The Passion of the Actor
Season 2 Chapter 40

At eight o'clock in the evening, Sidney just got home from her place to calm down. Booking room which was initially only one hour, was not enough, until it had to be added two hours more.

His feelings are now relieved. There was no more burden on his heart. He came home feeling relieved, but only a little.

Actually he was reluctant to go back to that house, but he couldn't possibly not go home. Back he turned around, looking at the Royal house, his heart was eager to go there, sleeping in the arms of Raya like it used to be when he was sad when his mother left.

"Sir, Sid. You can't trouble the Royal family anymore. Problem lo ya problem lo, don't involve them anymore."

Sidney turned her body back and entered the house that no longer felt like home. "Non's home yet? auntie's got Non's dinner ready, huh?"

"Thank you, Bi. Where's papa?"

"Master is gone. He said he wanted to pick up the family, bring it here."

The deg!

The pain came back again. His father did not even feel sad because of their quarrel earlier. Sidney thought that when she came home, Sandi wanted to talk to her, and most importantly apologized. This, instead of going to pick up his wife and child, as if to show that there was or was not him, was nothing to the man.

"I'll go to the room first, Bi."

In his room, Sidney thought about everything that was happening. He's wasted. Now no one considers it family and important here.

"Lo should know himself, Sid. Now you're nobody in that man's heart" his great-grandson wiped away his tears.

Suddenly he remembered Scot. Grab his phone. There was a tone of connection across there that was soon answered by his best friend. "Sid, I'll call you back, I'll be with Gladys. Later, yeah."

Connection interrupted. Even his best friend has a life of his own. Though hesitant, he also contacted Paris. Since the morning the man had not contacted him. Just a message saying he's going to college and will have a midterm exam.

Repeatedly contacted, but Paris did not pick up her phone. Sidney repeats, but the results remain the same.

"Welcome to the real world, Sid," he said laughing, laughing at his miserable state, then turning off his phone and trying to sleep.

Until three in the morning, Sidney could not sleep. He wanted to tell stories, to be entertained, to be afraid, and everything he tried to contact but to no avail, realized he had no one.

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At eight in the morning Sidney woke up. He had thought well, and came to a decision.

Sidney starts cleaning up her things, puts them in a suitcase, and then gets ready to take a shower.

"Sidney, aunty misses out on you. Yesterday Scot said you promised to come here, but Auntie waited not to come. Aunt samperin to the house, said bi Inem, you're out."

"Yes, Tan. Something was done yesterday."

He looked at Sidney's face. The girl might smile at him, but she knew something was hidden by him.

"Follow Aunt" said Raya, pulling her hand up the stairs to Sidney's room.

"Tell Aunt everything."

"Tell me what Auntie? Nothing," he said. He rubbed his face with a smile.

"You are not from Aunt's womb, but already like Aunt's own son. Every time you have a problem, even if your lips don't tell, your beautiful eyes explain everything to Auntie."

Sidney flinched, just staring at Raya's face. "Since when have you kept Aunt's secret?"

"Truly Aunt, there's nothing. I'm just missing, I want to see Auntie, Om and Oma."

"Auntie I'm saying goodbye, yeah..." Sidney stood up, she could not afford to linger with Raya without having to say everything.

"All right, then. Aunty's going to the salon tomorrow, will you?"

Sidney just smiled. He wanted to stay, but it was impossible. The place is no longer here.

Sidney walked out of the room. He looked at that room again. The place spent childhood to adolescence with full of happiness.

"Thank you everyone" she opened the door. But Raya's touch on her right shoulder stood behind her, breaking Sidney's heart. He turned around and looked at Raya's face with teary eyes. He was unable, and embraced Raya.

Her crying broke until it was so cold. Raya is silent, just hugging Sidney's fragile body, stroking the girl's back without saying anything. Raya wants to let Sidney settle for spilling her grief.

10 Minutes passed, Sidney's cries subsided. "I love Auntie, but I can't be here anymore. Auntie, let me go. I will always remember Auntie. To me, Auntie is a mother who loves me very much. Thank you for all the affection, Auntie," he said still hugging Raya, not even wanting to relax his embrace.

"What's the matter, honey?" Raya's already unraveling their embrace. "Did Paris hurt you?"

Sidney just shook her head. "Aunty love me?"

"Of course, stupid girl!"

"Then let me go without asking why. I'm saying goodbye."

"But where are you going? Aunty should know where you're going, if it's safe, what's comfortable for you..."

"I'm definitely fine Auntie. Let me calm down for now. Don't tell anyone about my departure. Don't ask Papa or anyone. I beg you if Paris asks, just tell me Aunt doesn't know where I'm going."

"Auntie doesn't want to."

"Please help me, your son, Mama..."

Raya cried, hugging back the daughter she loved the most. "Go away. You know where to go, when you want to go home. Go with my blessing. Pursue dreams. You are my daughter forever."

After Sidney meets Oma, unsuspecting, Oma releases Sidney. Go where his feet step.

Raya begs to drive her, but the girl begs to reject her as well. "I won't be able to leave if Auntie leaves. I won't be able to."

Finally, the girl's departure can only be accompanied by Raya through prayer and looking from behind the window when the taxi picked her up.

After that Raya cried like she lost half her life. He closed his eyes remembering Lia. Feeling guilty for letting their daughter go, carrying a burden she did not want to share.

"Wherever you go, there's a mother's prayer with you, son," she said, wiping away her tears.

Where Sidney took her step, she didn't know. He was just trying to find himself. The first place he went to was his mother's grave.

"Hi Ma, I came after all this time I don't want to come here. To this day, I have not admitted your departure. Seeing you here, it hurts me a lot, but over time, I realized, we're all going to get there.

"Ma, I'm saying yes, I'm leaving. Take care and look at me always from up there..."

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Ah, regret writing this part, I nangis😭😭😭 Sidney hardcore yes... her author is crazy, make the storyline until this🤧🤧