The Missing Wife
#The Regrets That Come Too Late

Madam!!!!

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POV

Allians..

From that moment on, the sound of bullets shooting out still loomed over my head. I shot him, I don't know where the demon whispered from, I really don't know.

I dropped my hand on my gun, and then I saw his collapsed body on the green grass of our yard.

At first I was just stunned, watching Visha's torso in front of me, perhaps ten meters away from where I stood, as well as where I fired the bullet which later became a great tragedy throughout the history of my life.

At that moment I didn't know what to do, other than watch some of our bodyguards take her body, and take her straight to the hospital, without them caring about me.

But at some point after the incident happened, someone was seen calling my phone, calling me up to several times.

"*What happened? why didn't Visha take the call from me*!?"

I didn't answer. My mouth suddenly mute, unable to say anything there, could only be speechless helplessly looking at everything that had happened.

A group of policemen were then seen coming to pick me up, whether they knew from whom, but seeing me standing next to my weapon, they could of course confirm I had done something against them.

In the handcuffs of my hands, they forced me to get into their car on the street in front of my house. All my neighbors walked out of the house, looking at me with fear, with anxiety, and also, with hate.

Maybe they are still stunned by the tragedy that befell my little family. A family that has long been known to be harmonious, happy and away from the scorn of people, romantic partners and even had been the best couple in Lu Zafier's company, but now, we destroy all of it, no, not us, but me..

Yep!

Me!!

The fat man came before me, and then asked me various kinds of things.

"You fired one bullet at your wife?" asked the man to me, to be honest, it does kind of make me sick.

I was facing a problem in my erratic mood, but he suddenly came to me without an excuse, then finished me directly with the question from him.

I raised my head, looked into his eyes, which were still staring at me, and still faithfully waiting for my answer.

"Quick say, Mr Allianz!" his insistence might be feeling off guard with me.

"Yes! I shot him! with the bullets left in my gun!"

I tried to answer very briefly, because I did not want to be interrogated, but why, he did not understand?

I tried to put up my body and my heart faced the questions from him that were so incessant to me. For about two and a half hours, I was finally able to get out of the interrogation room feeling lethargic, and did not know what to do.

Regretted?

At the time, I still did not regret what I did. I never thought I was guilty, but obviously it was all my fault.

And now, I was languishing in prison, with a coldness that sometimes pierced me, as if slamming an ice sword into the bones all over my body, making me freeze as I was sucked into the cold whirlpool of the storm.

"Sir, someone wants to come visit." said one of the police officers to me.

Unhappy, I got up from my seat on the cold floor, and I just stepped my foot to follow the man. He invited me to a very tight room.

I was shown to a woman I knew very well.

*Sister is my pride*..

Even her sweet voice when she was a child seemed to ring cheerfully disturbing my brain.

She's Naira, a woman who's grown up with everything she's ever been through in her entire life. The woman was sitting faithfully waiting for me at the waiting table, with a box in her hand.

I approached her with nervousness, as if I was meeting someone who had a big influence on my life.

"Nai," called out to me in a soft, soft voice, yet still able to be heard in both ears, she even turned her head very quickly towards me, and immediately hugged my body.

Hap!!

"You're willing to drop your life here, for a handful of money and a woman!" naira said in my ear, as if making me realize something that had been bothering my mind.

I can't wait to break the tears of sadness in my eyes. It just fell and flowed very fast, as if I could not stand on my eyelids.

And from then on, I turned into a man who lived with regret. I wept over my life in prison, twenty years in prison, until finally, I realized, this self, was nothing but trash that felt superior to diamonds.

I regret why when my life was free, I dropped my pride in front of the money, I lost my identity just because of a betrayal, which I now know, I know, Hannah was never as guilty as I thought.

He did not poison my mother, Naira said, It was Doni who poisoned our birth mother, and had to die, at the time she was paralyzed, and I was so guilty of accusing Hana of doing it.

And again, I came across a very bitter fact, which said that Hana was trapped by Visha and the late Lu Zamorgan to show her a dejected face when I came home that night, to make matters worse, I trusted Visha, the mouth of a crocodile that had been inciting me for several years.

"He died in the hospital, his life was not helped because the bullet went through his heart!"

The news that Naira brought to me, made me dumbfounded. Again, I ruined a woman's life. Although I hated Visha, who had to betray me with the lies she had committed, with the incitement she whispered in my ear, but wasn't it, I wasn't a murderer, who could take his life like that?

Vish, if you hadn't tempted me in the first place, and we weren't in a nightclub at the time, I probably wouldn't have fucked you, I probably wouldn't have taken your chastity, I wouldn't have, and then liberate the deep wounds in your heart, yet also simultaneously plant the seeds of love that flourish for me.

I regret that I washed you away in my pseudo-love, a love that I never shared for you in the first place, because I married you, not just as an escape, just as an outlet for this disappointment in the figure of Hana.

But I never expected you to fall deeply in love with me, and even you gave me a hug of warmth and happiness.

You made me move forward and move rapidly in the work, until finally you are the witness to the success I achieved.

And at that time, I should have been honest with you, when Hana came out of prison, this feeling was so happy, as if wanting to re-hug Hana's body, and fondling her with longing, but unfortunately, I don't know why money and you blinded my eyes.

I suddenly became blind to everything. To think that retaining you is so much more meaningful because you made me have money, have a son, and gave me incredible warmth.

I never even expected that the decision I made that day would be a major catastrophe in your life, and once again, I would again destroy the life of a woman.

"Where's Alvis now?"

"Calm down, she's with Hana, Hana has taken the initiative to take care of her and will occasionally visit you when her heart starts to calm down, she also needs calmness at this moment, she said, not even seven days after Visha died forever.."

And Naira's explanation of Alvis is getting stifling my chest. A very heavy iron bathtub, my chest I could hardly even use to breathe.

I heard Hana's name in Naira's sentence just now, and it was so stifling to my chest. Two women who were once friendly, yet warm, their friendship had to collapse because of my arrival among them.

I had managed to make the lives of the two women seem like the abyss of hell, and to make matters worse, I realized it now, when I was already languishing in prison, and was no longer able to meet Hana, she said, especially Visha who has been happy in her death.

I'm sorry, Hana, Visha, I'm sorry this man who can only tarnish your lives with whatever I want, what I want. One thing you need to know, I am so sorry to have played with the love you have planted for me, I am so sorry to have ensnared you in the life of destruction I once gave you.

If I could repeat the wasted time, I didn't want to hurt anyone, I didn't want to let that doctor take out Hana's myomy uterus at the time, and it will give you one chance to have a son, even though I know it would be very dangerous for your life if it did, because I know, your happiness is not the time you can live, with Zhoulin, with you, or a happy life with a long life, but your happiness is only, if you can be a perfect woman, even though you cannot enjoy a long life in this world.

And as for Visha, I might never let you be my wife if I knew it would end up like this, you would end up just dead in my hand, by my gun bullet, and by your own husband.

I might have rejected you very loudly even if you threatened to spread the video we did that night, but I will definitely keep you from doing so.

Merely, I was too stupid with the world, I was too lulled in the beauty of the world, too sick with the cruelty of the world, until my eyes were only covered with money, and also power.

I could do nothing but hold on to the money I had, and drop my precious pride.

Now my life is so wrapped up in regret, in so deep a wound, a wound I've made sure I can never heal even if I treat it for how long.

Because of this wound in my heart, I painted it for someone else, a person I could never hold in my heart again, making ghost-like shadows haunt my brain and my mind.

And on that day, that face showed her beauty before my eyes, showing how much love and affection she had shed on our only child, me and Visha.

"She's already starting Kindergarten, next month I'll enroll her in a painting class, she's got a special talent there.."

Hana's words made my tears break down the two surfaces of my cheeks. In my lap, Alvis, my son is happy, for he can give up his longing for me, his father.

He grew up healthy, clean and neat. He also looks very happy with his new mother, Hana..

I'm sure Hana must have taken very good care of Alvis, to the point that she just walked away from me smiling and waving her hands in happiness.

"Dad, Hana's mother is very kind, I love living with Hana's mother, she also often took me to go to Brother Zhoulin's house, we often play together, and now I want to go to school, and now I want to go to school, I'm going to school with Anya, she's also a good friend, just like mom, which is very good, but unfortunately mom died said Hana's mom, my mom died smiling, I was relieved to hear that, I'm glad you can leave without worrying about me, maybe you know Hana's mom will take care of me and raise me well, so she's not worried about me.."

Alvis even told me all the facts. But alas, he did not know who had taken away the happiness of everyone here, including about his mother.

I can't imagine what if one day Alvis knew I was the one who took his mother's life, I was the one who took her happiness, would he still accept me as his father?

I thought that by the time it arrived, I wouldn't dare bring out my murderous face in front of him. I would never dare to do that.

And now, I will spend twenty years in a very cold prison, with a shadow of a past full of mistakes and full of regrets. I promised myself that, twenty years ago, I would go through very well, not wanting to go through in vain, I want to get out of prison as a man who rose from his past mistakes and follies.

I don't want to be seen by the world as a murderer who could take his wife's life away, but I want to make them say more than that.

I want them to know the remorse in my heart that accompanied me for twenty years in prison, and made them forgive me for everything I've done in the past, proving to Hana and Visha, I'm not the cruel killer I used to be.

Want me to change everything in the future, but one fear that always runs through my brain, can I make Alvis stay by my side and want to think of me as his father!?

The kreb!

Closing the notebook..

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