THE RECYCLE LOVE
Chapter 16

"Eca, we need to talk" said Mama firmly as she stepped in the living room and sat on the sofa.

"mentar ma. I hungry. Let me eat first."

"just change your clothes and eat. Finish eating right here. Mama wait."

"yes."

Eca walked into the room and guessed what she wanted to talk about. Enter in the room Eca changed clothes and immediately went out to the kitchen. He was excited to see his favorite food. There are fried starch fish, sambal and lalapan. Perfect! Eca is getting excited to eat. It is true that people say that eating when hungry all food will be delicious. But not only the hunger factor but the favorite food of Eca is presented now. Seeing the red chili blush in the rough ulek is very fitting mixed with fried starch and rice. Do not forget to close it with a roof. Good food can elevate the mood of Eca. He loved lunch this time so much that he closed his eyes several times enjoying the mixed sensation of food in his mouth. Eat until the plate is clean. His hunger paid off amazingly.

Eca finished her lunch. Then move on to the living room. Mom is waiting for Eca. But my mother's face was not as relaxed as usual. The face looked calm but tense at the same time. Eca could see a different look in my eyes this time. It seems like there is something serious to talk about.

"sit."

Eca took a seat in front of her mother. Suddenly, Eca felt tense. His heart beats faster. Without knowing the topic that mom would discuss, Eca felt that bad things would come. But Eca wasn't sure either. But the look in her eyes implies it all. He was indeed silent at this moment but it was like restraint. Moreover, the mesh is long enough from the mother who asked Eca to sit. How can Eca not be nervous like this?

"how did you learn?"

"smart ma."

"fluent truth?" my mother pressed on every word.

"yes-yes."

"you sure studied hard all this time. Ah no, as long as you're in this 12th grade?"

"i-iya ma."

"do you have trouble learning?"

"so far nothing has been too difficult."

"good. So can you be clear about this?" mama said while throwing test papers at school and quiz sheets in tutoring on the table.

Eca jerks. He turned his head to see its value. Though he had not seen the value but why can the paper is on the mother. The paper has not even been shared with him. Eca was scared when she saw her average value of 50.

"i-this."

"mama was on your teacher's phone yesterday and your teacher was there too. They gave the paper to my mom. They're compact to say that you've got no progress."

Eca lowered her head. He folded his hands over his thighs. Eca felt guilty and scared. Mama looks angry. He did not scream as usual. But the calm mama this time was more frightening for Eca.

"graduation exams and college entrance exams are soon. What are you doing Eca?"

"ma, I've learned, but I'm weak in learning."

"that's why mom gave you tutoring."

"ta-but I still can't ma."

"good. Mom, change the question now. What do you like?"

Eca. He doesn't know what he likes. The woman did not do much to know her interest in a field. He was used to doing activities during this time. Go to school, learn as necessary, date, go to tutoring and so on. But she doesn't really do anything except dating.

Eca nodded again. Mama made a loud snort. Mom threw her eyes to the side. Trying to control emotions. Mama felt useless telling Eca les. It was futile to tell Eca to be a successful child.

"did you really study all this time Ca?" mama looked at Eca with a hint of hope in her gaze.

But Eca could not answer. He's getting his head down. The corner of his eyes began to water. Eca kept twisting her finger. She was scared because she was disappointing my mom. The fact that he never really learned to make Eca lower.

"Reply, mama!" firmly mama this time, furious with Eca who chose silence.

"do not know ma."

"have you never looked for the university or you haven't been able to fit it?"

"never look for ma." Eca decided to be honest.

This time my mother did not answer. For a long time he did not answer. Until Eca felt her mother was gone. As Eca raised her head she saw mama with her face turned towards the side with tears in her eyes. Immediately, Eca's heart was like a mess. It hurts more than he caught Nehan and Tia cheating on him. Eca's whole life never made her mother cry only often made her angry. Just this time Mama was crying and it was because of Eca.

Eca was stunned and stared in disbelief. Her often angry mother looked fragile at this time. Even her tears kept flowing. Instantly Eca's body creeps. All parts of his body were stiff. He feels very guilty. Eca felt very guilty making her mother cry.

"ma." Eca's voice shook.

"ma." one tear Eca fell.

"mama." Eca ran to mom.

Eca wasn't sitting next to mom but she was sitting on the floor hugging mom's leg. Put his face on your thighs and cry loudly there. There is nothing more painful than making you cry, the great woman who gave birth to and raised Eca lovingly.

Eca's cry grew louder when her mother did not take off Eca's hand, rubbing Eca's head very gently. The girl tightened her arms at my mom's feet. They both cried loudly. For whatever sake Eca feels to be an ungodly child now.

"Eca. Mama please, please teach seriously. You have to succeed, baby. You and Erna have to succeed. You're both mama's jewels. Mama can't afford to see you suffer in the future for neglecting learning."

"yes ma." Eca nodded solemnly.

"Eca. If you are smart, successful, independent, you can stand on your own feet. Even bad things cannot bring you down."

"yes ma." Eca nodded.

"he's in the room. You're resting."

Eca went into the room. She's limp. I don't know why Eca's emotions seem to be stirred. And the guilt still lingers on him at this moment. He wandered and thought about what he had done. What stupid thing he's more important to. Eca realized she was very stupid for ignoring the more important things and bad for her.

Drrtt . . .

Message from Nehan:

Scene, vc yuk.

For the first time, Eca shut down her phone and did not reply to a message from Nehan. He ignored the message from his girlfriend. Choose to raise the blanket cover the body to rest. Following mom's words.

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