THE RECYCLE LOVE
Chapter 32

Eca looked down at the window. Holds the chin looking outwards. The clouds are dark, the sound of wind rubbing against the leaves and the sound of crickets are just right. The night that captured Eca's attention and reopened the pages of events that had occurred in her life lately.

He sighed. This time staring slickly at the mobile phone lying helplessly on the desk studying. He recalled reading Gian's message. The man explained that the after-school incident was simply a misunderstanding. He was forced to take a parcel from Rani because he did not want the girl to be embarrassed in front of the many students who cheered them enthusiastically. Eca needs to thumbs up for Gian's gentle attitude. But at the same time Eca also thinks that Gian is a bad man. Rather than explain his feelings, he prefers to straighten out the situation. If Gian explained it, then what? What does Gian mean by doing that?

Gian also added a message if he invites Eca to be his partner in the graduation party that will be held on Sunday night. Eca quickly rejected it. He did not want to ruin the expectations of many students who were already looking forward to Gian and Rani's performance at the graduation party. Eca does not want to be branded as a destroyer of people's relationships. However, other students believe they are dating. In the class group alone is full of notification of Rani's furore when shooting Gian.

"be aware that Eca you're no one" Eca said, hitting her on the head.

Haus. . . .tok . . .

The door is knocked from the outside. She got out of bed and opened the door. He was surprised to see the papa who came while carrying a sweet martabak. From the plastic can Eca guess it is her favorite martabak.

"can you talk to me inside? While eating." said papa while lifting plastic martabak.

Eca does not speak. The signal of his head that nodded became permission that the papa may enter. They sat in front of a wide open window. The night wind hit both. With a swift papa took a blanket and enveloped Eca. He also opened the martabak and gave a piece to Eca.

"papa feels guilty seeing you lose a lot of weight. Eat, this is your favorite martabak?"

Eca nodded again. He ate the martabak in silence. Eca chews food very slowly. I don't know why the throat is full. If he eats quickly, it is certain that he will choke.

"papa is not a good husband." lirih papa lowered his head.

Eca swallowed her food. He then drank the water that had been stored in a drinking bottle. After it was felt to have swallowed food perfectly then Eca spoke.

"why did papa do it?" eca asked very quietly while squeezing her hands.

"when a person is at the top he will continue to starve even though he already has food. If he saw any other food more tempting he would want to eat it. Either because of the will or the instinct to satisfy themselves as a payment for the fatigue that runs to the top. You know Eca, that's how you feel."

"didn't you love your mom anymore?"

Papa shook his head slowly. He breathed and exhaled slowly. Close your eyes and enjoy the wind that sweeps the strands of hair that there are some white colors. It opened both eyes and gazed far towards the crescent moon that was shining quite brightly.

"papa loves mommy. She is a special woman in my life. She became even more resolute after giving birth to you. Most of the priority lies with you. Papa who is less grateful feels mama began to ignore papa. Then came another woman who gave little attention and did every word. Therefore all became uncontrollable to this day."

Eca looked at the papa who was gazing inwards towards the crescent moon with tears flowing down her left cheek. He wiped away the trail of tears. Frowning softly as he threw a glance up at the sky.

"sorry if our presence makes your attention divided." said Eca as she squeezed her finger channeling the pain that spread around her chest.

"no. You guys aren't wrong. Papa's the guilty one here. Instead papa is very grateful because mama pays more attention to you. That's why you guys grew up amazing as you are now."

The two of them looked at the sky that was filled with stars and crescent moons. So pretty. They cannot fill their feelings with happiness. They stared at the beauty with tears flowing. With a mind that has flown far away somewhere. None of them praised the beauty tonight. Drifting in the sadness that hugs the body. Imprisoning the mind to various feelings of disappointment and anger. Their feelings melted and blurred the view on the beauty presented in front of the eyes.

Papa gets up from sitting. Smacking Eca's forehead slowly. Not forgetting to wipe away the tears of the youngest princess. Before actually leaving, Eca spoke.

"why and mom are going to be okay?" tanya Eca looked at papa expectantly.

"papa. You spent the hammer. Please eat a lot." said papa with a big smile.

"papa promised first, that mom and dad would be fine."

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Eca ate her lunch very greedily. Unmitigated, Eca ate rice, fried chicken, vegetables, fruit juice and one large donut. Some of his friends in class stared in amazement at the large portion of Eca's meal.

"no more Ca diet?" ask one of his friends.

"i'm too skinny like this. I'm gonna put a little weight on."

"be careful Ca kebablasan. Want to sift through your body yesterday again?"

"not so much as that."

"There's Gian nyariin you!" his friend from outside the class.

Gian is in class. Just as the man was sitting in the front seat of the table, Eca was done with all her food. He looked at Gian briefly and then returned struggling to clear the supply place.

"why don't you want to be my partner at graduation?"

"no. Thank you Gian." said Eca, crossing her arms.

"why??"

"your girl will be angry."

"he's not my real girlfriend Ca. I told you, I just feel sorry for him yesterday." Gian obviously lowered his voice.

"just her status is still your girl. You're with him."

"do you want me to be with him?"

"yes, it should be, right?"

Gian exhaled a rough breath. He shuffled his hair while clucking. Gian looked at Eca tiredly. Hope Eca wants to melt this time.

"Ca I beg you."

But the Eca defense is very strong. He did not even pity the slightest look on Gian's clear face. He just stared at the man. Looking straight at the two eyes of the man in front of him.

"the fine! Who's your partner over there?"

"hm . . . Secret."

"who the hell is Ca? I know the guy? Or your ex?"

"you saw saturday."

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