THE RECYCLE LOVE
Chapter 42 | Life goes on

For days Eca stared blankly at the papa's navel. Every time he went home from college he would go to the final resting place of his first love. Still with blank stares and tears drying up on the cheeks. No intention to remove. Let the world be a witness to how bad he is because he lives in papa.

It was always that Eca failed to hold back the tears every time she saw the mound of earth in front of her. It was as if he had a lot of tears. Tears will flow down like without any hindrance. For a few minutes, Eca sat with red and bloated eyes. No one can stop him.

Every time he went to this place, his mind would be thrown from his childhood to his teenage years. How they spend the weekend together with visiting some tourist attractions when the weather is sunny. But when the weather did not support them decided to play camps in the backyard of the house, complete with setting up a tent.

There they prepared a bed, food and a favorite doll of Eca and Erna. Papa and mama were at the end while the two princesses were in the middle. Feel the cold that enters the tent and wrapped in warm embrace of both parents. They will also laugh together when Eca complains of tightness because of the tight embrace of mom and dad. It has been a favorite part of Eca's life to date.

The sense of happiness he felt would quickly change when the memories of papa lying in pain just appeared. Eca remembers her days while accompanying papa care. Seeing the papa who complained of pain because he was unable to fight the disease. Watching papa smiling weakly and saying romantic words. Until the last day he smiled happily to see the three women he loved. Everyone feels chest tight.

If time can be repeated, Eca wants to go back to childhood. Feel the complete affection of both parents. Feel the full time and attention given to them children. If Eca could cancel papa's promotion as director so that papa has more time for family. If only Eca could resist papa from the temptation of dissatisfaction. But everything hurts more like a hammer hitting the chest strongly when things are not going the way we want them to. In the end, we are left with a lot of regrets.

Eca once again looked at the navel and sprinkled flowers on it. He calmed down for a moment before praying. After looking up, Eca decided to turn around. When he turned around he saw someone standing beside a tree while wearing clothes and sunglasses. The figure also looked towards him.

"sorrow" said the woman slowly.

Eca does not rub. He passed the woman and walked out of the cemetery. When he was about to start the bike, someone called him from behind.

"wait Eca!"

"be-begini, did your father leave me a will for you?" continued.

"you just showed up and asked for a will?!" ask Eca in annoyance.

"i must have a part of the will because your father must be responsible to this child!"

"how cheap are you, Tia! Even though I know my papa is guilty but how can you just hand yourself over to him?! Aren't you thinking about the risks?!!"

"you were born to a father who loved you so much! And I never felt it! I'm always beaten every time my dad loses a gamble or I have to turn myself in when my dad gets drunk! When I met your father who has a fatherly soul, I immediately welcomed with joy because for the first time I could feel the figure of the father. Is it wrong that I can feel it a little? But I was wrong. In the end your papa just wants my body." explained Tia with a broken cry.

Eca looked at Tia in surprise. He had never listened to the story from Tia before. He had not expected to hear Tia's version of the story today. He looked back at the crying Tia while bowing his head. His gaze turned on Tia's protruding belly. Only then did Eca's view soften a little, no matter how she was facing a woman who was two-bodied.

"you are still wrong. You're wrong Tia."

"you know I'm my papa's son?! Since when?"

"i've seen you guys on vacation in one family. You guys are very harmonious. I looked at you guys from far away alone and I was always envious to see it. I want to snatch the men who love you with that I feel satisfied. The emptiness of my love seemed to pay off when I saw your miserable face as I did."

"you're crazy! Are you satisfied to have done all that?!!!" eca shouted with wrath.

Eca's face flushed with anger. Both of his hands were firmly clenched on the sides of his body. His hunting breath was in harmony with his rapidly pumping heart. If Eca was a little braver it was certain that she would slap Tia and ruffle her hair. But Eca still tried to hold back when she saw Tia's stomach.

"no. It turns out I'm not happy. I got karma. My son and I are HIV positive. You must be happy?!" cetus Tia looked at Eca intently.

"it's the result of your own actions. It has nothing to do with me!"

Tia breathed deeply. He rattled and pulled his hair strong. He also shouted loudly. As if nothing could hold her back, the woman grew stronger and more strongly yelled venting all her feelings of annoyance and anger.

"can you shut up?! This is still the graveyard area, don't let the bodies here come out all because of your screams!"

"huhahah!! I can't stand all this Eca. I am not strong in this disease. I want to end it all."

"consider your son. Remember, he's innocent. Don't make him a victim of your selfishness."

"you say it easily! But I feel it! I almost die every time my illness comes back plus my body gets weaker because of this kid!" tia then hit her stomach.

"hey! What are you doing?!" eca shouted holding Tia's hand quickly.

Eca looked at Tia. Tia looked down and cried loudly then fell silent and stared at her stomach sharply. All of this was not separated from Eca's vision. He could feel Tia's emotions were extremely unstable. The woman raised her voice then lowered her voice and then raised her again, continuing like that. Eca guessed that something was wrong with Tia.

"this is the bottom lock of the wardrobe in papa's room. It's a will for you. Use it for you to survive and try to get a psychiatrist, I think you need it most. I hope after this we don't see each other again. Good bye."

Eca leaves Tia. He turned on the bike and took it away. Along the way Eca looked at the streets quite crowded. Sometimes he looked at the orange-colored clouds. He heard the sound of the vehicle from behind the helmet. Although today seemed as ordinary as before but Eca's feelings seemed different after talking to Tia earlier.

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