The Journey of the Love of the Haram Child
Chapter 31 Goodbye

"Mas I really like you. I want to live happily with you forever. I'll try to make you like me. I'll be what you want. Please give me a chance."

Selyn continued to try to persuade Dzakir. Not even the food in front of them was touched.

"That's what I don't want. Don't be someone else so I can like you, Sellyn. Be yourself and be happy. You know that love can't be forced."

"But I don't want to lose you. Don't you really think about my five-year wait?"

"Selyn I'm sure there's someone waiting for you right now. And he can make you happy. How can I make you happy but my heart is not yours? Please forgive me for being selfish with this feeling. But I really can't pretend anymore."

Slyn remained silent. Now there is a lot of clear liquid that soaks his cheeks. Without any sound from his mouth. There was only drop after drop of water coming out of his eyes.

"Selyn sorry once again forgive me. Please don't cry. I can't see a woman crying." Dzakir started to panic.

Selyn took a deep breath and wiped her tears and drank the orange juice she ordered.

"Selin? Are you all right?"

"Where could I be okay. Is there not a single gap for me to enter your heart?"

"Sorry Sellyn."

"Is that how much you love Misela?"

"You know?"

"How could I not know."

"I've liked her since I got into the same boarding school as Misela."

"Well, if that's what you want, I'll try to accept your decision."

"Selyn I know you're a good girl. Thank you very much Sellyn. I'll talk to your parents later."

"No need to. Let me do the talking."

"No, I have to talk to them too."

"As for you."

"But can I ask you something?"

"You must want to ask about Misela, right? I really didn't do anything. I am performing my duties according to procedure. At first I had bad intentions for him. But he was my first patient. I don't want to tarnish the science I've been getting all this time. I'm telling you the truth, Mas. I love you so much, but I'm not that bad for my first patient. I am so proud and happy to be able to help Misela. Really Mas."

"You really didn't do anything to Misela?"

"I swear you still don't believe me. I explained no."

"I'm sorry su'udzon is with you. But he really stayed away from me not even wanting any more thesis guidance. I'm confused with him. I thought you were brainwashing. Sorry again."

"I don't know about that. You can ask him directly or have Doctor Dion double-check his condition. I'm going home first. May you be happy with your lady. Actually my heart hurts a lot but I can't be selfish. Forced love is not good either. I'm saying Mas."

"Selyn be careful assalamu'alaikum."

"Yes Mas wa'alaikumsalam."

Slyn left the cafe. While Dzakir did not want to waste the food in his message so decided to spend everything first and go home.

Later that night, Dzakir meets with Sellyn's parents to explain the relationship between them. Dzakir won't delay anything.

"Assalamu'alaikum Pak Bu how's it going?."

"Wa'alaikumsalam's chat. Thank God we are good.let's go in Nak Dzakir. Let's sit down."

Dzakir sits in a spacious living room with a very soft and elegant sofa. Of course, Selyn is classified as a rich man because Selyn's father is a Regent in Lampung and he has several businesses in the industrial sector.

"Sorry Mr. Bu my arrival at night interrupts his rest. But I have to finish tonight."

"It's okay Nak Dzakir we're happy the arrival of our future daughter-in-law. There's a need for what Nak seems so important."

Before the conversation began, Selyn sat down between her father and mother.

"Well, sorry, Sellyn is actually Mas Dzakir here to..." Selyn had not finished talking Dzakir suddenly interrupted.

"Selin..." Dzakir shook his head.

"Is this why your face looks so serious? Do you guys have a problem?" Ask Sellyn's Dad.

Slyn's father and mother stared at each other. They are certainly very surprised because this matchmaking has been talked about for a long time but only this time Dzakir spoke up.

"What's the matter between you guys? Don't you know each other well enough and are mature enough to get married soon? There must be another woman who teases you, Nak Dzakir?" Selyn's father looks angry because he feels that Dzakir has hurt his only daughter.

"Dad, don't be. Mas Dzakir is not wrong. Slyn is the third. Mas Dzakir already liked other girls before Sellyn got in between them." Selyn clasped her father's hand which was about to rise in blood.

"You mean to accept a unilateral decision from Dzakir Nak?" Ask Sellyn's Dad.

"I'm sorry Sir. I liked the other girl before Selyn came. And actually I have also tried to love Slyn but until now I have not been able to. I'm afraid if this matchmaking goes on I'll just make Slyn suffer." Dzakir lowered his head.

"What's my child lacking? She is beautiful and the best graduate in her college. He's also kind. He can do anything you want." Selyn's father still hasn't accepted Dzakir's decision.

"Selyn's not lacking anything sir..." Dzakir's words were cut off by Slyn.

"Dad, Mas Dzakir was right. That love can't be imposed. Because we are adults, we can choose the best for ourselves. Slyn is fine. Selyn also still wants to continue S2 and pursue a career. Slyn also wants to enjoy her youth before she wants to get married now. I have to accept Mas Dzakir's decision." Slyn hugged her father.

"I'm sorry, Son."

"Well, I'm not wrong."

After long enough to embrace Selyn's father also accepted Dzakir's decision.

"Alright Mr. Dzakir Nak also can not mean that Slyn has agreed. But what about your Abi?"

"Father must know Abi I've always been fully supportive of his son."

"You're right. You can't say anything more. I'm sorry if you said that to me that offended."

"No Sir. Not at all offensive. I understand the feelings of Father. Then I'll go home sir."

"Why hurry let's have dinner first."

"Ah yes sir thank you."

The night was full of laughter and happiness like a big family. After dinner with Dzakir, he said goodbye to the Selyn family. So did Selyn say goodbye to Dzakir because he decided to continue his S2 in Tanggerang.

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Days change week and month. Nothing has changed at all. Dzakir never got to see Misela. In fact, it has been five times since two months ago Dzakir tried to meet him at home the results were still zonk because Misela also did not want to come out of her room.

The thesis exam only counts the days. Dzakir always asks Misela through her best friend Erlina. Misela has completed her thesis well and is now ready to take the exam and graduation.

Misela's news is nothing to worry about as Dzakir thinks. But unlike her current self she really misses the figure of Misela never even focused on doing anything including teaching at the campus.

Dzakir was sitting daydreaming at his study desk. Dzakir is not just sitting down but today the students are busy asking for the signatures and seals of their respective tutors.

In his daydream Dzakir saw the figure of Misela standing in the doorway. With a charming smile slowly the woman walked over to her. Dzakir got up from his seat. As if he did not want to let go of his gaze, Dzakir continued to look at Misela who was very close to him. Without blinking a bit Dzakir still stood waiting for Misela to approach.

"I really don't want to wake up from this dream." That's what Dzakir said.

"Assalamu'alaikum Mr. Dzakir." Sapa Misela's.

"Wa'alaikumsalam Misela." Dzakir still thinks that he is dreaming of meeting Misela.

"Sir, please sign." Misela thrusts her thesis and puts it on the table.

Of course Dzakir Masih daydreamed at Misela without blinking even without answering Misela's words.

"Pak Dzakir."

Dzakir remained silent with a blank look.

"Sir."

Misela raised her voice and hit hard on Dzakir's arm.

Buugggg

"Aw... Astaghfirullah your blow hurts Misela?" Dzakir stroked his ailing arm and Dzakir regained his senses from his daydream.

Huh Misela? So I'm not dreaming?" Dzakir.

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