
I don't know how to start and end this story.
Always trying to end it all but can't because he's always there and muddled in the mind, making it a complete darkness confused what's more, what's more, when there is an opportunity to try to forget it but it is unbearable to hold back like this. It was like something was tickling this dirty dark little heart to always remember it inviting it back in your mind.
You fucker. You always hang in my mind swinging by yourself under a tree without the rush of life, don't want to see your face but you always and always force me to look at you more and longer without trying to turn away from you and if only I could run away from the place I'm staring at you. The glare of his eyes made me fixated restless, restless, angry, chaotic. Oh.. I beg of you stop locking me up like this I want to wake up from this long sleep wanting to see the colorful world you always promised me.
You always tell me that I'm your only friend nothing else and when you find out I have someone I call a friend then you alone will eliminate him from life me, you always tell me no one can touch my shadow but you. Does it sound selfish to be angry? Pissed off? All those feelings he would erase from me for a moment because he wanted to protect me from the soul god who was about to possess the inner being and master it so that he could do things he loved without caring the one who was the target, no?.
The days just passed you still wouldn't let me wake up, you made me forget how the life I lived first seemed like you purposely did it all you said I wouldn't be able to accept it if I knew so I tried to forget it and didn't ask again to her, smiling sweetly and you like her she hugged me tightly on her bed feeling her embrace so warm and comfortable, he stroked my hair gently and said “What if you hate me it's natural but I hope you know what I'm doing this is not the wrong destination”. Again, again, he smiled and took my hand and led me out we ran in a beautiful yellow flower field and let our bodies hang out with him, but all we felt was a soft feeling and smell of her. When it was dusk was not the right time to enjoy the sunset?, the twilight sky is so charming coupled with a gentle breeze makes anyone become very calm and happy.
Slowly but surely the sky became dark and the little stars now began to appear with the dim moonlight as well as the night animals began to sing as if they were holding a concert, beautiful little animals named fireflies are dancing around us with a cheerful welcome night.
I looked at the night sky while pensive and laughing, looking at me he asked “Are you happy?” she stroked my hair once more gently. “Let's go home this late, tomorrow we'll be back here before sunrise”. Then again, grabbing my hand and grilling it tightly, we returned home. “Sleep! Tomorrow it will be very pleasant for us” he exclaimed at me while carving a sweet smile on his lips. I don't know what happened to both eyes I felt very tired and wanted to close the window that always protected him from danger, the drowsiness became more and more unbearable and finally these two windows of eyes were tightly closed even very tightly while she continued to gently caress my hair that was lying down beside this weak body.
The same thing he did was grab my hand and take me out we went to where he used to swing alone and he told me to sit next to him, he started swinging his legs that he had purposely tightened on the ground so that the swing also followed the swing of his feet, his long hair perfectly draped in the wind. It was good to see him so.
I looked at him deeply once in a while I blinked this eye to see if he was really here with me and would not disappear leaving me alone with all the fear, loneliness, darkness, darkness, and frigid?.
The question I asked him was why are we alone and nothing else? I never asked him again because there was a frown on his forehead there was sadness when I threw the celebration but only satin but he knew what I wanted to say to him before I get that out of my lips.
“Do you feel bored with me? Maybe it's better if I get away from you. Is that what you want?” That's not what I really want, how can I think like that without it I can't do anything. I hugged him tightly and cried it was like these tears would not roll down my cheeks, this feeling I did not understand at all.
“Sorry, it makes you cry bitterly like this” He hugged me tightly while stroking this hair hoping I would immediately stop my crying which made him drift away.
“Do you want to take a walk?” Asking me while thrusting her soft hand, she got off the swing and grabbed her hand while coming down from the swing.