
After finishing talking to the doctor, Ashifa and Zidan walked back to Eden's room with facial expressions that were hard to explain.
The couple seemed to have just heard a bad news that could have made Eden's condition worse from now on.
"Calm Asyifa. I hope you don't burden yourself with thoughts that aren't necessarily going to happen to Eden in the future"
"I'm confused Zidan. I don't know why my heart felt so uneasy after hearing the doctor's words. I even became very afraid if I had to leave Eden, and at that time he even relapsed" said Ashifa gusar.
"Do I need to hire someone to be the guardian of Eden? That way, he will never be alone because he is always accompanied by his guards"
"Either Zidan, I can't think at all for now. Can I ask to be escorted back to the apartment tonight by you? I feel like spending the night in my own room" Asyifa said.
"Of course I can. You shouldn't have to force yourself to keep Eden in the hospital all night, let me stand guard here"
"Thank you Zidan"
"Beloved together"
As long as the two were on their way home to the apartment, none of them had any intention of opening the conversation, as if they were busy with their own thoughts.
Asyifa was preoccupied with her thoughts about Eden's condition going forward, and Zidan who turned out to be filled with her thoughts by the continuation of his relationship with Asyifa.
Not that the man was very eager to rush to marry Asyifa, but for Zidan who had long harbored feelings for the woman beside him, it was only natural that he wanted to further clarify his intentions.
It was enough that he was preceded by another man, William. Zidan no longer wanted the experience to repeat itself for the second time.
But somehow, every time he wanted to discuss it together with Asyifa, there was always an obstacle that could make his intention could not be carried out.
For example, just like the current situation, the mind of Asyifa is always filled with feelings of worry about the state of Eden that has not yet recovered from the pain.
"Asyifa" called Zidan spontaneously, without being prevented by himself.
"Yes, what's wrong?"
"Actually, there's something that's been around for a few days, I've always wanted to talk to you about. Can I ask you to listen to him? I promise that this will only take a little while"
"Speaking something? It doesn't seem like it's about something trivial, does it? Especially when viewed from your serious facial expression and also how you speak that sounds very stiff" guess Asyifa on target.
"Well, maybe you could say it was my intention. I'm also sure that you can easily guess what I want to talk about"
"Am I wrong to say it's about the continuation of our relationship? If I'm wrong, I'm sorry. Because that's all I'm thinking about right now"
"Yes right Asyifa. Actually I don't want to force you to rush to marry me, it's just that the fear will be preceded again by others, it always haunts me at all times"
In general, if a woman hears a compliment, a conversation, or a sweet word as spoken by Zidan just now, they will certainly put on a happy expression or even touched.
But what happened to Asyifa was different and vice versa. Instead of feeling happy or moved, Asyifa just sighed loudly as if burdened.
Just the moment he had just seen it, Zidan was a little surprised. While wondering in his heart what had unknowingly done wrong, Zidan did not want to give up his eyes on Asyifa.
"What are you doing Zidan? Why focus on seeing me instead of looking at the street in front of you?" asyifa felt uneasy.
"Ah, sorry"
"I didn't allow you to see my face, but now we're in the middle of the highway. What if you make us both wretched?"
"Yes, I'm sorry Asyifa. It's just that I'm worried that I've made a mistake with you unconsciously, because I saw you exhaling with annoyance" Zidan explained.
"Honestly, I do feel a little upset and also disappointed, about your attitude that discusses the continuation of our relationship at an inappropriate time like this"
"A bad time? Why is this a bad time for Asyifa, because Eden is still in the hospital, so you also have to postpone discussing our wedding plans?"
"Isn't that something natural to do when our friend is in trouble? If it was you, would you still have a wedding party while Adam or Raka was lying in the hospital?" ask Asyifa, looking increasingly annoyed.
"I would have delayed it if Eden was one of your best friends who was always there for you like Angel and Mira. But he's just a guy you've only known for a while. Hasn't it been more than enough for us to help her all this time?"
"Geez, I think I know you well, Zidan, but I was wrong! You even counted on your help to Eden, just because he was a stranger in your life. Don't you have a conscience like Elina, Eden even thinks of you as her own brother!"
Hearing the angry words from Asyifa who suddenly equated herself with Elina, an instant of anger also appeared in the man's heart.
Even for a moment, Zidan had to lose focus on driving a car, and almost hit another car in front of him.
Fortunately, Zidan quickly slammed the steering wheel to the side and ended up exiting the highway lane they were supposed to be on.
As a result of the incident, Ashifa who was not wearing a seat belt, got a wound on her forehead because her head was hit hard in the front of the car.
"O Lord Asyifa! Are you okay, no one's hurt, right?" ask Zidan to panic.
"I'm fine"
"What's all right, Asyifa? Your forehead bleeding like that, it must hurt like that, right? Let me see!" pinta Zidan, holding out her hand and trying to check on her fiance.
But violently, Asyifa immediately refused Zidan's hand to stay away from him. Even haphazardly, Ashifa wiped the blood coming out of her forehead using a dry tissue.
Inevitably the feeling of guilt for having carelessly made Ashifa hurt, appeared in Zidan's heart. The feeling of annoyance and anger that he had momentarily felt disappeared somewhere.
"Are you angry with me? I'm sorry Asyifa, because my carelessness was so you could get hurt like this. I promise it won't be like this again, so please forgive me?" pinta Zidan is soft.
"It's not your fault. It's all because of my fault for thinking too much about the state of strangers compared to the state of our next relationship"
"Asyifa, is it wrong that I just want to further clarify our relationship to the next level? I proposed to you, and you said yes to that proposal, so can't we have a wedding? Is this request of mine too much for you?"
"I never said that your request was excessive Zidan, just try to see how things are now!"
"What is the reason only because Eden is still in the hospital? Asyifa, I can even get Eden out of there right now and give her the best treatment for her mental healing!"
"It's not about the best care or the luxury you can give with your money and your wealth, but it's about healing done with the love of the people closest to Eden!"
"The closest person, right, means you're not the person? You even just know him, it's a sign that this is not part of the things you can do" Zidan reminded Asyifa again.
"Then, who do you think could be the closest person in his life? You also know that he has no one to share his suffering with. If I don't help him either, then who?"
Silent. Zidan who got the question from Asyifa instantly became silent, as if he was a mute. There was only the sound of the roar of the breath of the two who were hunting, because they were so busy arguing.
But in the end, Zidan who could not get the answer he so desperately wanted to hear from Asyifa, could only pull the tip of his hair in frustration.
"If indeed you are currently in a hurry to get married, then the answer I can give you is that I cannot grant it. But take it easy, I will also not be selfish by holding you back should wait for me. You can take the ring back from my ring finger" Asyifa said.
"Ahaha. Ahahaha, Ashiifa. Why can you just let go of me so easily after all the struggles I've done up until now for you? Am I worth nothing in your life?"
"Not Zidan, I'm not saying that you're worthless in my life. On the contrary, you are very valuable. But I realized that I couldn't hold back everything I wanted, to stay by my side"
"Why is it that every time I open my heart and love a woman, it ends up always a disappointment and also a one-sided relic of the woman? Is it because I am not destined by God to be united with the one I love?" murmured Zidan to himself.
"Zidan, I don't want to make your heart hurt or anything like that, just I want you to know____"
"Stop Asyifa. Whatever you're gonna tell me, you better keep it to yourself. I'm not wanting to hear anything else" Zidan quickly cut off, while covering his face with one of his hands.
"Sorry Zidan"
"Forget Ashifa. Can you please get out of my car right now, because I can't seem to drive you to the apartment. There's somewhere else I want to go tonight"
"Where do you want to go? Can't we both go back to the apartment?" ask Asyifa, don't want to worry.
"Please come out Ashifa"
"All right"
Not to forget before actually coming out, Ashifa also removed the engagement ring that Zidan had given her, and just placed it on the passenger seat.
After that, without any doubt or the figure of Zidan who came down to persuade Asyifa, the car again speeding away leaving Asyifa alone.
Asyifa who did not know what to do to get home, because she did not carry a wallet or cash in her bag, was forced to contact Angel to pick her up.
"Asyifa, why are you on the side of the highway all these nights? And again why are you alone, can't Zidan drive you home?" mira asked, when she and Angel had arrived where Asyifa was waiting.
"Emm, yes. Zidan seemed like there was another matter all of a sudden, so he had to drop me off here. Stupidly again, I just remembered that I did not bring a wallet or cash from yesterday"
"Geez, why are you that stupid? Good thing there's a cell phone you can use to contact us, come on in!"
"Hehehe, yes"
"Asyifa, did you and Zidan just have an accident? Why is your forehead hurting and bleeding like that?" ask Angel, who quickly noticed it.
"Ah, that's right. Before dropping me off here, Zidan had not focused on carrying a car and almost hit another car in front. But fortunately not to get hit, because Zidan swiped the steering wheel to the side"
"Ckckk. Actually what happened to your fiance, he doesn't usually act that recklessly. Or maybe you two have a fight?" tanya Mira is suspicious.
"What you really say is Mira. They are a new couple, the time has not been anything just playing a fight. Surely Zidan was just a lot of thoughts, so he made a mistake. Aye Fa?"
"Yes, that's right Angel said. Where could Zidan and I fight at the age of our engagement that mash this corn well. We should be getting stickier and more romantic with each other" replied Asyifa, who deliberately wanted to lie.
"Huuu, yes. You two are the most romantic and long-sleeved couple! Come home Ngel, already sleepy once I" asked Mira, looking annoyed at the answer Asyifa.
"Yes, ready boss"
That way, Ashifa managed to arrive inside her room in the apartment, and began to clean up before finally getting on the bed.
Asyifa whose mind was still filled with the figure of Zidan who passed away just like that, immediately grabbed her phone to check if there was a phone or incoming messages from the man.
But there is not a single hope that has come true. Although Zidan's social media was active, the man did not send him any messages at all.
Until a notification told him that there were some new stories that Zidan posted on his social media, entered the social media Ashifa.
Feeling very curious, Asyifa without hesitation pressed the notification to be able to see Zidan's story directly, which turned out to be a video of the state of the earthquake of a crowded bar.
"Ashypha! What the hell does this mean? You said Zidan had some important business and had to leave you on the side of the road alone, but why is he in a bar now?" angel asked, who suddenly went into Asyifa's room.
"Do you see the story on social media Zidan well, Ra? That's him at the bar, because he had a meeting with a client there. Just now he sent it to me in a chat" explained Asyifa, who again lied.
"What's right, the time of meeting with his client must be at the bar all, like there is no other place! So, you don't mind if Zidan goes to a bar like this?"
"She's going there because of work, I have to ban time anyway? Although not like it, but I as his fiancee must support what became his job as well dong"
"I told you earlier, that Zidan must have gone there because there is an interest and not to play games. You are worried about it being too much!" timpal Angel, who went into Ashifa's room.
"I just want to make sure that my best friend will not be hurt again by the creation of the god named man. Is something wrong, huh?"
"Hm, it's not wrong. Oh yeah, how about we sleep three nights in the living room watching drakor? It's been a long time since we've done it again"
"I agree with Angel! You agree too, don't you, Fa?" asked Mira expectantly.
"Do I have to accept Angel and Mira's offer? Instead of me alone in the room, which is later I will cry alone here" inner Asyifa.
"All right, let's go!"
*****
Zidan, who slowly regained consciousness from sleep and opened his eyes, immediately felt a tremendous pain in his entire head and body.
Actually, Zidan still really wanted to turn a blind eye and fly to dreamland, but because he saw the sunlight that had shone brightly outside, Zidan also had to cancel his intention.
Just getting up from his sleeping position to sit on the bed, Zidan was surprised by the view of a room that was very much different from the state of his room.
Even today, his appearance is not wearing clothes and pants, but only using his black boxer pants.
"It turns out you were awake, when we both just wanted to wake you up the rough way" said Raka, who walked into the room.
Behind Raka, there was the figure of Adam who also walked into the room while pushing a small train containing breakfast menu for Zidan.
"Raka? Adam's? Why are you two here, and where am I now? Where are all my clothes?" zidan asked confused, still not remembering what happened last night.
"Haha! Ahaha! Don't pretend to forget you, do you know how hard it was for me and Adam to separate you from that woman, and bring you here?!"
"Women? What else do you mean Raka, which woman? I'm not pretending to forget, but I really can't remember what happened to me"
"The other night Raka and I called you because they were worried when they saw your story on social media with a video, if you were in a bar. After painstakingly finding out where you are, we find you making out with a woman who is not Ashifa"
"A_what? You are really Adam! I couldn't dare to do such a dick, when I already had Asyifa as my fiance!"
Quickly, Zidan went to search all over the room to find where his phone was. After finding it, Zidan unhesitatingly pressed the call button.
But just after hearing the waiting tone at the end of the phone rang, the man's memory was again reminded of everything that had happened last night clearly.
Once again Zidan's heart was like a knife, remembering how easily the woman he loved broke off the relationship he had painstakingly built.
Without thinking twice, Zidan could only disconnect the phone before Ashifa could pick it up. Zidan put his phone back on the bed before walking into the bathroom.
"Loh, I thought he wanted to call Asyifa, but why didn't he?" raka asked confused.
"It seems that something has happened between Zidan and Asyifa. Seeing Zidan make the bar and also the woman as his escape, certainly not just a trivial matter" Adam guessed sure.
"What is true? They were only engaged a while ago, the time had a big fight! Should we help them both to get better?"
"I think if it wasn't Zidan or Asyifa who asked for it, neither of us should have interfered. I'm afraid, Zidan's response was like Kinara's problem at the time"
"Ah, right too" answered Raka limp.
Not long after, Zidan who had finished bathing came out of the bathroom wrapped in a towel.
Leisurely and not speaking a word, Zidan grabbed the grocery bag Adam had brought along with the food cart, and began to open it.
It turned out that in the bag contained one piece after a new work suit to wear Zidan, in exchange for his clothes that were somewhere.
"What are you two doing in this room again, don't you see that I want to wear clothes? Or, you guys want to watch me change?" ask Zidan cynically.
"Dirty! As soon as Adam and I came out of seeing our fellows change clothes, sinning the eyes! Come on Dam"
"We will wait for you in the hotel lobby, don't forget to eat your breakfast before going out" Adam said before following Raka out of the room.
Zidan, who heard the message of his best friend, nodded his head slowly in response, and began to wear his clothes as soon as the door closed.
Before eating breakfast that has been brought by Adam, Zidan again grabbed the phone that had been left on the bed.
Hopefully, the man began to check the call and message history, thinking that there might be one who had come from Asyifa.
But the result is nil. No phone calls, no messages, just a story that says Asyifa never watched the story on social media last night.
Sad and disappointed, Zidan put his phone in one of his pants pockets and started eating his breakfast in silence.
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