Suddenly, I Became A Wife Of Lecturer
[Part 48 - Explanation]

“Father left because of me, Mas.”

A shocking confession is at once difficult to believe because it is so out of his mind. “What do you mean by that, Sukma?!”

The woman smiled softly, already at risk of giving an explanation after saying so and attracted the curiosity of her audience. But .. means he also has to dig his deepest wound again. “Surely it's a reason and I'll tell you, because Mas also came for the reason behind it,” replied Sukma while looking at Adhi. “But I'm not comfortable enough for the story in front of the person I just met,” he said and glanced at Kanaya.

Kanaya, who knows herself that she is being offended, she went from sitting down to leaving her Husband and Ex – so they are more comfortable talking without her existence.

“Mbak Kanaya,” call Sukma and the girl stops her steps, then turns her head. “I'm not saying, if Ma'am Kanaya also can't hear,” he said with a thin smile that is almost invisible. “I know, Ms. Kanaya came along because she is just as curious and uncomfortable with the fact that Husband still has a connection with his ex.”

Kanaya is still waiting for what Mbak Sukma to say.

“Mbak Kanaya can wait in the middle room,” continued Sukma and Kanaya turned in towards the middle room.

Then for a moment there was silence.

“I don't know where to tell,” I Sukma who looks nervous while twisting his shirt.

“Of course from the beginning and to the end, without anything less,” replied Adhi who was not a request but an insistence.

Sukma. “Kalo so, I want to ask Mas .. and I want to answer honestly,” the door.

“Not a problem,” replied Adhi did not seem disturbed by the request.

“What Mas loves Mas Wife now?”

Adhi seemed to be thinking, as if asking herself. But the answer was not in his brain, but his heart. Only, his current feelings were like an obscure gray in which direction.

Sukma smiled again, because he had got the answer just from the silence and saw the confused expression of Adhi. “What is too hard, Mas?” cut it. “Kalo so let me change the question ... when we get married, Mas loves me right?”

“What do you mean talk like that?” there was a dislike in his words. Adhi feels uncomfortable if Sukma compares his old self to the present, then what about Kanaya? He could be offended and hurt more.

But as if not giving time for Adhi to protest, Sukma again asked, “Kalo so ... Is Mas going to continue the marriage with Mas's current wife, if Mas knew, Ms. Kanaya was already pregnant first and it's another boy. Would you be responsible?”

“You've gone too far, Sukma! I came to hear your reasons, why it suddenly disappeared at that time and messed things up .. But why are you even talking to my unreasonable wife with unreasonable accusations, even he's not wrong with you?!” angry Adhi.

Sukma cupped his face, hiding his eyes that might have been red because they held the dam of water that was ready to spill. “I'm leaving because I love Mas Adhi,” I admit.

A very silly reason when Adhi heard it, leaving because he loved her? “No need to be tight anymore, just explain the real reason –that's all I want to know at this time,” cut Adhi.

“Mas, I admit that at first I was happy to be with you –a great man and full of convincing future plans. But you are too fast and therefore I can not keep pace with your steps, in addition you are too many demands and rules in the relationship –I am tired.”

Adhi smiled wryly at the reason from the Ex. “You tired?” cut Adhi again. “Where is it with me that you left without the certainty of a relationship and suddenly feel your idolatry? Then, you should have ended our relationship from the beginning!”

“Mas please, justin I clear all to completion,” pinta Sukma.

Adhi took a breath, trying to temper her emotions. “Good,” the answer is short.

“Sorry because of my actions hurt Mas, but I have no intention like that –so also with break up Mas. At that time, I just want to be alone and rest for a moment,” I Sukma. “But at the same time ... it turns out, there is someone who is very considerate of me and I am getting used to him – until I am not aware that it is just a trick, just aja,” said Sukma slowly sounding shrinking and vibrating, until replaced by sobs.

Adhi felt awfully wrong to see a woman crying in front of him, as did Kanaya who heard from the next room. But Adhi can't just give up and stop here. “Drink first Sukma,” said Adhi and gave her a drink.

Sukma received it and took a slow sip of the water, then adjusted his breathing before he returned to the story. “If you can choose, honestly I do not want to say this –because not only hurt me, but also my son,” said Sukma lirih.

At this point, Adhi had wanted to change his mind and end it, because he felt like a heavy burden of speech that was about to be said by Sukma. But he chose to be quiet and wait, letting the woman herself decide whether to talk or not.

“I was raped, Mas.”

A sentence uttered in a flat tone, but save the horror it sounded like a huge stone blasphemy that befell mareka –Kanaya herself to silence her mouth.

“Sukma, why don't you tell me?” ask Adhi.

Sukma seemed to shake his head weakly. “I also can not say to Mother the same Father. Da ... and because of that, I cannot go back to Mas.”

“Then, that boy?”

“She was a senior with my same organization on campus,” replied Sukma, but it did not answer Adhi's question.

“Not, that's not what I meant. You ... so you go with that guy?”

“No Mas, even until now I am still alone and so is taking care of children.”

Adhi seemed to frown, feeling awkward with the reason Sukma – who left him when he was not with the man. “Then where is the man?” asked Adhi with an implied tone of anger.

“I don't know Mas, he disappeared after that day and I also felt pretty bad with the incident to ignore you,” replied Sukma.

Oh my God, it turns out he had been bad at Sukma all this time and bombard him with anger in times of trouble.

“Then after that, I called and asked me to go home – immediately for no apparent reason,” Sukma continued. “Mas know, what do you want to say?” tanya Sukma and Adhi silenced –though actually he tried them. “Bapak said, Mas came to bed me and you also asked me to accept Mas,” he replied.

“Can I shadow how am I playing? I cannot explain the reason for refusing Mas to the Father, but I also feel guilty if I have to accept Mas's application with my condition that has been tainted,” said Sukma. “Continue with the last choice, I try to dare to talk directly to Mas about the event and later ask Mas who spoke to you to cancel his application. But again, another unexpected thing came .. I was pregnant.”

Adhi rubbed his face rough until his hands began to squint at his forehead. “It's enough, Sukma. Now I understand your condition was heavy at that time and I apologize for ___,” said Adhi but was immediately cut again by Sukma.

“Gak Mas, don't apologize. I do not even deserve to accept your apology, because some time before I still expect you –so do not make me hope with such remarks and let me finish this conversation.”

Adhi understood Sukma's intention by not making it falter, because with their meeting alone –it was quite uncomfortable. Not to mention the question posed by Sukma, what if his wife –Kanaya– also experienced something similar, does she still accept it?

But Adhi himself does not know if asked that, because honestly, he said, he is also not a man with a chest if his wife was hit by something like that –because he himself feels uncomfortable if Kanaya is close to other men.

“So I decided to leave with the aim of finding the man and holding him accountable,” explained Sukma revealing the real reason for his sudden and unheard-of departure. “Unfortunately, I could not find the man and I did not dare to go home, especially with the condition of my stomach that already looks enlarged.”

“At last I decided to bear and raise my own child, but unfortunately it was not easy after my son was born because the expenditure increased –my savings ran out. So I was forced to go home, but unfortunately my arrival with the child is not what you expect after I thwarted his desire to have a good son-in-law like Mas –Bapak heart failure,” he concluded.

Adhi's entire oral cavity was dry, so he intended to wet it first by sipping water - even to the point of basing it. After that, no words came out either. He was too shocked and confused to speak, plus his guilt was now on.

"Mas no need to feel guilty after this," said Sukma as if he could read the look on Adhi's face. "Because from the beginning, it was wrong on me. I turned away from Mas and I was also not honest with Mas," he continued and smiled bitterly. "So .. don't regret anything, it's just the past. After all, now we've got each other's people to guard against." This time Sukma spoke more firmly to clarify the situation of those who have ended.

Adhi dehemed and agreed, then he got up to Sukma and stretched out his hand. "Then, thank you for explaining it to me - even if it's hard for you" he said.

"Yes, both Mas Adhi," replied Sukma and shook his hand back.

Adhi glanced at the watch she was wearing on her left arm. "It looks like we have to go home now" he said.

Meanwhile, Kanaya who heard the husband's words, she immediately got up and approached him. She walked and stood next to her husband.

"Mbak Kanaya," called Sukma and made the girl turn to him. "Hopefully after this there are no more misunderstandings, ya~ and we can be happy together with the people we care about."

Kanaya was stunned to hear the remark, before she replied, "yes .. and I also apologize for thinking badly about Mbak Sukma."

Sukma. "That's a natural thing Kanaya ma'am, if jealousy .. it's jealousy, a sign of love," said Sukma. "Well, is that right, Mas Adhi?"

Adhi and Kanaya were both silent, but their faces seemed to say something.

"Yes, if not now, maybe later you can realize each other's feelings. But sometimes, love is not expressed ... also look," said Sukma and offended a small smile.

"Ooo~ where's Mom? We want to say goodbye" said Adhi.

Then Sukma went inside to call the mother and before long Bu Wanti came out.

"Have you gone home, Adhi boy?"

"Yes Ma'am, it's late too" Adhi replied and approached Ms. Wanti. "Then we say goodbye, yes Bu~ May the mother of the family always healthy," he said and kissed the back of Bu Wanti's hand.

"Yes, you as well and your family to stay healthy" said Ms. Wanti as she patted Adhi on the shoulder. "Congratulations to your marriage, may it be a sakinah mawadah warahmah family. But sorry, I can't love anything for your wedding gift yet" said Ms. Wanti who still hasn't released her handshake to Adhi.

"Thank you, Mom, for your prayers and congratulations. If about the gift mah, do not need to be too thoughtful .. anyway Mother also just knew the news," replied Adhi by rubbing the hand of Bu Wanti.

"Yah~ Mother is not good, a time of not loving anything to you. Well, Nak Adhi or Ma'am Kanaya want what? Later I will try to bring it for you," replied Miss Wanti.

Adhi himself did not feel good to refuse the request of the middle-aged woman. "Then Mother Sukma will come to Eyang's house" he asked. "Let us explain together so that there will be no more misunderstandings."

"Mas...," call Sukma in doubt. While Ms. Wanti was silent.

"I know, it's not easy. But if not tried, we will not know the results," said Adhi while holding the hand of Ms. Wanti. "Mother's coming, huh? I'll be home tomorrow" Adhi pinta.

Ms. Wanti seemed to think for a moment before replying, "God willing."

Adhi smiling. "Okay, I wait," he answered. "Then we go home, yes, ma'am ... Sukma," said Adhi while holding Kanaya's hand.

"Yes, be careful" replied Bu Wanti and Sukma.

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