The Strange Girl Nathan's
Fear of Expulsion

After returning from the beach, Sukma went straight to his room. In fact, the girl did not greet Fifi and Hisham who were watching TV in the living room. Either because he did not intend to say hello, or the girl did not see him because he was too focused on his own mind. Nathan who followed behind him was only able to exhale heavily. Sukma's sorrow was so deep, and Nathan understood that.

Nathan sat on the couch with his parents. "What's your sister?" ask Fifi.

Nathan had asked his parents for permission to take Sukma out, without saying who he was meeting. Nathan knows Fifi's concerns will prevent him from meeting Sukma with Mr. Black's. Nathan did not want to be said to break the promise by the man who had helped them.

"Nathan?" Fifi called out the name of the child, as Nathan was silent and lowered his head. Nathan was confused what to say to them.

"Nathan then? You're mad at your sister?" Hisham now raised his voice, when he saw Nathan as heavy as answering their question.

Nathan raised his head, staring at Fifi and Hisham. The man shook his head slowly. "Nathan can't do stupidity anymore, Pa!" nathan replied firmly.

"Then?"

Nathan exhaled a rough breath once more. Inevitably, he had to explain to his parents. "Nathan brought Sukma to see Mr. Black," Nathan said quietly.

"Nathan! What are you doing, son? How anyway? That guy has Sukma?" Fifi looked at Nathan annoyed.

"Ma, it's not like that. He has no intention of suffering. They have known each other for a long time."

"Then? What makes Sukma moody?" ask Hisham. He stroked the wife's shoulder to calm down.

"Mrs. Black is honest about everything that happened to Sukma. Including about his mother. Sukma was angry and difficult to accept, again his life was destroyed because of the mother. The trauma increases, because of the same person."

Fifi felt weak. Too worried about his son. "Sukma must have been really disappointed" murmured Fifi.

Nathan nodded. "It seems, Sukma also had a special relationship with Mr. Hans' son. From Sukma's confession that he loved the boy. Which means, his half-brother."

Fifi and Hisham stared at Nathan. He looked at the man who could not hide his sour face.

"Nathan, you..." Fifi did not continue as Hisham clasped his hand. Fifi turned her head, and saw Hisham shaking his head as a code so as not to continue speaking.

"Nathan go upstairs first, Ma. Oh yes, Mama please entertain Sukma. Only Mama can always knock him out" Nathan said before moving out of his place.

After Nathan's death, Fifi looked at Hisham. "Mr, Nathan..."

Hisham. "Don't think weird. She's just not sincere, her sister's in love. Nathan must be afraid of being outmatched. However, he was close to Sukma not too long ago. Keep knowing his sister loves someone, Nathan must feel threatened." Hisham tried to calm his wife.

Fifi paused for a moment, then nodded her head. It may be true, Hisham said. After all, as far as Fifi knew, Nathan would have liked his college friends for a long time. Maybe as soon as it changes hearts.

"Yes already, Mama befriendin Sukma, there. Entertain him. Papa hope, Sukma is strong in facing this ordeal. He's survived this far, it's okay to try to hold on once more. Papa is sure, soon the light of happiness will come to Sukma."

While in the room, Sukma again shed his tears. It feels so hard to accept reality. Is her mother still alive? The torment he had been getting while sitting in High School, all because of that woman? And...Will the child connect with his mother? What kind of reality is this? Why does the world love to make sad jokes? Shouldn't a joke create laughter? Why does Sukma cry every day?

The sound of the room door that does not also make Sukma moved. The girl looked ahead with a blank look. The new WiFi came, chose to approach. Go up to Sukma's bed, and give a hug to the girl leaning on the head of the bed.

Feeling the embrace, the cries of Sukma again broke. This time, the girl cried loudly. Wailing in the arms of the mother.

"What's my fault, Ma? Why is that woman so evil? When I was a kid, he almost killed me. And after I grew up, I almost got killed because of him, too. Why did she give birth to me when she was only given this kind of torture?"

Fifi did not answer. Only his embrace hardened on Sukma's body. The woman's tears fell down, feeling the sorrow of Sukma deeply. Why was this girl tested with such a heavy thing?

"Did I give up, Ma, let the woman be satisfied?"

Fifi immediately panicked. He tried to turn Sukma's body to face him. "Darling, astagfirullah! Istighfar, Son!"

Fifi patted softly on Sukma's cheek. "Listen to Mama, Son. There's Mama, there's Papa, there's Bang Nathan and his friends. We all love you. If you leave, we will feel pain. Do you want to hurt a lot of people?"

Sukma stared at Fifi with tears flowing past both sides of his cheeks. The girl did not answer, only a silent whisper was heard.

"Hold it again. You are a strong child, and all of us who love you, will be your focus. Now you are no longer alone. We repay the wicked to you by showing your resurrection from pain. We make them regret their bad deeds to you."

"But it's hard, Ma. I was heartbroken when I found out my real mother was alive, and it turned out to be involved in the pain I felt the second time. I hate that thing. He's been away from me and Dad for a long time, why is he still getting hurt? Is he not satisfied that he failed to take my life?"

Fifi exhaled a rough breath. Sukma must have been a little clueless, why his mother could be involved. It was not the intention of the woman to hurt her child. Only her husband was afraid. Fifi understood, Dewi would be very sad when she knew Sukma hated her. In fact, he also did not know if Sukma had been discovered by Hans, and instead made further away from him.

"Listen to Mama, baby. My mother did not defend your mother. It all started with him. But he's not the one who hurt you. Mr. Hans committed the crime without your mother knowing. The man is afraid that you will meet your mother, and you will choose together as before. Because all this time, your mother's always trying to find your whereabouts."

Sukma. Then grimace slowly. "Because he's looking for me, then trouble starts coming. Still it's because of him, Ma."

Fifi breathed heavily. He understood Sukma saying so because again under the influence of anger. "Ma, I beg you. Don't take me to him. I beg Mama, don't throw me out. If Mama wants to dump me, throw me back to the old orphanage."

Fifi was surprised by Sukma's words. The girl looked at him with a pleading face. Fifi immediately cried. "Son, who wants to throw you out? Mama wouldn't do that, honey!"

"I don't want Mama to see me with her. I don't want to, Ma."

Fifi hugged the girl who was now back roaring. "The promise won't bring you to meet him. Relax, yes, honey! Your mother will always be there for you. You're Mama's son, and until whenever so."

"I'm sorry that since I arrived, your family's been so hard, Ma." Sukma felt guilty. Because of his presence, Hisham's family even became dragged into his problems. Therefore, Sukma was afraid of being thrown out. If they want to dispose of Sukma, Sukma only hopes that they return the Sukma Panti first. Not given to the Goddess.

"Don't think about it, baby! You're still Mama's son. You never troubled us. You are the blessing that comes into our lives." Fifi kissed the girl's head many times. While Hisham who had just peeked in the gap of the door that was slightly open, wiped his tears that dripped. The test of Sukma's life is too heavy, thankfully the girl is a strong girl. Staying afloat despite the salty tears always say hello.