The Struggle of Mr. Love. Arrogants
CHAPTER 24 #Full heartless love #6
#Alesia POV
I didn't even know if there were eyes looking at me as I ran through room after room in the house crying towards my room. Hopefully the scale is in the room. Otherwise what should I tell her if she sees her mommy running while crying. She must have asked why her mommy was crying. And I wouldn't be able to explain all that to a kid as small as him. His mind was too innocent to understand all of these intricacies.
I immediately opened the door to the room that I had been living in all day with Kenzo. As soon as I entered the room, my heart was filled again. The romantic atmosphere that was often present when I and he were alone suddenly appeared like a hologram in front of me. Showing myself and her joking and teasing each other.
But I realized it was just my hallucination. Because the fact is I myself am not sure if there will be a bright day for our complicated relationship like this tangled thread.
Our original plan to come to the city of J to melt my father's heart led to the opening of a pandora box that Kenzo had long hidden from me and made our relationship cold for a while. Heem. Maybe it was my feeling that got cold instantly.
Eyes feel very painful. Maybe being so surprised by all of that made my eyes cry even more this time.
I put down my body that felt tired because it received a shock beyond the capacity of the brain on the bed. I took a deep breath trying to calm my heart and mind that was too shocked to accept this reality.
Well, once my mind is a little clear, I can see that Kenzo still wants to maintain this relationship.
He apologized to me even though I don't think it was entirely his fault.
I still remember when Dyana told me that Kenzo had been trapped by someone so he did a one night stand with a woman who without me knowing it was me. “Look how happy the destiny is to play us.” I muttered with a smile remembering my destiny and Kenzo.
Okay back to my thinking that's starting to get a little sane. It should be from this side that I know Kenzo is innocent. He did that to me not because of his ferocity as a man but because he was trapped. Same thing with me at the time. OK from this point of view, we are both victims. I understand this very well. But why would a man as smart as him be able to act foolishly by hiding that truth from me. When you think about this, sadness returns to this fragile heart. Until the logic that had come for a while is now back expelled out.
“If I had contributed to my disappointment in him, I would have gone away from him by now.” I muttered while covering my face with a pillow to cover the tears that re-inundated each corner of this eye.
It wasn't because he was the jerk of the night that I regretted, nor was it because he abandoned us that I was angry with. But why does he not believe that I love him so much that any of his past mistakes will be lost in my eyes. Is there still less love that I showed her all this time? So he hesitated to tell me the truth?
I hope he knows enough not to sleep in this room tonight. I don't want to cry until morning just because of her. For a moment my selfishness appeared. Think of this as a self-defense fortress that suddenly formed because my disappointment was too deep for him.
I lifted the pillow that covered my face. In my heart I don't think it's good to sleep with eyes like this. At least my mind is still running a little logically. I got up and went to wash my face, which was not what it looked like now. I washed my face with a lot of water in the hope that all the water would cool my heart and take away all my grief and disappointment to Kenzo.
A little foolish indeed thinks like that for a woman with a series of titles like me. But how else. This time it was my heart and feelings that took over me a lot. The logic? Heemm, what is logic? I completely forgot that one word. At least tonight let me be a fragile woman even for a moment. Yes, that's what my heart and my feelings are currently in the working brain.
Ok, it turns out that after cleaning this face with cold water at least I feel a little coolness even though it only feels on my face.
“why is his face always in my mind?” I murmured slowly while taking the blindfold for the sleep I had. I remember I kept my blindfold in the drawer.
I take the blindfold and lay my body back on the bed. Then I put up the blindfold. May I sleep well using this and not have to look at the stupid holograms that come from my mind start to be unable to arrange this.
When I wanted to drown myself in dreamland, I suddenly heard the sound of the door opening and it turned out
#Kenzo POV
I admit it's all my fault for not telling her this. But honestly as a man I don't know how to tell him about the fact nine years ago it was on him. Should I say, “Alesya, I was the man who spent the night with you in the hotel that time.”
or maybe I said, "excuse me for not being able to recognize even though we've spent the night together!" It’s non sense. Millions of times I think I still can't bluntly say it to a woman I haven't recognized outside in her even though love has begun to grow between us. I still need time to feel what you really are. What if after I revealed it, he left me right then and there. Not only did I lose Alesya, I could lose the Scale as well. My beloved son.
I exhale my breath once more. I didn't think that the step I felt was the most appropriate step for me to do was to bring me into a problem that I didn't know what the solution would be.
It feels better to solve a problem related to a company or try to enter a country's data base than to deal with women and all the kinds of feelings they have when logic is kicked out.
I closed my face for the umpteenth time tonight. All my feelings are mixed. In my confusion, I suddenly remembered my wonderful father-in-law.
“Mr Aldion Rodio is really something.” I murmured slowly while smiling grimacing.
Where could the old man know about this fact. I'm sure my son wouldn't be that careless to tell his grandfather. But how he knew about this secret remained a huge question mark in my brain that had suddenly become this dwarf.
I exhaled once again my breath lingered while thinking. “Already, at this time it is not important anymore. The way to persuade Alesya was the most important thing I had to think about. Don't let the ship I was riding with Alesya sink even when it hasn't sailed far from the dock. I won't let this happen.”
“Alesya! Yes, Alesya!! should I leave him alone tonight?” I thought in my heart. In the silence of the garden that night I looked back with a very frustrated face.
“No!! Women who are sad like to think that is not. What if he thinks of getting divorced from me.” I immediately patted my cheeks, cheering myself up and daring to sleep in the room with Alesya and hug Alesya tonight.
“Even if necessary I will tie him and myself in one rope bond so that he cannot escape from me.” I thought with a smile considering how I could think of that ridiculous idea in the current state. My sanity must be starting to be questioned.
It's just what the hell will keep going with sanity if it's faced with love? Even Kenzo Dayson could do nothing in front of my love for Alesya.
All right, now my resolve is round. Even if he kicked me out I'll keep hugging him tonight.
With the determination that I have, I step foot through the room after room that turned out to be very quiet tonight as if it had really been set for my love drama and Alesya tonight.
Step by step I got closer to the room. The room that arrived before dinner last night is still a silent witness to the beauty of my love with Alesya.
I looked at the door of the room with the courage of the ups and downs. Who says men are not afraid of women. The proof is that my guts are lost at times like this.
I repeatedly pushed back my intention to open the door to the room. I'm afraid I'd be disappointed if the door was locked from the inside.
“I beg Alesya, let me in.”I murmured in my heart while daring to open the door and turned out
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