Suddenly, I Became A Wife Of Lecturer
[Part 29 – Results]
“Nay!” calling out a familiar voice, Kanaya turned and found Adimas. “Udah long wait?” asked Adimas in an awkward tone.
“No, just aja,” replied Kanaya is just as awkward. “This, lo jacket. Thanks,” he said and returned Adimas' jacket.
“Sama-sama.” Adimas took his jacket back. “We find a place,” take him to Kanaya, but he walks first in front of her without waiting for Kanaya.
Kanaya followed Adimas all the way to the back of the garden, they stood behind lush trees.
A few moments of silence between them, until Adimas restarted the conversation –but the topic of discussion was no less making the situation more awkward. “Gue would like to apologize, Nay. Solved the incident ...,” said Adimas full of regrets.
Kanaya sighed, her hunch was right that Adimas would discuss that. “Gue is sorry you, so do not need to be discussed again,” cut Kanaya and her body gestures look uncomfortable.
Adimas did not immediately reply, his lips moving like he was about to say something. “Br*sec!” he rubbed his face rough and turned his back to Kanaya.
Kanaya looked at Adimas with a surprised look, not expecting the harsh word she heard from Adimas –someone she had known for a long time. But the next word is no less like a lightning strike in broad daylight for him.
“We broke up, Nay,” said Adimas in a low voice.
“Dim!” sentak Kanaya's. He pulled Adimas' arm to make him turn around and looked at him. “Lo why the hell?!”
Adimas smiled miris. “Gue this br*ngsek, Nay! So you don't need to self-make sorry or missed the incident the other day. Don't be a slut!” the Adimas's hardship is endless.
“Stop Dim!” kanaya said with emphasis, trying to hold back her emotions.
“Lo don't think what, Nay? If yesterday I came to release kiss lo,” adimas and then step forward near Kanaya. Meanwhile, Kanaya's body involuntarily stepped back –away. “Lo guess, after one kiss ... continue to finish until there?”
“No, you will not be so Dim,” refutes Kanaya, but some of him can not lie if he feels afraid of Adimas at this time.
“Don't believe me, Nay,” pinta Adimas says. “Gue can not guarantee you if the situation is like this, because I also do not believe in myself.”
“Dim, plis lah~ I like the same you have been for a long time and still like the same lo, lo also right?”
“What's the importance, I still have the same feeling you or not? I was wrong because I asked you to be my girlfriend. We like each other, but it doesn't have to go this far to digelukain and ngerusak.”
“Dimas!! I don't want to break up with you!” kanaya jolts and is emotional.
“We won't break up, Nay. We can still be friends, kayak first again,” said Dimas trying to give understanding. “Lagian .. I was horrified, he said someone came to sleep with lo.”
Kanaya did not expect that Adimas knew and would talk to her about it. “Bukan ngelamar, it's his son Temen my parents just came to acquaintance,” said Kanaya tried to explain, but it seems useless.
“What's the difference, Nay? Keep abis what acquaintance?!” adimas Exclamation. “Thank you, that's your parents' wish. God willing, it's a good choice for lo,” he said quietly and sounded soft.
“No, I don't want to! I can not accept others, while I still have the same feeling lo,” reject Kanaya. “Moreover he is a lecturer..” Kanaya did not continue her sentence, she realized that she had been speechless.
“Lecturers? Who?!” tanya Adimas cornered Kanaya.
Kanaya realized she could not retreat again –back of her body had touched the tree trunk, while Adimas continued to urge her. But the name that he will call this, can again provoke a debate with Adimas – as before. Kanaya's worried, she's still tight-lipped.
“Nay~ who? I know the guy?” ask Adimas again.
“I .. yes, Mr. Adhi,” replied Kanaya quietly as she whispered.
“So that guy, Instructor lo?” adimas asked to make sure and Kanaya nodded, assuring. Adimas smiled, but it looked like coercion. “Good dong, not you yourself who said if Lecturer Lo is a good person, responsible, full of dedication, unlimited totality, no,” said Adimas did not forget every compliment that Kanaya made to the Lecturer that night.
“I don't mean that, Dim!” Kanaya doesn't know what to say to make Adimas understand. “Gue isn't getting married yet and I still want to be lo, Dim!” kanaya said with her voice that currently sounded trembling. “So plis .. tell my parents if we date, let them cancel their decision to marry me. Continue...”
“Nay, Stop! Relax yourself lo,” said Adimas stopped Kanaya's speech, while holding the girl's shoulder. “Gue knows you're not ready yet, but what can I do? I'm not as brave as you think to take on that much responsibility or commitment. Should I tell your parents? I can't promise them anything to believe. Doang feeling capital, where enough! Keep our courtship status, do what?!” adimas Sentak.
“We don't try it first!” exclaim Kanaya insisted.
“Sorry Nay, I can't help. It's your business with your own family, so you have to finish. Continue, mending now you go home,” said Adimas while leading Kanaya to return to his home.
Tskkk!
Kanaya threw Adimas' hand on his arm.
“Gue disappointed with you, Dim. I've long ago mendem feeling the same lo, but after we know each other's feelings .. you have no struggle and that easy, give up,” said Kanaya before she left.
Kanaya ran out of the park while covering her face. He regretted his whiny self to the point of having to bother to avoid park visitors, not to mention this during the day. Even so, Kanaya was still running.
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Kanaya had only returned home on the day before dusk, she did not return home immediately after talking to Adimas, but she went to calm herself down first. Then he was in his room, locked up by himself.
Even the invitation to dinner from his family members was not heed, including Bang Dhika who banged bar and shouted from outside his bedroom door.
Kanaya's thoughts continued to be fixed on her conversation with Adimas –siang in the park, because the disappointment continued to loom and stop in her heart until she felt tightness.
Gts ... Gts ... Gts ...
The gentle knock of the door distracted Kanaya.
“Neng, out. Let's eat first, you will be sick,” invite the Mother.
“Neither Ma'am, Eneng no laper,” replied Kanaya.
“Don't be so Neng, I'm worried about you. If there is nothing with Eneng, Mother is also sad,” said Ibu Nurlela sounded weak voice. “Kalo Mom is wrong, sorry Mom. But ... try the story first, let me understand.”
Kanaya's heart was filled to hear the mother's guilt, but her mother knew nothing. So inevitably, he opened the door for his mother. Then he went back up to the bed and faced the wall.
Kanaya hears her bedroom door closed and a ceramic object touching the surface of the table. Then Kanaya felt a weight on the edge of her bed, then a hand stroked her hair softly.
“Eneng why? If there's a problem, try telling Mom. Who knows you can help.”
Kanaya shook her head, while she still turned her back to her mother.
“Yes already, eaten this first. Cold hunt again later the rice,” said Mother while holding the plate.
Kanaya shook her head again.
Nurlela's mother could be heard sighing heavily. “Mother is sad if Eneng is like this,” he said weakly.
Although previously Kanaya insisted, but gradually he was devastated by the persuasion and gentle attitude of the Mother –besides because she did not have the heart to hurt her mother's feelings. Finally Kanaya wants to eat and tell her about what happened today and what her true feelings were.
“Ya Allah~ Neng, sorry Mother who has forced you,” said Ibu Nurlela while hugging her daughter.
“Udah, now Eneng just rest. Later let Mother who talks to Mr. –mu with Ibu Ranti,” said Ibu Nurlela while getting out of bed.
Kanaya held her mother's hand. “Bu, actually Eneng so doubtful after the incident today,” I Kanaya.
Nurlela's mother sat back on Kanaya's bed and she sighed while holding Kanaya's hand. “Neng, as a parent of course I want the best for my daughter. But Mother also can not maksa you, because later you will mengejalanin. So now the decision is in Eneng, but try to think wisely.”
“Eneng don't know, Mom. It's gray,” said Kanaya frustrated. “Adimas, Eneng people love –dia blissfully feels the same. Continue Mr. Adhi, Eneng knows he is good –but Eneng is still not sure can be the same he.”
“Neng, we never know who will match. But do not waste a good man who comes with good intentions, because we do not know whether to get the same opportunity again or not,” Mother's advice. “And if Eneng is still in doubt, Eneng asked God. Pray Istikharah, ask to be chosen the best,” added Ibu Nurlela before he left his daughter's room.
Kanaya was stunned to listen to the advice of her mother, then she went out of the room to take ablution water to perform the prayers of Isya and Istikharah.
Kanaya prayed, asking for her heart to be settled on the affairs of a mate.
“Yes Allah, if he is my soul mate then make the road easy and unite our hearts. But if he is not my soul mate, keep him from getting hurt and pair him with someone good according to Your –. Verily Thou art the All-Knowing.”
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This morning his mind was much clearer after the break and clearing himself, he had also thought through all the words of the surrounding people well.
The father who considers how obedience and religious understanding Pak Adhi will be given the responsibility to guide him. Then Teh Dita, who talked about the opportunity of potential husbands and age. Bang Dhika, with the viewpoint of a man and his older brother. And ... Geez~ Sofia whom he did not expect turned out to be concerned about his well-being.
Then Adimas, a man who has the same feelings as Kanaya himself –but prefers to let go, admit his shortcomings and give opportunities to other men who he considers more worthy of Kanaya.
And Kanaya also thought back, what exactly is the purpose of dating? Does he want recognition and clarity of relationship status? Romanticism? Then after that what?
Not much has changed, except for the flowery feeling. But along with it also appears possessiveness, jealousy until they sometimes suspect each other.
Meanwhile, on the other hand – during this time they are fine friends ... or maybe better because they have restrictions as friends.
Finally, the mother who helps him to be able to think clearly and considerately to be able to decide his choice.
Dugh ... Dugh ... Dugh ...
That door blow won't stop until he replies.
His brother is indeed a destroyer of moods.
“IYA!” sahut Kanaya is short. Then he came out of his room to help make breakfast.
After breakfast, Kanaya tells her family that she has agreed to continue the introductory stage. But he does not want to be rushed to take the decision to a serious stage, then regardless of what the result will be –he wants his family not to urge him.
Kanaya did not think that her family's response would support her and fully appreciate her current despair. Kanaya was grateful, because her worry all this time was just her mind. In fact, everything can be solved well.
“Alhamdulillah Neng, then your decision –Mother is happy. The important thing is to walk first, InsyaAllah if indeed a mate must not go anywhere,” said Ibu Nurlela.
“Iya Bu,” Kanaya replied.
“Then, you try to set the time to meet and talk to Nak Adhi,” said Mr. Haris.
“Iya Sir, today Eneng will meet Mr. Adhi. Because there are still people who want to be asked about the thesis,” replied Kanaya.
“Good if that, faster is better,” said Mr. happy. “Bu, later bekelin Eneng food for him to bring to Nak Adhi,”, said Mr. Haris to his wife.
“Iya Sir,” replied Ibu Nurlela no less happy.
Kanaya heaved a sigh of relief, unknowingly her –smile also expanded.
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Kanaya had already gotten an answer to her heart's dilemma. What about Mr Adhi?
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Fyuh~ also this part. I was just like Kanaya.
Does it feel dramatic, isn't this part?
You see, I felt Adimas' dialogue was overthinking, but I wanted to point out if he was a good guy who was aware of the mistake and repent. Kanaya continues, a wounded and disappointed figure who she tries to express her feelings in a moment of regret.
Mr Adhi? Let's wait for the next part.
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Btw, after I remembered ... it turns out I had heard the same story from the closest person to me.
So he has a crush on his neighbors, but not until Naya is the same Dimas. They are only aware of each other's feelings, without being expressed.
Continues suddenly there is a guy who came to meet his family and intend to marry him, like Mr. Adhi so it was –older age than him. There he felt worried, there were close people who he estimated but his family would agree if he was the same Mr. Adhi who he did not even know.
And yes~ so, he prayed Istikharah and prayers like Naya. Keep it finally ...??
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