The Missing Wife
#Either How This Feel

I don't know what I felt in my little heart that day..

The night that gave me a big surprise in my entire life, the moment I met my husband was happy with his new wife, Visha, who was none other than my best friend..

He taught me what friendship meant, he made me realize that in this world, there is no such thing as sincerity..

I never even expected him to betray me after he asked me not to trust Allianz, he told me that the wait all this time all I had done for Allianz would be in vain, it will not bear any fruit..

But apparently he alone caused me to lose everything, he made me lose my husband, and also my freedom, the freedom that was forced to be taken away for two and a half years in prison, he said, and then again, he took everything away from me, my husband whom I loved the most, and because of him, I finally realized, how stupid I was all along, who never understood what love meant.

A love that comes but never sincere to me, a love that is sincere, but can not succumb to his ego, from his pride, from the violence of his heart.

But that night, fate changed everything..

Either I should feel happy or sad when I hear the shocking news I have to hear with both ears..

"Raise again!"

"One. two…. Three…"

The woman was in the operating room. With a pacemaker that has been trying to save him ever since..

The bullet was successfully ejected from his heart, but heavy bleeding occurred, and his heart turned extremely weak..

I didn't cry, but I couldn't smile, all that had happened between us, everything he'd done to me, ever since he was my best friend, then after that it turned into a destroyer of my household, and passed into my enemy, yes, everything we went through seemed to spin like the wheels of a moving car on the highway..

"Raise again!!"

"Mrs, Mrs Visha left this for Madam.."

The servant gave Hana a letter, a letter written as planned, because the handwriting was very neat, but the content, really made Hana feel claustrophobic.

Hello, Hana?!

How are you today? I know you must still be very surprised by everything I did to you tonight, but maybe, this letter is able to represent the guilt in my heart to you..

You showed me how much Allianz made us look like the same woman, and you even thought she would hurt us the same way..

I don't trust you, but I love only one man, I'm not stupid, I'm not a stupid woman who's going to hang on with a bad man who betrayed me with his declaration of love for you..

But I just believe in myself, I'm sure that one day, he'll change for the better, and he'll change because I changed him..

I know how much wrong I've done to you, in the past, even last night, I'm so guilty of you, therefore, please forgive me, Hana…

I promised to warmly welcome my husband tonight when he comes home, because I know, for you our happiness is more important than the pain..

I've chosen to live life with him, take him as far away from you as possible, because I want him to love, I want him to notice, just like when he's with you, I want to feel it too..

if you feel hurt because of my words, then you're wrong, because now he's my husband, and he's your past, should be me, should be me, when he heard he still loved you, not me, his current wife..

But I have forgiven everything that has happened, though I am not sure if you too have forgiven someone like me, who is too great at making mistakes with you, but deep down, I forgive Allianz and you who may still love each other..

I can only hope that one day I can find you again, but if there is no chance for me to see you again, I hope that you will never hold a grudge for me in your heart..

Again, I'm sorry, Hana…

Hana closes a letter containing an outpouring of Visha's heart at length who intends to take Allianz away from this place, just to avoid her, which is still able to make Allianz fall in love.

Hana now became silent, she did not know how to express the feelings in her heart that were very complicated. Hating Visha? How could he hate that woman, whereas since the first, he was the one who loved Visha more than anyone, probably also including Allianz.

But not happy, he will never feel happy with the circumstances that befall his best friend at this time. Seeing the woman lying in a coma on the operating bed, with oxygen continuing to help her breathe, with a pacemaker trying to get her heartbeat back to normal.

But, fate seems to say something else..

That heartbeat was just a farewell from Visha to him.

Beeping..

And that long, eerie voice rang out loudly in both of my ears, even though I was outdoors, confined by the thick glass and walls..

At that moment, my tears just fell down on my cheeks, rushing without me noticing, until I realized how weak I really was, as if I was a hard mountain rock, but it turns out, I'm as weak as melting ice in the sun..

My body collapses in the waiting chair, next to Alvis, an innocent toddler who ends up being the victim of the selfishness of his parents..

I stared at Alvis for a moment, with the feeling of my mother, but I turned my gaze back on him, because I couldn't really look at the toddler for a long time..

I can't imagine how devastated Alvis would be when he found out that his mother had died from a bullet fired by his father..

And since that tragedy that night, I've come to realize what it means to be a forgiving person, what it means to be an indifferent person, no matter what they've done in our lives..

From the beginning I chose to give up, because for me, Visha was my own sister, while she was also much younger than me, lacking the affection of a man, until I finally relented to what she wanted, she said, until I had to let go my husband was snatched away by him..

Ssshhhhh

Ssssssssshhhhhh

The sound of heavy rain accompanied Hana's footsteps leaving Visha's funeral. After last night Visha died in the hospital, this morning, when the rain hit, the woman finally entered the burrow, too, leaving his only son with Allianz, Alvis.

Hana is seen opening her phone shortly after she enters her car. He opened the message that has not been read at all, there were dozens of messages from Visha fast before the incident occurred.

One by one the messages he read, and there was one message that made him stunned when he read them..

I have too many sins, I hope you will forgive me..

Again such a message was written by Visha for him. He could only smile when he finished reading it.

How can I not forgive you? While you and I are just victims of the same person, the difference is, you went away from him because he made you leave, and I ran away from him because you made me run away..

She smiles closing her phone screen, after Visha's number she blocks and she deletes from the row of contacts on her phone.

"Are we going straight home, ma'am?" Zarren asked Hana.

"I have a promise to keep, please take me to him.."

With the gap Zarren drove Hana's car, towards a house that had turned into a deserted, luxurious house that was no longer inhabited, as if the house had died, no one lived there, except a toddler with several servants and bodyguards.

The rain is still pouring down, soaking the earth without mercy, maybe the sky is not counting with the barren land on earth. Since the dawn of the sun, until now, the time has shown at ten in the morning, the rain still faithfully accompanied Hana on every trip.

"Are you ready?" Hana asked when she was in the house, seeing a small toddler child from her best friend and her ex-husband.

"Madam, I'm sorry, I can't take care of Alvis alone, my property isn't enough to feed him" she said.

"Yes, I know, but I really couldn't bring her to my house, even if it was Visha's last message for me." replied Hana at first she refused Visha's last request.

"Miss, if you can't take care of Young Master Alvis, then who will he live with? Honestly, Madam, I really love you, but my money will not be enough to support Alvis for the next few years" she said.

Hana was worried. He was not feeling vengeful with Alvis' parents, only, he was not sure he could keep Alvis at home, given his busy work, and again, he was not sure, can he still divide his time Anatar work and accompany Alvis at his home?

His mind was arguing chaotically, feeling perplexed by the next action he had to take. He could not have allowed this child to live hanging alone in the streets, because his mother's father had gone away from him.

However, he would also not be able to take care of Alvis in his house.

The arkh! Whynot? Wasn't his house too big for him to live alone? Hasn't it been since Zhoulin's departure that he felt lonely and needed a friend in his home?

After all, money is not the main problem for him, as long as everyone around him feels happy, he must be willing to do anything with his own money.

Moreover, he is not a demon like Visha and Allianz, who can hurt the hearts of others with cunning wits and betrayal that is very painful. She is a normal woman, who holds fast to religion, and also to the truth.

He could not bear to see Alvis become a child without the upbringing of parents who live abandoned on the highway, while he enjoys his old age only with money and loneliness.

After a long heated argument with her brain, Hana was finally able to take a long breath, then tried to make the right decision.

Just pull a smile on her sweet lips, she looked at the nurse who was holding Alvis in her arms, then she looked at the eyes of the sinless toddler before her.

"Well, Hana's mother is not the one who can see you abandoned, you cry, then Hana's mother will also definitely cry, you know, baby? Hana's mother can't have children, so your presence later, will be the mother's adopted child, you're happy to hear that?!"

…….

"You're crazy!!"

But Hana's decision was of course opposed by her closest friends, Naira and Ardian.

In contrast to Ardian who can only stand still and see the situation that is starting to heat up, Naira continues to grumble relentlessly on Hana, always blaming Hana for the very annoying decision.

"How could you adopt the son of the woman who betrayed you? Even seeing her traitor face alone makes me feel sick!! You are so crazy!!" Naira said very upset, and as usual, chatty, asked a lot.

"Nai, did you forget? He's also your niece, he's, right, your older sibling's son." Hana said making Naira stop being so stubborn, and slowly began to look at two eyes belonging to Alvis whose color was even exactly the same as the eyes of his biological brother.

Seeing those two tiny eyes, Naira became silent.

Yeah, she does look a lot like my sister, am I that good?

"Anyway, no matter how angry you are with Allianz and Visha, you're still the Aunt of this baby, aren't you ashamed, if one day, she asks who you are, because you keep hating him until he grows up?!"

Yes, he was right, I couldn't possibly hate this innocent child just because of his parents, but if Hana and I didn't look like fools, who even took care of Alvis, the daughter of a woman who ruined our lives?

Nay!

The child is not a disaster like his parents, the child, will not Hanaidik like his parents, who must suffer bad luck in return for their own behavior.

"Well, she does need a family, I'm her aunt, where I might have the heart to throw her down the highway.."

Yes, as I expected, Naira agreed, we are not stupid, only, we still have a heart, and still have a thought, for us, to throw away an innocent child, he said, it makes us worthy of the same sinner as Visha and Allianz, which is why, sometimes we look stupid, when we just feel like everyone is like us, living without harming others, and dying without leaving a burden on others, that alone is enough to paint a picture in my heart..