The Heart of Old Menjakaka
204. I want to thank you
"Because ...." Tian hung his words because his stomach suddenly felt wrapped around. Sick as if to shuck. And suddenly, a loud voice came out from the wrinkled lips below.
Dut!
Tian and Nissa glared together, looking shocked simultaneously.
"You fart? Very dirty?" Before Nissa could smell the poisonous gas, she had already covered her nose. The suspect stood with his red face.
"Sorry, Nis, I'm a deliverance. I'll go to the toilet for a second!" Tian directly ran out, carrying a sense of mules, shame and fear that mixed into one.
Nissa also came out of her room, then called a cleaning service who had just passed by.
"Here you!" command with hand movement.
"What's up, Mom?"
"Please spray a room freshener in my room for a minute."
"Good." The man in uniform nodded, then went inside and directly sprayed the room fragrant he happened to be holding.
Nissa sighed, then shook her head.
Meanwhile, in the toilet, Tian who was sitting while shitting was constantly grumbling himself.
His pride is completely non-existent. Tian also imagined, how ill-fated Nissa would be. Everything is broken, and there is no hope.
Let alone to be a companion, accepting him as his friend also feels like he will not.
"Today is really shit!" Tian grabbed his own hair, furious at the circumstances. "So morning, Fira asked for a divorce, I kept getting stabbed by the dept collector and now. Nissa hated me, fired me, and maybe she's disgusted by me now."
"Ah Tian .. Let alone making her a wife, make friends she no longer wants." Tian rubbed his face rough. She wanted to scream, even cry inside. But he didn't do it.
Tian chose to speed up his activities, his honesty had not been fully revealed and had to be resolved right now.
"All of you, let me express my feelings. If I'm rejected, I don't miss Nissa." Tian cleaned his pants, then washed his hands thoroughly with soap while washing his face. He looked at his face towards the large mirror in front of the sink, while tidying his hair. "Western thing, Nissa is a diamond in the jewelry store. Expensive, beautiful and beautiful. While me? What, huh? Maybe the stone at the time, or the stone what's the name .. who made the rub the pan?" Silent for a moment, thinking about the stone he was referring to. "Ah forgot, basically me and Nissa are like heaven and earth. So much different." Tian bobbing head.
After it was finished, Tian went out and stepped his feet until he met Nissa in front of the room. The woman had been standing at the door ever since.
"I'm sorry, Nis, I don't mean to be rude to dare—"
"Udah in,“ interrupted Nissa quickly while opening the door. They entered together and sat down to their original place, just like before.
Nissa let out a breath, then placed both of her arms on the table. "Aren't you just now?"
"Cebok. It stinks, huh?" Tian was panicking. He immediately stood up and kissed the hand he had just placed on his own butt.
"Yes, sit down again." Pointing towards the chair.
"So our conversation wasn't over. Continue with the problem."
"Yes, Nis, I'm sorry and—"
"No need to apologize anymore," Nissa cut quickly. "We're straight to the reason you foiled the plan."
Tian nodded, slowly looking into Nissa's eyes. "That's because I love you, Nis. I just realized .. if my love ever since grew back. And if I'm honest .. early Fira asked me to drain your property I didn't want to, when I found out you were Nissa, my high school friend."
"Fira is your wife?" nissa asked confused. Tian nodded immediately. "Certainly, he meant to know what I am? I don't understand." Some of the words Tian spoke did sound ambiguous.
"Fira, just told me to get close to Steven. And I didn't know at first that Steven's mom was you, Nis. And when I know .. I don't think I can do it. My feelings are in love with you. Never mind to drain the treasure, make you angry and sad even I don't have the heart." Shaken faintly.
"Why do you love me?" Nissa's forehead flinched. "Aren't you in love with Fira?"
"I love him, even very much. She's my wife and whatever she asks I always do. Yes, including wanting to approach you. But ... When I looked at you, all my plans failed. I can't keep my wife's request because I've fallen for you. Even this love ...." Tian touched his chest which felt thumping. "It's been there since I was in high school. But baby, I never dared to reveal it."
"Why?"
"Because I'm ashamed. I don't feel worthy either." Tian's eyes now fell and became empty. "I'm also sure that you would reject me. I'm I'll go first, get closer again."
Nissa let out her breath heavily. Then he scratched his forehead. Suddenly his head felt dizzy.
"I'm not asking for a statement of my love you're receiving, Nis," Tian said with a sad face. His eyes looked glazed. Nissa rolled her eyes. "I know, besides you don't want to get married. Even now it might have become hate."
"But .. Please give me a chance to work again here," Tian asked, both of his hands cupped with a clear face. "I promise, as long as I work .. I will not do mischief including draining property. Even if you don't want to deal with me anymore, that's no problem." Tian shook his head quickly. "I will work professionally and consider you as my boss. Seeing your smile every day makes me happy."
Nissa pensive. Think about what that guy said. His heart did not melt at all because of that declaration of love. Because Nissa herself does not like Tian, consider him only a friend.
However, all he thought about was about all the reasons the man worked. That is true, the initial intention is to want to drain the treasure. Even though what he did was simply to comply with Fira's request. Still it's wrong.
But, behind it all, the man's eyes looked sincere. As if what he said was honesty. And now it makes Nissa's heart worry.
'Is Tian really being honest? What can I hold?' inner Nissa. 'But Steven and Kevin said he was a liar. Is it possible that what he said was just a lie? Making stories? To convince me?'
Long enough Nissa muttered with her heart and mind, until finally everything broke because Tian spoke again.
"Don't you believe me, Nis? About everything I said?" It was as if Tian knew and could read, until he asked like that.
"I'm confused, Ti. I don't know what you're saying is an honesty or a lie."
"If you don't believe it, that's okay." Tian reviewed the forced smile. It was obvious that his face was holding back sorrow. "I don't mean for you to believe either. And about working again ... It's okay, if you can't give me a chance. I'll take it with a chest." Slowly Tian's right arm extended towards the table, then landed on the back of the woman's hand and gently rubbed it. "I'd like to thank you, because you've allowed me to be a manager at your fancy restaurant for just a little while. And thanks to you too, I just realized .. If all this time, my wife doesn't really love me, Nis."
Tian quickly rubbed his face, almost having his tears melt. Slowly he stood up while continuing to maintain his attitude even though his body was already feeling weak. "I'm sorry then, I hope you can get the manager you want, Nis. May you also be happy and healthy. I'm sending a greeting to Juna, huh? He is a handsome, great, intelligent boy who loves you so much. I hope ...he will continue to look after you at any time. Keep making you smile. Because you're so much more beautiful when you're smiling than crying." Tian smiled, then slowly his feet stepped out from there. Nissa just kept quiet and looked at him, until the broad shoulders disappeared.
...Otw so unemployment yes Om 🥲 do not forget to prepare money for tomorrow, Om. Make pay dept collector 🤧...