Selfies
48. PTSD & SCHIZOPHRENIA

for a few days this selfie seemed like a person who did not have the spirit of life.he just daydreamed, pensive , and even shouted and cried with his own . everything related to the dahlia will definitely cry out loud.he will also be very hysterical when he sees a drop of blood.

dahlia's funeral time selfie did not attend even though the grandmother had persuaded him.

" young lady eat " . Helena said a mouthful of rice but the selfie did not mengubrisnya.

" should not have met if only given pain " .

" certainly now he is still alive ". selfie back with a blank look ahead.

" miss , she will be sad if the lady continues to cry " .

selfie wiped away her tears, "I didn't cry but somehow my tears kept flowing ". Of course helena grieved to hear it. The selfie face seemed lifeless, there was no more smile on his face when the dahlia was gone.

the girl's face and body are full of cuts and bruises.The selfie always injures her when she feels depressed because of the past events.

this afternoon Helena took a selfie to the front page to see the flowers as well as comforting him.selfie also wanted to just because he thought maybe his feelings could be calmer there.

" good, miss? ". helena said while pointing at the roses but the selfie just kept silent without answering.

helena sighed she was only afraid if the selfie was too lingering in her pain.helena was afraid if the selfie psychiatric disorder was getting disturbed.

titt.

the sound of the car horn shifted the focus of the two, they turned their heads and saw the car carrying the samh approaching on the two. at first Helena felt nothing strange until something made her stunned when a selfie suddenly ran towards the car.

" awass!!! ".

all who were there in heavy shock did not selfie slam himself and roll around like saving someone.

" you're not papa? ". pronounce the selfie with a slightly high tone.

" master wait ". rey held the hand of samh who tried to approach the selfie after getting out of the car.

" let's see first ". his advice and inevitably Samh remained standing in place and continued to pay attention to the selfie.

" haha thank goodness ".

" oh this? this is not papa ".

helena who was standing not far from the selfie was stunned when she saw the girl again talking to herself, slowly walking towards the girl and holding her shoulder.

" young lady is hurt? ".

selfie looks at him "not really ".

I want to feel Helena screaming because actually her elbows and knees are hurting.

" let's go in, I'll treat you" he tried to take a selfie but the girl held him back.

" drug him too? ". pinta selfie while pointing to the side.

helena nodded "yes "

" well she's gone... dahlia wait for me!! ". shouted a selfie then ran swiftly entering the house while laughing giggling leaving helena who was looking at it wistfully.

" our master must call the minji ". minji is a psychiatrist who once handled selfies in childhood . and from his guidance selfies can be separated from the disease.

samh sighed heavily "say ".

the next day Helena sat on the sofa and kept pensive. she did not even touch the sandwich that had been provided in front of her , which was in her mind just one selfie.

" amaha .. "

helena who heard the sound of laughter suddenly turned to the top of the stairs, she saw a selfie down the stairs with her hands holding a handycam like recording something.

helena initially smiled with relief because she thought the selfie had improved and returned with her hobby of recording.but her guess missed a long way when the selfie continued to call the name dahlia.

helena did not prevent the girl but continued to watch her, she saw selfies laughing, drawing, whispering with walls, and recording everything as if there was a dahlia there.

because it can not stand helena also approached the selfie that was drawing while occasionally recording.

" young lady what picture? ".

selfie turned her head "helena look, dahlia drew a rose on my arm.

seeing that Helena also threw her face to the side while closing her eyes meant to hold back her tears that would come out.

" the lady is not a rose It was a bruise "yes, there which looks not a flower but a bruise which is already flushed and bluish almost fills the girl's arm.

the smile on the selfie face fades slowly "what bruise? clearly this is a rose ".

" woman who drew this? ".

" dahlia's ".

helena rubbed her hair back . wanted her to tell the truth but she could stand it because soon the psychiatrist who handled the selfie would come.

" welcome to minji ". greet livy to a twenty-eight-year-old Korean woman.he is a young psychiatrist who once handled selfies when selfies were eight to nine years old.

" is it back again? ". ask minji

" yes, please check on him ", replied Samh and brought the minji to meet the selfie.

the minji doctor and the selfie sit facing each other in the girl's room . like a typical minji would treat a selfie as a friend.he and the girl had just chatted about the past. with a sharp memory selfie instantly knows who the woman in front of him.

" i used to be not as smart as miss, I used to be in High School because I was often in the law because of stupid ", he said with a sad look full of drama.

" huhah, if I'm the smartest "reply with a selfie while crossing her hands.

" it's great, miss ", she clapped her little hands

minji is confused because the selfie view continues to look behind him. Selfie is also like whispering and giggling makes him more curious.

" what's wrong, miss? ".

" haha that he mocked towards big sister ". selfie laugh makes minji slowly look back

minji smiled "call her miss ".

" oh can't you? ".

" of course ".

selfie smile "dahlia come here!! ".

" whose selfie is he? " ask minji as the girl looks up to the side

" he's dahlia ".

minji turned his head towards the selfie and smiled broadly "Hi dahlia ".

" wah dahlia said hello to sister back ", said selfie happy

Minji continues to pay attention to selfie interactions with someone he considers dahlia.minji can conclude that schizophrenia selfie back again.then when he was eight years old selfie also experienced this mental disorder. so lonely he made his own fantasies about his parents, but fortunately samh and livy can quickly catch and immediately call minji right then and there.

after quite a long time, Minji came out to meet samh and also Livy who had been waiting for him from earlier.

" how is it? " . asked livy worried

" it seems that young lady's ptsd is getting worse mistress, and her buried schizophrenia is reappearing" he explained

minji said, "mister, young lady often hurts herself because she feels guilty about her theme and it's not good ".

" so how should it be? ".

" miss must be treated, because she is currently experiencing two mental disorders at once ".

" YOU MEAN MY GRANDSON IS CRAZY!!!?? ". samh kicked the table so minji was surprised.

" not so sir ". elak minji is afraid

" do you know? the last stage of self-harm is suicide ".

" so before it's too late young lady should be treated ". he continued reassuring samh.

livy rubbed her husband's arm and clasped the fingers of the fingers of the fingers of the fingers of the fingers of the fingers of the fingers of the fingers of the fingers of the fingers of the fingers of the fingers of the fingers of the fingers of the fingers of the fingers of the fingers of the fingers of the fingers. "allow it ".

after thinking samh nodded "well, take him and take care of him "

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after Minji left his room selfie was standing in front of the window with a blank look, without him realizing a drop of clear liquid fell down his cheek. he lowered his gaze down looking at the place where the dahlia had once bathed in rain.

" i don't have the spirit of life anymore . I'm tired of being so tired ". selfie sobbing, she's tired of hurting herself. she feels devastated when remembering all this . he could not calm down because those painful memories always played in his head .

" all the bad guys" he opened the window and slowly climbed upstairs.

" this is how to get rid of pain ".

He closed his eyes letting the wind sweep his bruised face "I'm tired, I'm afraid ".

" MISS!! ". he shouted helena in shock then ran and quickly pulled the girl's arm before she jumped. Helena could not imagine if she was a second late selfie would have plunged down.

" why is this like this, miss? ". the question is shaking, the selfie does not answer but rather cries in his arms.

" what is this? ". ask samh and livy when just entering the selfie room.

" mister, young lady was about to jump off the window ". explained helena, just hit the samh and livy so shocked to hear it, but they tried to stay calm and walked over to the selfie.

" your selfie is taken by a psychologist? ". said her grandmother gently made a surprised selfie and looked up at her.

" tomorrow you must go to heal dear.

" i'm not crazy ". I'm looking down selfie

" it's a shame you're not crazy but you have to be treated to go back to how you used to be".samh held a selfie hand and tried to persuade her.

selfie looked up and stared at Samh sharply, the girl's face implied disappointment and anger.

" NO!! I'M NOT CRAZY!! " . she ran as fast as she could out of the room so that helena reflex came after her. livy was about to follow the girl but samh prevented her and said that helena could definitely coax a selfie.

helena who saw a selfie sobbing on the park bench became pity. In the hands of the woman there is a selfie handycam she took earlier. she took a deep breath and walked towards the selfie.

" hiks ... I'm not crazy why do you want me to go to a mental institution? look at even the dahlia being sad ". the voice of the girl is shaking.

helena sat next to the girl and rubbed her hair. "young lady, dahlia was gone a few days ago ".

selfie stopped her stuffing and stared at Helena with furrowed brows. "what do you mean? clearly the dahlia was in front of me ".

" young lady try to look at your hand" Helena said as she raised her selfie arm.

" now see if in front of the lady there is still a dahlia? ".

selfie slowly turned her head forward and was stunned when she did not see anyone there.who had been a smiling dahlia while calming her down suddenly disappeared somewhere.

" look at this now miss ". helena played the recording that selfie was recorded today and a few days ago.

and just like the selfie no longer sees the existence of dahlia, but there is no one in the recording except the sound of a laughing selfie.

" hiksss why are you waking me up from my hallucinations, Helena? ".

" i'm happy even if it's a fantasy! ". he covered his face with his hands.

" i'm sorry miss but miss should be able to get out of the hallucination" Helena's hand held up the shoulder of the selfie.

" yes...I'll go wherever it's ". Selfie turns looking at helena.

" i want to heal helen, please release me from schizophrenia ". she said so pitifully.

hearing this, of course, Helena became very happy.he hugged the selfie and kissed her head several times.after that he told samh and began packing selfie items.

at night selfie stood behind the window while looking at the moon.he was so serious to see it that he was not aware of the presence of helena there.

" miss ".

" i don't know why tonight the moon looks bigger and brighter than usual ".

helena was silent letting out every word that the girl was about to say.

" it would be better if I cried without making a sound and my tears stopped when it ended "the selfie kept looking at the moon and then turned to looking at helena behind her

" how many times do I have to be hurt before I can feel pain? ".

" the dripping of red blood reminds me of his life ".

quiet for a moment

" lonely people are people who have no past ". selfies leave the helena still pecking at digesting every word of the word selfie.

the next day the selfie was ready to go to the mental hospital, although he was a little unwilling but he forced all that to heal.

after saying goodbye to his grandparents and selfie also stepped into the car he was going to ride.he also had a goodbye to jasmine and trysta, he was also, the selfie apologized to the two girls because a few days ago he got angry and hurt them while trying to entertain a selfie.

before entering the selfie car rubbed his tears that had just dripped. "i told you I didn't cry just that my tears kept flowing" he murmured

" let's miss "let Helena open the door for a selfie

" he has just graduated, for his High School I will give him home schooling in your place" Samh said.

" just relax, sir, even though in the recovery period young lady will continue her education.after all, our place is not like a mental hospital in general" replied with a smile.

" oh yes, I will also teach him tips on psychology" he continued and then parted and got in the car.

livy is constantly crying when the selfie car leaves the house.anyways who is not sad to see his family members enter the mental hospital. Livy tried to contact sarah but the woman always refused his call.

after arriving at the destination of selfies amazed to see a building that is not similar to mental hospitals in general.this place looks very comfortable, it's possible that they don't want patients to get stressed out if they know they're going to a mental institution.

selfie into the room is quite large according to him.there are bookshelves, television, sofa, and a nice bed.

" young lady come here ".

the selfie approached and sat in front of the minji who was waiting for him on the sofa.

" i have tips so that the lady does not see hallucinations too often again" he said gently

" what? ".

minji breathed "like this, if miss sees the dahlia try to close her eyes tightly and say that the dahlia is gone ".

" it is difficult and painful, but because the smart lady I know the lady can definitely ". selfie sniffed long enough then after that she nodded small.

" good young lady, my lady's schizophrenia hasn't been so severe because she sometimes realizes the fact that the dahlia is gone ".

" here I will accompany the lady until the lady forgets the hallucination and is free from other mental disorders" he continued in a calm and gentle voice making the selfie feel comfortable.

six months have passed and today the selfie calls if he can go home. Of course samh and livy are very happy and ask helena to pick him up. but the selfie refused because he would come with the minji.

" GRAMPS! GRANDMA I'M HOME! ". shouted a selfie and splashed into the arms of two loved ones.

" my granddaughter has come home ". welcome Livy while stroking the hair selfie.

selfie took off her pack and softly rubbed until both eyes narrowed. "yes, my grandmother has gone home and look I've healed "

samh and Livy are thrilled to see the happy look of their granddaughter. They take a selfie sitting on the sofa and have the waiter get her a drink.

" thank you bi ". said the friendly selfie makes samh and livy look at each other and smile at each other.

" are you really healed? " . tanya is doubtful.

" of course, do you believe grandfather? " . selfie calls jack and tells the man to hurt his hand until it bleeds small.

" look I'm not afraid of blood anymore so are the lake, the gun and everything else" replied the proud selfie

" oh yeah? " . Helena took a fake gun and shot him until the room echoed.

selfie reflex covers his ears and it makes them all panic.

" hhhh noiseless know to surprise people! ". ketus selfie then continue drinking . samh and livy who had panicked also stroked the chest and breathed a sigh of relief

" miss is still not fully healed because her PTSD is still 10 %" explained the newly joined minji

" for schizophrenia it seems that the lady is no longer feeling it, although the schizophrenic is difficult to recover but the young lady can deal with it and I am proud of it ". she smiled gently at the selfie.

" but he looks fine " . cut livy

" it's true, but the young lady will react when she sees so much blood and also the exact same events as her past " .

" i'm cured ". elak selfie

" how can the young lady be fully healed? " . sela helena

" i've done everything but the young lady hasn't healed yet" she fell silent for a moment and looked back at them.

" if the young lady faces her fear and recklessly enters into her trauma it is likely that she will recover, but it is very dangerous ".

selfie hears all of that casually while eating the cake and also drinking the juice with her innocent gaze.

" mister I'm sorry, because at that time I had locked a selfie in his room for several hours without opening it" said Minji afraid

samh furrowed his brows, "why? "

" because the selfie revolted due to accidentally injuring his hand with a knife, and always threw himself into a swimming pool because he thought it was the lake where the dahlia accident.

" just relax I'm not like that anymore" said selfie

" grandfather! ". call the selfie slowly.

" yes, baby why? "

" may I go to my parents' house?". he asked heartily

" no! ". answer samh quickly.

" please grandfather, I will always obey grandfather if grandfather frees me for this time . I want to start a new life ". Please once again

" they didn't even call to ask about your situation" declined samh

" just that I want to get their affection grandpa " .

" why do you want to go there hmm? grandma knows that's not the main reason ". asked livy softly

selfie sighed "I still have a childhood friend there " .

samh holds the shoulder of a selfie, "it's a pity you know your grandfather's business enemy is a lot and they're after you ".

the selfie nodded, "I knew that I would be a different person there, I wouldn't show my true identity ".

" they only know me by my name, and some don't even know my face" he continued, trying to convince.

" young lady you just recovered" interrupted helena

the selfie turned and fell, "please helen this time only "

" well, but grandfather hope you take care of yourself and do not be negligent as the heir ". concluded samh smiling gently

" ready boss. ready my stuff helena " . selfie standing and about to step but her hand in strangled the grandmother

" loh go straight away? ".

selfie cecengesan "hehe faster better" .

the selfie walked towards Helena and brought her mouth closer to the woman's ear "bring me a listening device that is anti-hurricane tsunami and earthquake" she whispered

" what do you want to do, miss? miss is no longer deaf ".

" take it! " .

selfie went into his room and looking for his handycam. after finding the tool he took a disk and played it on tv for the last time.selfie as much as possible not to be moved to watch the recording with dahlia. after being satisfied to watch a selfie, take all the disks and their handycam and walk towards the window.

" i'm sorry dahlia but it looks like you really have to go ". without lingering selfies dropping all those things to smash to pieces.

before leaving the selfie go first to the tomb bella and dahlia. It happens that the graves of the two friends are next to each other, selfie crouching between mounds of land .

" bella, dahlia, I'm gonna get out of here to see my parents.Thank you for everything, thank you for giving me the color of my life.I'll be back later ". he rubbed the two gravestones and left the cemetery.

selfie would go on her family's private jet, but before boarding the jet she was very upset to have to see the drama between jasmine and trysta.

" i'll overtake the cell" said Trysta in his wound.

" just watch out you're coming! because it could destroy all my plans later ". threaten selfie

" sister spirit cell yes, I know half brother evil brother so be careful ". message jasmine

selfie just nods and then goes into his private jet.he sits there with a thumping feeling. After traveling a distance that is not too long finally the girl reached her hometown.

" mm well I'll wear this shitty device and be a different person" he said excitedly as he arrived in front of the house he missed.

the next part goes back to the present.