Shinar Wife Shadow
Expressions Feelings

The car they drive enters the campus environment where Kinar studied, pursuing his doctorate.

Kinar thanked Michael who had driven him before getting out of the car.

"Thank you, I went in first" said Kinar awkwardly.

During the trip they did not speak, only occasionally seen Michael who stole a glance at Kinar, making Kinar even more awkward

"No need to thank you, I should thank you.

thank you Kinar, thanks to you my son wants to sleep and eat regularly.

I also want to apologize for my son's outrageous behavior.

I failed to educate her, I failed to be a father and I was not a good parent to her, I always ignored her and never knew my own daughter's feelings.

I should have known that if she dreamed of a mother's affection, and I foolishly thought that if I gave all my love, Freya would not need a mother.

It turns out I was selfish and stupid" Michael said more like he was complaining about his life

Kinar was silent just listening to the man in front of him chattering, he had to think of the right word so as not to offend his interlocutor.

"Sometimes we think what we've done is best for the people we love, but not necessarily they agree with us.

because we live also need to listen to the opinions of others, not mean we do not have our own opinions and desires" said Kinar softly

"Every child needs complete affection, not only from their mother or father.

maybe all this time they tried to cover it so as not to make their parents sad, but deep down, a complete family is something they dream of" said Kinar staring ahead.

He drifted into the past when he was a child.

"Just like I lost a parent figure.

I felt lonely and alone, as if I was walking in the darkness, until the light came, when mama Anggi and papa Satria took me and raised me to be their child" Kinar murmured inwardly.

"I also realize that, are you willing to consider my feelings???" asked Michael turned his head towards Kinar, but Kinar was still drifting in his mind and did not hear Michael's words

"Kinar, Kinar, are you okay???"

"Ah sorry mas, I'm a little daydreaming.

What did you ask??" ucpa Kinar

"Will you consider my feelings???

I'm not perfect, I'm a man who's even above your age, plus you've failed at home and had children.

But you promised to be a good husband and love you forever" said Michael seriously as he clasped Kinar's hand

"Love me forever.....

A cliche sentence she had heard from her ex-husband, but in the end Dimas chose the woman....

love???? is there still love left in her heart????"

"Linar, can't you accept me???

I admit I have many shortcomings and I am not your dream man" Michael said, taking off his hand, his face immediately grim

"Mas, we just met a while ago, you don't know who I am, and I honestly don't know you yet.

can we not talk about it now???

"I'm sorry." said Michael in the end because he thought he was too forcing his feelings.

"I'm the one who should be apologizing.

Let's get to know each other first

because if you're my soul mate, God will lead you.

like I said at the beginning.

I just want a priest who's as good as I am"

"I'll think about it"

"Mas Michael. don't you move your faith just because of me, but because of this, it's his conscience that wants it" said Kinar smiling sweetly.

"Well, I just want you to know I'll be waiting for you, until any moment"

"The rays go down first, mas be careful on the road" said Kinar smiled and then got down from Michael's car

"Gradiance...."

"Yes mas????"

"I'll wait here" Kinar's brows twitched, this man was so persistent in chasing after him that it was not like the men who had chased him.

"Mas, I can be two three hours in there"

"No problem, leave" said Michael giving his sweetest smile.

Kinar could not say anything, this man could not be rejected and honestly Kinar liked the charm of the man, handsome and mature in terms of thought and emotion.

"Well, thank you" said Kinar then waved and entered the campus.

Michael continued to look at the departure of his women, for the first time in his life there was a woman who refused with him, there was a woman who did not care about his wealth, a woman who was able to make her heart shake since the first meeting.

Even with his ex-wife, Freya's mother, he never felt this way.

he felt like a young man in his ripe age.

After Kinar goes unseen, Michael grabs his phone and contacts his confidant.

he asks them to find out who Kinar really is, not that he does not accept Kinara, but Kinar's defensive attitude makes Michael wonder what happened to Kinar's previous life.

Michael then surfed in the Maya world, looking for information about the religion in Kinar

he has not been so concerned with belief, because almost half of his environment is not a religious person.

After getting tired of surfing in the Maya world, Michael contacted his brother, Lucky.

lucky is Michael's half-sister but they are familiar and like siblings.

they love each other even though their mothers are different.

Lucky was the son of their late first wife who died of illness, and Michael's mother was the second wife, but merry loved Lucky as much as her own son.

he never differentiated the two, for him both were his favorite sons.

Michael can share with his brother about his life, and lucky and his wife have helped him a lot, especially when he was left by his former wife with a baby boy who is still red.

Amara was the one who helped care for Freya until she was two years old, when Michael was devastated by the loss of Miranda, who fled with his best friend Michael himself.