The Ex
49. The true failure

JEEEDDDDDEEEERRRR!!!.

Like being struck by lightning in a hole. Zidan immediately nodded limp and lackadaisical. The body is bent so that it can hug Siska tighter with the position of the head that is deliberately leaned on the shoulder of Siska while dusel - dusel reflex because of gregetan. Want to rampage, protest or whatever can vent his feelings of disappointment but can not. It's just resigned. Fate - fate.

"Why do you have to get it now? it can't be sampled to be postponed for a few more days?." Basic Zidan who is still ngarep. It was a strange question, strange.

"Where can that be. You don't be weird being a person!."

"Who knows, it could be delayed. She should know we're newlyweds. But why did it come?."

"Well, how do I know. You are also, how could you not hesitate - how could it be the same me? or shy little cake, just married already frontal gini your attitude!. Though usually a newly married couple was on the nervous - the group wanted to start. If you don't even act like a husband who hasn't been able to ration for a long time!." Siska nagged, taking off Zidan's embrace and then stepped back to turn on her room lamp and sat leaning on the bed with a small mirror that pointed to her face.

"Different people have different attitudes, baby. I'd rather be honest and open. Also shame - shame. Save time."

Yes, yes, yes, whatever Siska says will always be denied by Zidan. So Siska better not care and continue his activities just to do self-care before going to bed.

"How should I go now?." Zidan still seems frustrated. Now he sat beside Siska, looking at the wife expectantly.

"Yes how? surrender." siska's reply instantly made Zidan sigh heavily.

"Udah deh, don't be like a child whose toys are captured as his own. I don't think there's a tomorrow."

"Soky? tomorrow it could be?." The word Tomorrow clearly means so much the same Zidan with his hopeful face.

"Sokay - tomorrow! 7 Or 8 days!. It's just the first day!. Ckkl!." And Zidan went limp again. Do not wait another 7 or 8 days. Waiting until tomorrow he can't be like that.

"A long time Sis? can't be on cepetin what?."

"Where can be set - set! you're this from earlier weird - weird. Some are also usually not so, why now be confused because it can not be so? you really love me not the same? why did your thoughts about that go on? shouldn't we be thankful that we got married? Isshhh!!." Siska starts gregetan.

"Kok you so doubt the same affection my love again anyway? It's obvious, I love you. I even cried because I could actually marry you. You still don't believe it?."

"Yes, you end up like an obscure hot snake. Ah, don't make a fuss. I'm tired all day standing, welcoming guests, smiling here and there. I'm going to bed. Matiin lamp continues it is also a candle - the candle you are responsible for. Don't be a fire because you forgot to be killed!."

With an annoyed look, Siska shifted and laid down her body after her treatment activities were completed. Half his body was covered with a blanket tilted back to Zidan.

"Yourf!."

Seeing his wife rest. Zidan got up from the bed and fulfilled all his commands without complaining about the song. In addition, he also turned on the dim lights so that the room is not so dark even though the main lights are turned off.

A little time later. Zidan's hands began to circle softly in Siska's stomach. His fingers also automatically grasped Siska's hand. Even one more hand was tucked under Siska's neck in order to be screwed by Siska. While giving a little pull so that their bodies can be close together. From this, Siska could feel the warmth given by Zidan.

"Have you slept?." Zidan's voice sounded heavy, probably because it was already night or started to nod. But even so it sounds still soft on Siska's ear.

"M."

Zidan immediately smiled. No one is sleeping but can answer.

"Sis, last time I met Mega and Goldi, how did you feel? guess you're disturbed, aren't you?." Zidan started his bedtime chat.

"Not at all. I like Viona."

"Thank God that's it. I was afraid you weren't comfortable around them and were disturbed."

"No, you know that. I even had a casual conversation with them."

"Yes." Yeah." Zidan smiled a little. "So that I really don't think if you even want to familiarize yourself to them, but I already had a shake - shake to ngusir them if they talk strange - strange."

Zidan smiled again. "Yes. They still have guilt."

Siska turned her body to face Zidan so she could look directly at the conversation.

"You still hurt the same way they did?."

"Em, actually if you think about it, I'm not as hurt as they are. Even though they have fair behind me. That was what I used to feel more guilt because it made all families sad. I went down because I was squirming my mother who continued - the crying canal was just as lamenting my fate. I'm down because Oma died. The big family went into a cold war. I felt like I was more of an ill-advised child. The disappointing child. A child who likes to make trouble. Yes, just like that."

"How come, how weird is that? how do you even feel guilty? shouldn't you feel betrayed? cheated? just like your own again. You don't love Mega?."

"Love? em ..." Zidan had to think about answering Siska's question. But then his eyes looked meaningfully at Siska. "I just realized. I don't seem to love Mega." Yep, it turns out, this love is not for Mega but for the woman who is now lying with her.

"You said it wasn't as loving as Mega, but you married her yesterday!." With sewot Siska chimed. I don't want to believe in love, but the facts say something like this.

Zidan laughed a little. His hand also began to give a soft elusan in Siska's head affectionately. "Hehehe, meaning yesterday - yesterday misinterpreted my feelings for him. I thought I loved him but actually my feelings for him were more because of my admiration for him or because of my excessive gratitude for him?."

"meaning?."

"You want to know? how is the story I can meet Mega continue to marry him?."

Siska did not turn away but from her expression she waited for Zidan's story.

"So then, my omaku was sick - sick and kept having a mild stroke. Because I used to be the one who often anterin Oma treat the same therapy in the hospital, so we met accidentally. Mega is a nurse who always nanganin Oma fit in the hospital. Long story short Oma same Mega so familiar so also the same me. In addition to the hospital, every Mega vacation and there was a time he also often came to the house. Deket, deket, deket, oma ask me same mega wedding. Yes finally without a second thought because I feel this mega a good person, affectionate attention the same oma. My mom's with Caca, I want to marry her, and so does she. Uh, but it turns out that on the day of H she was even caught pregnant and yes divorced."

Siska mangosteen - mangosteen. But a second later his gaze sharpened with suspicion. "Don't don't you come to me too, huh? You're just obsessed with me, you're just lust after me, you want to touch me. Then all that you mean is love?."

"Gosh, how do you think that's it?." Zidan didn't think it through.

"Yes who knows. Your attitude is the same as mine. So before we get any further. You better reflect first, you're really love or not the same as me."

"Aishiura! start again. I started to feel my feelings again. Everything I love you. I was crying lo sis, you forget?, money was like that, I gave it all to you. But you still hunch? ckck!." Zidan was upset himself. "Now I ask you. What are you about? you love me not the same? I guess here who still has no feelings - what it really is you, not me, is not me!."

"Uhm, I'm so sleepy huh? Oh, it's night turned out. Sleep with yuk..." Siska chose to shy away from Zidan's question. But with gestures, he stooped his husband and leaned his head against his chest.

"Curtain! why hug, hug? don't don't don't you just want to touch touch touch me, okay?." Zidan tried to let go of his embrace. But Siska instead tightened her embrace and looked for a comfortable position.

"Side don't hug - hug!. Being asked not to answer even hugs - hugs, shameless you!."

"Stttt!! malem, don't talk. I will continue to kiss you!." Siska goes along - follow Zidan's way, if you tease him.

Zidan laughed a little. "What dare you kiss me?." Said kiss from Siska immediately changed her mood that was sprained back cheerful.

"What do you think I don't dare?."

"No!." But with the expression ngarep.

"Gee! not so. I know you're fishing, let it be really kissed!."

"Hahaha, don't you dare."

"Sleeping is already malem, this position is very good."

Yep, Siska again drowned herself in Zidan's chest while hugging tightly.