Still Loving Ex
Nostalgia Memories of the Past

Nala's happiness grew when she heard the plan to return home, Nala was longing for her favorite foods. She gets excited about her days, babysitting alone when Rein is busy with her college and business, occasionally Nala controls the business and joins Rein on campus, this is done when you are bored at home. It's not easy to go through it all, but that's the risk, and Nala is determined to always be on Rein's side, no matter where she goes.

Unknowingly, Roger's shadow crossed his mind, memories that then appeared as if he wanted to invite nostalgia.

"Darling, are you willing to accompany me?" Ask Roger enthusiastically.

"Of course, after the wedding, I'll go with you wherever it goes. I will always be by your side" replied Nala enthusiastically.

"Thank you, baby!"

"There are conditions!"

"What?"

"You didn't betray me!"

"Ok, I promise, if you get punished, my career is ruined or my life is not calm"

"Ok, deal!"

Happy laughter envelops lovers who struggle with distance, make peace when they have to postpone meeting for a longing, be patient in reality can not be like other couples.

Rayyan's crying voice resuscitated Nala's daydream, immediately approached and calmed her. Her mind was wrinkled, in her head full of questions because why the memories appeared. Nala feels guilty for Rein and Rayyanka, but it's out of her will. Before the memories appeared, Nala no longer remembered them, Rein had become everything, Rein was present to change into more beautiful, and most importantly the love for Rein continued to grow. There was no desire to betray him.

The ringing sound of mobile phones is becoming more and more conscious, a call from Rein.

"Darling, we won't cook, we'll eat out"

"Well, in what order?"

"In order to love you more and more, and not let this angel get tired"

"Haha, ok ok thanks for the fight, waiting for her to go home"

"Oh my dear!"

Nala strengthened herself even more, as if challenging her nostalgic memories to Roger, those memories could have taken control of her mind but not her heart, her heart only for Rein. The more Nala tried to be indifferent, the more intense memories appeared in her head, it made her cry. Feeling unfair, in addition to being betrayed, now the memories are trying to destroy the happiness of his life.

"It's so bad of you, Roger!"

He shouted while throwing a vase of flowers into the mirror, the mirror that had been cracked, so that it no longer perfectly displayed his face. Maybe, that's the picture of him at the moment, he exists but is not in a good state.

***

"Honey, your love's home!"

The house was so quiet, no Nala was as welcoming as ever. Rein immediately searched, finding Rayyan in bed, well dressed, fast asleep. The sound of a faucet coming from the bathroom, he immediately entered, found Nala sitting hugging her knees under the shower. Rein immediately hugged her, trying to calm her down to stop crying.

"Darling, let's get changed, you'll be sick"

Nala, according to what Rein had ordered, had turned blue, her face pale. Rein led him and prepared a thick shirt to warm him up.

Rein laid Nala's body on the bed, making her a warm drink. There was no question at all from his mouth, his focus was currently on restoring Nala's condition. Cuddled by Nala's body wrapped in a thick blanket, she stroked her hair slowly.

"Honey, calm down, I'll always be by your side"

Nala looked at Rein's face, as if she wanted to thank him, but her lips felt faint to speak. There was a sense of regret for his foolish actions, lamenting nostalgic memories, feeling the foundation of anticipating was so weak.

"Darling" Nala's voice shined

"Yes my love, my dear, what's wrong?"

"I love you!"

"I love you too!"

"Have a rest, Rayyan let me take care of it"

***

Rein looked at Nala who was sleeping soundly, seemingly too tired. Rayyan was on her lap, as if understanding her mother's condition, she was so calm, not fussy when it came to drinking breast milk with a bottle. Curious about Nala's attitude, Rein feels that Nala is going through the worst and hardest thing for her. I guessed everything, but I didn't find an answer. Rein remembered Nala's habit of writing, rushing out of the room, towards the desk while holding Rayyan.

Slowly open the laptop, there is a diary Nala, without a password because it has been Rein never disturbed the habit, even the act of opening a new Nala laptop now. Immediately looking for the date of the day, with a feeling of unease, the file was opened.

[The worst day is present, when the memory is present in the memory. Those memories are trying to destroy my current happiness. Hey, Roger!! dissatisfied, did you hurt me? even now it's still trying to hurt me by teasing me, through fucking memories. My heart is for Rein, now he's everything, please don't hurt me. Let me be happy, as I let you go]

Rein who read it felt so claustrophobic, imagining how Nala struggled against the turmoil of nostalgic memories. Imagining how Nala maintained a heart for herself, Nala was a sincere person, but a hard thing had to happen. His memory returned to sleep at night, Nala delirious crying, even calling Roger's name, it almost happened every night.

Either subconsciously he still loves Roger, or the events with Roger traumatized him greatly. Rein had never discussed this with Nala, her daily life after waking up and going to sleep, Nala was very sincere with herself, Rein could feel it. Determined to be by her side wherever she goes and under any circumstances, willing to give her whole heart and life to Rein. It's not a simple thing, and not everyone can do it.

Rein has never once been angry at Nala, only to feel sorry and guilty for not being able to fully treat Nala's wounds, as if being a failed man for his partner. Tears dripped slowly until they hit Rayyan's cheek, Rayyan was surprised, and Rein calmed her down immediately. The baby becomes his reinforcement not to give up, recovering Nala's wounds is his duty.

"Sadang!" Call Nala.

"Yes baby!" Rein's response as it approached.

"Let's sleep together here, I want to be close to you"

"Okay, honey"

Rayyan went back to sleep, put her in a cot. Rein lay down beside Nala, hugging her warmly, Nala's body still feeling cold. Nala hugged Rein tightly, as if she did not want to lose it and wanted to feel safe on the deck. They were silent in their arms, though their minds were busy, until they fell asleep, not a word was said.

***

The morning was so bright, purposely the Rein breakfast was preparing. Nala woke up late, not as usual and Rein did not take a headache about what time his wife woke up in the morning. Rayyan was in her arms, Nala's face was back together, as if nothing happened yesterday. It was a good start to their day, the angel was happy again. Nala has returned chatty, told her daily activities plan, even wanted to control the restaurant and invite lunch together, of course she will go to Rein campus.

"You can have lunch, but there's a condition"