Sephias
Traumatizing

Doctors said Sephia was seven weeks old, because she had a history of miscarriage doctors advised her to be more careful. Do not ask how enthusiastic Danar heard the age of fetal content in the womb Sephia.

"I suggest his body do not be too often yes .. considering the content is still vulnerable, will be strong after three months so you should be able to restrain yourself," said the doctor to smile.

When Danar's face changed, how not having sex with his wife was like taking medicine for Danar. Sephia rubbed her husband's back while holding back an amused look.

"Just everything is fine, the fetus is in the uterine sac, all good .. only yes it must be maintained, do not be too tired and stressed," said the doctor again.

After coming out of the gynecologist's office, the happy husband and wife looked at each other, their fingers interlocked. Walk hand in hand towards the car park still with a smile.

"What do you want to say from that smile," said Sephia amusedly.

"You're cool, I don't often nengokin my son" Danar said, pinching his wife's nose.

"Haha yes not .. I also want to be in Tengokin," said Sephia laughing. "You have to make sure our son is strong." Sephia stroked the soft end of her husband's hair.

"Honey, where are we going?"

"To Puputan Park would not?" ask Sephia. "There's a lot of junk."

"Don't like it haphazardly, you're pregnant."

"But your son wants this loh."

"You know what Dad's son is" said Danar kissed his wife's stomach.

"Father's son, want to eat lilok." Sephia pleads.

"Not much but yeah ...." Danar started his car splitting the highway that afternoon into the city park there.

Recalling Sephia, in this city park she celebrated Valentine last year with Danar. At that time they had no status whatsoever, even then Sephia asked what their relationship was really.

"Inget no taun then we are here also .. at that time valentine if not wrong," said Sephia.

They were sitting in long chairs waiting for the food and drink they had ordered to the cilok and juice vendors there.

"What I love is that you're brown, right?" Danar remembered.

"Yes, the chocolate melted in my hand, because over time you put it in the car." Sephia blushed in shame remembering that.

"Yes, the chocolate melted like my heart melted because of you" Danar said with a sweet smile.

"You're a really big pinter yeah, unfortunately I like it." Sephia embraces Danar's arms.

The couple watched enjoying the scene in front of them, the little children playing ball with laughter.

"Later if my boy wants me to go to the football club, I know Irfan Bachdim so I can kayak him, handsome again," said Sephia.

"Whose father isn't handsome? is it important to know Irfan Bachdim?"

Sephia laughed at the look on her husband's face.

"It doesn't matter either, but I love seeing him as a family man, dear to the family."

"You see your husband Phi, I'm more than that .. It's a real shame for you and our children."

"Yes I believe" Sephia answered and took their food.

"I want to ask you something" said Sephia.

"What?" Danar stuffed a circle of lizards into his mouth.

"What's cheating for?"

"What's that for? I never cheated on you" Danar said.

"Masa? That time?"

"That's not cheating but misunderstanding. You alone?" Danar asked back.

"Hmm not yes."

"No. .. Who am I cheating on?" sephia asked with shrunken eyebrows.

"Don't know why I'm .. but ever had no intention?"

"No .. absolutely nothing. No matter how green my neighbor's grass I choose to cultivate my own grass how to provide warmth in my relationship with my partner." Sephia showed an unhappy face.

"It's you who discuss cheating you whose mood is immediately not good."

"I mean gini, our marriage relationship is still very young the initial intention is to build a harmonious family until we age that alone is enough for me, he said, but sometimes the gap is always there and teasing as time goes by I'm sure love will also change not be lost it is still there just need attention and understanding, I as a partner you will always try to give your best and I hope you do the same, hear the word cheating alone it feels like this heart is not willing especially if you experience it yourself."

Danar notices Sephia's face, believing his wife is still traumatized over their past relationship, a fruitful misunderstanding that is hurt.

"I've always been there for you, you're sure that I'll always be there for you" Danar said, embracing Sephia's shoulders.

"I know you'll always be there for me. I'm sure you'll never get away from me."

Their eyes were straight ahead, with their respective minds and pledging inwardly to be faithful to each other.

"You're not craving that, honey." Danar broke the silence.

"Gak .. You're the one who craved that time."

"Just want it anyway, do not feel nauseous like that time, you?"

"Still the same I like not feeling well in the morning, see the light still like dizziness.

"Phia," Danar said carefully.

"Hhhh."

"How do you temporarily quit your job?"

"Are you scared?" tanya Sephia looked at Danar.

"More precisely I am worried, work in the office again many-manynya .. one month I was meeting already can not be counted on the same finger of the belly in addition to other work," said Danar.

"When I temporarily quit, who will handle my work?" Sephia looks very worried if Danar will recruit others and it is a woman.

"Later me and Made are going to finish in time you are ready for work again .. But, I hope the hell you focus on me and our child," Danar said again.

Sephia was silent, I swear to God that whatever the trauma was, she was afraid that something might happen. Maybe Danar can resist but how can we know what temptation comes like. However, like sand if it is held too tightly then it will disappear as well as love.

"What do you think?"

Sephia shook her head, she was only worried as to how she would shift her trauma.

"Or just like this ...." Danar seems to know the contents of his wife's heart. "The first three months I want you really at home, focus on our children .. afterwards if you want to go back to work again, yes no more work." Danar looked at his wife's face.

"Darling, I know you must be thinking something, right? ask Danar. "I want you to throw away that kind of thought, you're pretty sure. Already so far we have stepped up, the sense of mutual trust should we fertilize more and more, not just suspecting. What this relationship has will not be healthy."

Sephia.

"I'm sorry" Sephia said.

"No papa .. This is natural, but I ask to trust me for the sake of the integrity of our little family. We're focused on making it there's a little one who'll color our lives later, so don't be damaged by your sensitive thoughts." Danar gave a kiss to his wife's forehead.

This is early June 2021, the beginning of their lives as a family. The beginning where trust must continue to be built with loyalty and commitment from each of them.

**note from Chida :

Whatever the reason, infidelity is a big mistake made by some people. Either it starts from comfort, or something accidentally happens. As if the heart if hurt will not be able to return to how it was, the trauma must always be there. So, do not mess with the same heart, because the impact until the end of life.

enjoy reading 😘**