Since The Fall Of Maglindo
Chapter 08 part II: The Deal
“Why are you out, Grizelle?”
“A-I, can't.”
Grizelle didn't want to look at me at all, she was like someone who was feeling guilty, confused about what to do.
I was expecting it, even I was confused to give a response. Although it had prepared everything from home, now it felt like everything had suddenly disappeared.
Sherly herself, can only resigned to the circumstances. He started walking towards Grizelle while returning to throw me out before finally getting into the classroom by closing the door hard enough.
When they were not there, I was silent for a moment lamenting fate. If I think about it again, I really did do something really bad. Grizelle's change of emotions was included in some of my guesses, but seeing it in person, it felt like I was instead the embodiment of the group of people I hated the most.
The first thing I used to uncover Grizelle's secret was coercion, threats under the pretext of rape. Obviously it worked, because what broke Grizelle mentally could have been what was pictured inside my head. My goal is to do all the things that I think are wrong and need to be done. But am I not the same as them? The way it even imitates, I have made a woman who has only been with me for 2 days instantly destroyed. Don't I realize what I did was a mistake? Yes, even making up for it is already impossible to do. But I need it, for my father's sake, do I need to sacrifice it?
Confusing to the point that it makes it hard to think. Determining things to be a choice is the true truth, more difficult than the difficulty itself. If I look back, it's clear what I did was too rushed. Very different from the old me, now I can't help myself. Well then can not interfere with the life of Grizelle can be said as something true? I sacrificed him, yes, absolutely the devil.
After getting an answer and a “plan” in the head, I decided to no longer be in touch with Grizelle. However, the first thing I did was convey everything clearly without the intention of monopolizing. That's why I opened the door, there it was seen they were sitting on the bench that “should”.
“Can I come in? I have something to talk to you about and Grizelle.”
Not a single one of them replied, let alone Grizelle who lowered her face, she did not even read a book. But because of that too, in other words I'm allowed to enter, because if you don't, then Sherly will say no.
As I walked in, I stopped to hear Sherly telling me to sit in a chair that was a long distance away from them, but if measured, it was closer to Sherly, because he's sitting next to Grizelle. In accordance with his words, I really obeyed it.
“I'll stick—“
“Do not face here,” by Sherly.
It was troublesome, he was like someone who had the authority to govern, but inevitably I had to obey him.
“I will stay in school tomorrow, is there a rebuttal?”
“Rejected.”
If someone sees it, it's like we're doing a judgment, and Sherly's the judge.
Out of curiosity as to how Grizelle's face was now, I turned my head and turned back to face the front as Sherly said, “Don't glance, otherwise I'll kick you out.”
I want to refute his words with sharp words. Want to think about it from any angle, I have a right to my own body. Whereas just now, I couldn't even confirm if Grizelle had stayed downstairs hiding her fear or was instead looking at me sadly.
“Then how about 2 more days?”
“Rejected.”
“Annees to come?”
“Rejected.”
“Front month?”
“Rejected.”
“At class increase?”
“Rejected.”
What the fuck?! Then I'm the same as not going to school. Thus, it means that I should be ready to be scolded by my mother every day. I can't imagine if it happened, because the mountain blast would still sound more exciting than mother's nagging.
But my original intention of getting inside here has not been conveyed, and I will only be conveying it in a moment. I hope the reaction will be better by not only answering “Ditolak” constantly.
“How about this, I promise I will never make any contact with Grizelle, but I can attend school.”
After proposing it, I did not hear any answer from behind me. I'm sure they're discussing there, or something like that.
In any case, my offer this time was clearly very considerable. Because with me promising not to get in touch with Grizelle again, then everything will be as smooth as all, I mean for them. Wh why? Because it was obviously impossible for Sherly to continue to be on Grizelle's side at all times, so if he accepted the offer, he could get back to his normal activities. In addition, if you think about the advantages that Grizelle can get, then of course she can hide secrets about her past. Although slowly, Grizellle will begin to calmly live her life so that she can return to being herself or her pseudo-self, considering there will be none of the things I will do to her.
And from there, I also expected it, where Grizelle was serious in her learning process. In other words I must forget my desire to uncover the mastermind behind the past cases that have befallen my family. After all if everything still continues, there is no point in saving someone I don't know, shouldn't it be? No, it's obviously useful, because I'll only vote in the past. As for now is now, I should forget about it all and move according to how the grooves will take me. For now focus on finding a quiet and peaceful life first, yes, that's for the best.
“Are you going to keep your promise? Because it will be valid for eternity.”
“Yes, I promise to keep my promise no matter what.”
That's how I am, this is one of my habits that is still inherent in you since long ago. So even in the event of a storm and tsunami, I will still not break my promise, because it is too sad to do.
“Then we accept it, with one condition.”
“Eh, what is it?”
“Do not go to school before this week is over, how? You should know why, or you're more stupid than I thought.”
“Ya, I understand.”
“Then go, you are disgusting now, but better than you were before.”
I don't know if it's a compliment or not, but I'm very, very grateful.
“Can I deliver the last words to him?”
“No, go.”
“I beg you, I have not yet conveyed my apology.” This time I really spoke from the heart.
“... All right, but don't say anything that violates the agreement.”
I stood straight up, then when I turned around, I bent down with my eyes closed from the beginning, of course as proof that I still kept my promise.
“I'm sorry, really sorry for everything I've done to you. I had intended to use you, and it was so sad, it made me no different from them. From the beginning I had absolutely no idea that you had—no, forget it. Actually I also realize that what I have done to you may not be equivalent to an apology, but I still want you to forgive, even I am willing to take responsibility for marrying you, but I know it's impossible. So I'm really sorry!”
After finishing my sentence, I immediately walked out of the classroom without seeing what reaction Grizelle had. Of course during the walk before finally passing through the door, all I felt was a very deep regret. How not, Grizelle that I can make friends, even we've been friends. And now what? I've completely lost everything from her besides some memories in the memories.
It's sad, I feel like I want to cry. But when he opened the door, what appeared to be a smile from someone who used to give off such an expression.
“Ryuga?”
Yes, it is Ryuga. I don't know if he's been listening to everything, but he's leaning against the wall right in front of the door.
Since it was possible that no one would know, Ryuga gestured me to stop talking, and of course I did.
After closing the door again, we finally walked together through the hallway of the school where no one but us was standing.
“Did you accidentally eavesdrop?”
“No, I just happened to find you guys and chose to wait it out.”
Slowly the gloom on my face disappeared as it adapted to the rays coming out of Ryuga. He was indeed the best to deal with this kind of condition, I mean like I am currently experiencing.
“So how, are you relieved?” She asked.
“Iya, very relieved. But Sherly's really creepy, I've lost a landslide.”
“That's how he is. Oh yes!”
I already know that Ryuga said “Oh, yes” then the topic of conversation will lead to where. Does he not know that man has boredom?
“How about you join the Volunteer Club now?”
From the question, I can confirm that he didn't listen to our conversation. Because by asking that, it was obvious that she did not know the terms Sherly had put me on.
Pretending? It seems impossible. After all, Ryuga had nothing to do with the problem I was having, so there was no reason for him to do so.
“I thought it would be worth it?”
“Why is that?
“Because there are requirements that I must fulfill.”
“So, when will you join?”
“A few more days, calculated starting from next Monday.”
Ryuga opened his eyes wide upon hearing that. Yes, from the beginning I have also said “A few more days” to him, I can not even count the number again. So if I say it like this, I feel a little guilty, let alone that he helped me yesterday.
“Isn't that still long?”
“Iya, because from the requirements, I can only go to school starting from next Monday.”
It seems like after I said it, Ryuga can only resign. He said nothing or responded to my words with his invitation, but smiled back shortly afterwards.
“Why grieve like that? I didn't say I would refuse to join. Let me tell you, actually from the beginning I've decided to join your club, it's just that there's a disruption, like now.”
“Really?”
I nodded a few times to respond.
He looks happy now, and because of that, I don't want to think about anything else. I mean, before my mind was just focused on how to solve my problem with Grizelle that Sherly was struggling with. So after everything was done so that I could attend school quietly, I was really relieved. While chatting with Ryuga instead made my already relieved feelings become even more relieved, because his aura was very effective to illuminate the gloom.
As I walked out of the main building, I could still see his smile. Although I didn't like it at first for some reason, now it seems like I'm used to it.
After we parted, I headed to the parking lot where the bike was there, while Ryuga just waved his hand from a distance.
As I passed through the gate, I saw some disciples who started to arrive. They're great, I mean, they didn't bother me before, so I could solve my problems.