The Become A Villain In The Novel
Chapter 40

I exhaled a tired breath remembering all my behavior last night. Then the door to my room was knocked.

"Come in" I replied. And Keegan went inside. My breath was stuck in my throat. Why did he come in here. Shania said she was still outside.

"Mom call me?" tanyakanya. 

Ha's? How's it? Since when I called him.

He leisurely walked to my desk. I felt like I could feel every step of her galloping here. And subconsciously I pinched my own arm to hold myself back from suffocating. All those memories were back in circles in my head.

"I don't call you" I replied stiffly in a very unfriendly tone of voice.

"But-" Seeblum Keegan continued her words The door of my room was knocked back.After I got the message, Shania went inside.

"Oh, Mas Keegan has met Mom."

My forehead winches. "Why should he see me?" I asked Shania.

"Wasn't Mom seen Mas Keegan from earlier?"

"Th-you mean? When do I get her?"

Shania replied innocently, "From morning on, I am nyariin Mas Keegan continues." I kept asking Shania where Keegan was, but not because I wanted to see her. Instead, I had to know where Keegan was so I could keep away from the man. "Eatya was just meeting Mas Keegan I immediately said that Mother turned on him," continued Shania back.

If there wasn't Keegan, I would've pulled the eel over. Shania's Eidat.

"I'm not looking for Keegan, Shania," I finally replied. And Shania's face turned shocked. Reactions that I think are a bit excessive. "If you don't see Mas Keegan, why do you keep telling Mas Keegannya, Mom? She said ten times more than Nanyaiin's mother. That's why I think something's important."

A-ten? Shania must be making things up. It can't be that much I asked about Keegan. It's not even past noon yet.

"You're exaggerating" I replied trying as calmly as possible. Kulirik Keegan from the tail of my eye. He seemed completely unperturbed. God fucking. Though I was already in the fog but the reksi even so. But what kind of reaction do I expect? He's salto-salto 'cause I get caught asking about him constantly? It can't be. Even good reaction like this. "And I'm not looking for Keegan."

"Maybe Shania misunderstood, ma'am," Keegan said after remaining silent. 

"Misunderstand me?" Shania was a bit confused.

"Finding someone doesn't mean you just want to meet. It could have been the other way around" said Keegan coldly. "Then, ma'am, I'll excuse you."

In a heavy voice I replied, "Yes" a word that even sounded unconvinced in my own ears.

Then Keegan left my room, followed by Shania after she handed me some files.

*** 

"The Galaxy 112 debut was a huge success. Their schedules continue to be congested lately.cickle-on television shows flocked to invite them as guest stars. Especially Xei. He was the most outstanding member compared to the others."

I just nodded at Shania's explanation.

I don't know. Lately it seems like I've been experiencing symptoms of aging. Am I going to get dementia? Many times I can't focus on my work and often forget what I'm going to do.

"Shania," I said at last.

"Yes, Mom."

"I think I need to make an appointment with a psychiatrist. But keep it a secret from everyone."

Shania's face turned frantic. "Why, Mom?"

"Of course it must be kept a secret" I replied. "I'll be rumored to be crazy if I get caught going to a psychiatrist."

Either the media has not moved on from the Tony Lesmana case will call me crazy for not being able to have the man.

"Not that, Mom."

I don't understand it. "So what?"

"Why do you feel the need to see a psychiatrist? Mommy got a problem?" tanyanya carefully.

"It's no big deal" I said calmly. "I've just been having a bit of a hard time concentrating lately. You saw it yourself, right? I even find out where my phone is when I call it."

I glanced at him annoyed. "You're expecting me? What if my condition is severe."

Dementia!!!

"I'm not a doctor. But I think I know the reason why you haven't been focused lately."

"Huh? How can you know?"

"Yes, you can dong" replied Shania Jemawa. "Because it seems clear that you can't focus because of Mas Keegan."

"Huh?" I got up straight from my chair. And when I realized that my reaction was excessive, I immediately sat back down. "Why is it even linked to Keegan."

"I was initially unconscious. But lately Mom and Mas Keegan are again enemies huh?"

I gasped at Shania's words. "What riot? Like a little kid."

"If you know like a child why Mom and Mas Keegan don't talk to each other?"

I gasped again. But Shania cut it off right away before I made a defense, "Every day you two play with cats. Not wanting to cross each other. If you accidentally pass the two of them even run away."

Okay, Shania's words hit me really hard.

"I, I-" Shit. I'm at a loss for words. 

"I might sound like you know, but if you don't focus because of someone, then there's still something you have to do with that person."

*** 

Shania's words made me even more unfocused. What does it mean I should start making up with Keegan? Make up? It was as if we were just fighting. Well, the point is I have to fix my relationship with Keegan. We can't keep acting like this.

But what I think and what I do is very different. Today we had a meeting with the film crew. I should have gone with Keegan. But stubbornly I said that I wanted Shania to be with me.

Our meeting went well. I was so focused on listening to the plan for this next film.

"I thought Mom was going to go with Mas Keegan" asked Shania as we returned to my office.

"I-" I can't continue my words. It feels really weird talking about this to Shania. We are close, but our relationship is only limited to superiors and subordinates. We never talked about anything personal. And I think my problem with Keegan is already in the private domain. I'm not sure what I feel for her.

"If you don't want to talk about it, that's okay. Sorry I got too far into it."

I just smiled wryly in response.

"I'm trying to fix it." I just said that. If you don't answer anything, Shania will feel bad. "But let's just say it's not as easy as I thought."

Actually, I was well aware that my relationship with Keegan had to be repaired. Our actions these few days have been very unprofessional. He did still see me if there was anything important to discuss. But the rest is really uncomfortable. And I think the people around us are uncomfortable too.

***

At home, I walked to the parking lot by myself. Of course I'm home by myself now. And coming home on my own like this actually makes me a little lonely. To be honest, I miss Keegan because I keep away from her like this.

Do I just call him now, okay?

I saw he was still at his desk. As soon as I got in front of my car I pulled out my phone and called Keegan.

"Hello, Mom."

"Catherine!"

I looked back and heard that voice. And...

***

Sincerely,

Dark Peppermint