doesn't listen to her, he wants to hit the selfie back but karina stops him.

" Land dad!! he's not dad! " . shouted Karina scared even she came back crying at how tormented the selfie was.

sarah pulls a selfie away from josh making a selfie thinking that her mother will defend her this time, but it seems like it's just an assumption because the selfie sees Sarah's face full of anger , something that no selfie has seen before.

" take care of your son and take him away from me otherwise I will kill him! ". Josh gets closer to karina and helps her, he doesn't even listen to karina babbling that it's not selfie.

" ma-mama " . call a selfie slowly holding the stuffing, a thick red liquid continues to flow soaking down her cheeks and nose. instead of feeling pity sarah instead pulled the girl's hand rough and took her to the selfie room, after until Sarah immediately threw it.

" DO YOU HATE HIM SO MUCH THAT YOU WANT TO HURT HIM !! ". the voice of Sarah was so strong that the selfie covered her ears and eyes.

slowly the selfie eyes opened and looked at her mother with a disappointed look, all this time Sarah never snapped at her.

" not me ma... Karina unintentionally injured her hand ".

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" HOW DARE YOU LIE !! " . sarah slapped the selfie right in the former slap and punch Josh so that the face of the selfie grew bruised.

" I-I'm seri-us ".His breath is breathless, why does everyone want to ruin his face? even her cheeks were numb at this moment.

sarah laughs "selfie you think mama doesn't know that you're jealous of karina so you're thinking of hurting her and seizing affection " .

" you'll get hate instead of compassion if you do that ". Reciprocation

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sarah's words are really unexpected, why her mother thinks like that when the selfie never thought of that even for a second.

with tears flowing unceasingly selfie still firmly holding his heart that seemed to be pierced by a needle, "why did mama say that ? mama hurt my heart "he said with her body shaking violently

sarah raised one eyebrow . "hurt? It's precisely you who hurt your sister, you deliberately hurt her " .

" I DIDN'T HURT HIM!! " . shouted the selfie, he could not stand any more with all this. he was tired of being accused and blamed, they all never heard it.

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" HOW DARE YOU SCREAM AT ME!! ".for the second time Sarah slapped a selfie.

" Oh I shouldn't have let you in this house and you stayed with your grandparents " .

selfie staring at sarah sharp. "break it, just smash my face .. so you need to kill me!! ".

" i just want to be in the hug "

" i want to be in my darling "

" i want to be spoiled "

" not a punch and a snub! ". the girl then smothered her mouth and cried even louder

sarah who heard and saw him was silent.

" did my mom never love me? ".

sarah threw away her gaze, "I don't love bad people like you " .

" so don't behave like a beggar who expects affection "

" Be yourself ".

" you've made Karina hurt ".

" what about me being hurt physically and mentally? ". selfie lips vibrate to withstand the tightness that attacks him

He took his clothes and now it was clear why Sarah had never defended him in front of her father because her mother was just like everyone else.

selfie closed her eyes for a moment letting her tears slip away. He took a breath and looked at Sarah with an angry face mixed with disappointment.

" why did you let me into this house and act like a mother who loves her child?!! ". shouted

" Don't be so rude!! " . snapped sarah

" not me but you brash! ". point to selfie right on sarah's face

" my physique is breaking, my heart is breaking you all like vying to destroy me ".

" all of you don't know I cry every night holding on to grief alone without any one by my side "

" have you ever felt it when your heart was torn? " .

" when your heart is torn - torn you have to keep carving a smile as if it is fine and it hurts so much".

" a deaf girl like you knows what sadness is?!!. .. If you knew you would only be sad about your shortcomings!! " . geram sarah

hearing that saddened the selfie heart again, did his mother just recognize him deaf? .

selfie bowed, she tried to hold back her cries even though her tears kept dripping down the floor.

" A-what is mental disorder not sadness? ".selfie lyrics make sarah's eyebrows wrinkled

" What is the loss of someone who is closest is not sadness? "

" A-what thirsty parents love instead of sadness? "

the selfie looked up at Sarah with its shady eyes . "then what sadness should I understand? Tell me is that sad? "

he smiled in his cry "I can't even tell the difference between sadness and happiness ".

between believe it or not but Sarah was really surprised to hear the selfie explanation, if all that is true why did she not know it all this time?.

" self-".

" it's true and I don't care if you'll believe it or not ".

" selfie ". call her soft even Sarah feels guilty for what she did earlier.

" it hurts so much and I tried to take it all off by suicide but unfortunately it failed ".

this time Sarah could no longer hold back her tears, she smothered her mouth and cried, the anger that had once erupted now disappeared from nowhere.

" why are you crying? mama only heard a glimpse, not the story of how I went through everything ". This time the selfie walked a bit away from her mother.

" why never tell a story? " . ask sarah slowly

the selfie wryly "have you ever taken the time when I wanted to tell you a story?"

" ma I want to tell you something "

" wait karina's cell needs mama "

" i'll try to hear my story ".

" sorry dear " .

sarah remembers how the selfie asked her to listen to the story, but she always refused because she thought the selfie story was just an unimportant children's story.

" don't be so sad, oh yes because I already know that mom is just pretending ". The selfie took a deep breath and looked at her mother with a sharp look.

" i hate you! ".

" there won't be any selfies anymore , I won't pretend to you anymore ".it's not without a selfie reason to say that, he's just too tired to face everything himself.

" get out of here!! "

sarah shook her head," but ma-cell"

" GO...!! " . inevitably Sarah chose to leave the girl's room, although she still wanted to know and apologized to the selfie.

after she took a selfie throwing pillows and stuff on her desk against the wall and floor, she threw whatever she saw so the room was a mess.

" SIAALLLLLLLLL...!!! ". he sat down with a blank look .

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The atmosphere this morning is very different for the selfie if every morning he will be excited, always excited and greet people but this time all that is seen on his face is a flat look . selfies only treat wounds on his face so that nancy is not too suspicious later.

the room that was like a broken ship was forced to selfie clean because he did not like something untidy. After tidying up his room He headed down and happened to cross paths with sarah.

" morning dear ". greet sarah while smiling while the selfie just glances at her coldly

because he did not get a response, Sarah approached selfi and held her hand while stroking the tip of the selfie head.

" sorry mom... Mama's heard everything from karina if you're not wrong".

the selfie still doesn't flinch, "excuse me mama for getting angry and hitting you last night ".

selfie smile slanted. "mama only believe in karina not me " .

" mom still can't believe that Karina didn't tell the truth, right? ". selfie pulls her hand from sarah's grasp and takes a slow step.

" everything I say is a lie to you guys so I don't need your forgiveness" she said and walked away

sad to see the selfie ignore and act different to him he felt this was not the selfie he knew. before the selfie opened the door Sarah stopped him.

" last night don't come to the company event yes, later your father gets angry " . pinta Sarah

selfie smiles grinning. " oh so so... Ok I'll keep coming ". he came out and slammed the door hard.

in the violet 'class, nancy, fira and trysta unceasingly asked for bruises and cuts on the selfie face but the girl only replied that she had fallen off the bike .

" it's strange, where people fall from bicycles feet and injured hands, but you're even the face of the wounded" said fira

" heheh I fell face I got asphalt so it was scuffed ". he was scabbard

nancy narrowed her eyes glancing at the selfie she knew for sure what caused her face to be full of bruises, falling off the bike was just nonsense.

Classes began and teachers ppkn began to give them tasks, selfies are not too focused on doing it because the girl's mind still remembers the events last night.

different from before where the first selfie students collect the task, but this time it is nancy who collects it first. nancy scored nine and ten while Violet scored eighty, and when the selfie turn that gathered her the teacher was surprised by her score.

" you got ninety.... Is there a problem bothering you, son ? ". he asked astonished as well as other students because selfies almost never get below one hundred.

the selfie softened "I didn't focus earlier ma'am so forgive me ". he took the book and turned around

the teacher just stared at the back of the selfie that was walking with pity because the selfie bruise was still too visible to make him very worried about the girl's face.

" my cell is for a while papa and mama go to your father's company party ". said nancy while sitting in the grass behind the school.

Violet nodded "I am also a cell " .

" we are also ". timpal fira and trysta

" you came, right? " . asked nancy and the selfie nodded.

nancy took a deep breath and held the two cheeks of the selfie quietly, "cells, there are all limits, and if for a moment they were as arbitrary as you I would not be silent ".

The selfie just stared at the sad nancy, "does I have to do that ". the selfie remark made nancy nod.

" selfie I don't know what you're hiding but I want you to live a painless life" added Violet touching the selfie hand

" our cells are all always supporting you ". timpal fira while trysta just shut up and look at the selfie wistfully.

selfie laughs "haha you guys can, I'm fine there's no pain whatsoever in my life, you guys overdo it ".

I want it to feel nancy punching the laughing and smiling face, but still it's just if nancy takes a breath and looks one by one the faces of her best friend.

" want to hear a story? ".

they all looked at each other and nodded because in fact they were also curious about what nancy would say, except for a selfie that was bowed while playing the grass with her finger.

" it looks fine, but who knows that he's hurt? Always smiling and laughing happily, but who would have thought he was suffering. Looks perfect, but not so real . He was just too slick in mastering the stage play ".

" swallowing tears turns into laughter for the sake of only disguising the cruel consequences of the world. The thousand masks he wore were not a sign of hypocrisy, but a form of self-defense that before him had been destroyed for being too naive he felt ".

" the roar of grief was forced to silence in order to dampen the nestapa of life. Not when the mask he was wearing was released, then it appeared a fragile figure with blackened rinses. If he can choose, he does not want to be given a dark story ".

" how many assumptions will not bring change, right? So , let him continue the role of the figure of nirmala in the presence of all people ".

" returns a smile even with compulsion ".

Nancy raised her face to look at the cloud-covered sky. "there is a fragile neatly stored ".

this afternoon nancy is cycling to the supermarket to buy some snacks and snacks, but when she gets home she meets sarah who stops her.

" nancy about selfi-".

" yes lady sarah, it's all true, did you cry hearing that? ". the nancy sela

" but it's a pity, like the film is just a trailer, because I know the selfie outside and inside" he continued

yes, it is true that only Nancy knows the past and the secrets of selfies.when compared to jesh the woman only knows a little, but she knows a little, and trysta also does not know too much even though he was with a selfie first.

" but what mental disorder? ". urged sarah with a questionable face

nancy smiled obliquely . "here I love lattice grating.that selfie used to have two mental disorders at once ".

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" but fortunately one of them selfie quickly realized it so that the disease is not too severe" he continued.

want sarah to ask what mental disorders selfi suffer but she knows exactly nancy certainly will not tell her.

sarah sighed "I just don't like her current attitude " .

nancy laughed, "didn't you ask her to be yourself? so why angry? Hahah funny ".

" know your mistress that your son is fragile".

" you certainly can't imagine how he went through that dark past ".