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“Mahal turns.” Answer Devan.

Hearing Devan's reply, Amira felt that Devan was not as enthusiastic as she was to have children. Amira felt, she was just fighting on her own. However, Amira only increases her patience to accept everything that happens to her.

“Jadi ..?” Amira refrained from asking gently.

“Ya order only.” Devan said without turning away from his phone.

“Sepaket yes, mas.” Amira said. However, Devan shook his head. He still did not want to drink the honey.

Amira just hides her disappointment and opens the green app. He'll inform the honey seller. Before Amira asked her husband, she had already asked the seller via WhatsApp message. In fact, there have been many testimonials sent by the seller to Amira.

Amira had been very steady to order the honey, but not with her husband so she disappointedly apologized to the seller.

[Sorry ma'am, next time I have the field, yes.] Amira wrote to the honey seller of the pregnant program.

After sending that, Amira no longer opened the message from the seller. She put down her cell phone and prepared to take a nap to relieve her husband's disappointment.

***

“Mas, please help lift the clothesline, yes. It's cloudy, it's afraid of rain.” Amira's word to her husband. She told her husband because Amira was still frying fish. If left behind, the fried fish will change shape because the distance of clothesline with the kitchen is not close.

“Iya, bentar.” Answer Devan.

At the time, Amira was alone with her husband. Her mother-in-law was out somewhere so that Amira could do the kitchen work casually without any chatter from her in-laws.

Amira fries fish while working on vegetables to cook at night. However, the rain began to fall but it was not yet seen Devan who would lift the clothesline.

In a hurry, Amira turned off the stove and ran out of the house. The laundry is almost dry. If left exposed to rain, then it is certain, Amira must go home to her parents to pick up clothes because Amira clothes are still a lot in her parents' house.

She did not bring all the clothes in her husband's parents' house because Amira often went to her parents' house. Moreover, her husband's closet was only one and only one small piece was left to use for Amira. Only a few pieces are full.

Amira lifts the laundry with mu*it unceasingly says Istighfar. She was afraid she would curse her husband who would not help her.

Amira ran to the room to save the laundry she had just lifted from the clothesline. While opening the room door, Amora saw her husband playing a game. Amira quiet. She did not blame or reprimand her husband.

This time, Amira really could not hold back anymore. She kept her husband quiet for a while. Nope. Not for a while, but Amira kept her husband quiet for three days. At first, Amira will not silence Devan for that long, but seeing Devan who followed her silence made Amira extend her silence.

But in the end, Amira gave up. She couldn't stand it if she kept her husband quiet. Although she is disappointed with Devan who is not trying to take her heart, Amira is patient. He still hopes that one day Devan will understand his feelings.

From the incident, Amira was determined not to trouble her husband. No more telling her husband to do whatever he wants.

In fact, the work that Devan usually does, Amira will do alone. Devan glanced at Amira, but had no intention of helping either. Maybe, Devan felt grateful because Amira no longer bothers him but Devan does not know if that way, it could be that Amira no longer needs Devan in her life.

Amira arranged the seats up to four stackings. He wanted to take the cardboard placed on top of the closet. Usually, he tells Devan to take or put something on the closet because Devan only needs to stand straight, then his hand has arrived on the top of the closet. Unlike Amira who needs the help of four chairs so that her hands can get to the top of the closet.

After retrieving it, Amora passed Devan by holding the chair she had just used. No comment from Devan.

Once Amira forgot her determination. He told Devan to do something for him.

“Mas, please take your sandals outside. I want to wash.” Said Amira immediately cursed himself who forgot his determination.

Before answering, Amira hurriedly parted her words. “eh, no need deh, I took it myself aja.” Amira rushes out to pick up her husband's sandals.

“Sorry. I forgot earlier.” Amira said after finishing up with her work.

Devan who did not understand anything immediately frowned. “Forgot what?” Devan asked, not understanding what his wife said.

“I forgot that it won't trouble you. As long as I can take it myself, I won't trouble Devan's mas. Yeah, right, mas?” Amira said in a joking tone. Actually, it was a serious thing that Amira revealed from the deepest heart but she was afraid of offending her husband so she said it in a joking tone.

“Huum, continue?” Devan follows Amira's jokes.

“I will not interfere with the work of the mas, I do not ...”

“Udah ah, storm. More focus nih.” Devan's words stopped Amira's chatter that only disturbed his concentration while playing the game.

Amira smiled and stopped talking. He took his cell phone to hide the wound. I don't know how many wounds Amira has hidden from the world.

Amira pretends to yawn in front of Devan. “hoooah. Sleepy yes.” Amira said to the bed.

Amira shut her mouth to keep from making any sound. However, Devan cannot be lied to. He could see his wife's shoulder shaken. Devan knows Amira is crying. The distance of his seat with the mattress where Amira cried was not far so Devan could clearly see his wife's shaken shoulders.

But, I don't know what Devan was thinking so he just let Amira cry on her own without any intention of getting close to him. In fact, Devan enough to hug his wife without saying anything for sure his wife will calm down.

Indeed, Amira desperately needs a hug from her husband. During her marriage to Devan, Amira was embraced twice by her husband.

First, when the photographer told Devan to hug his wife, second, when the wedding reception was over.

After that, only Amira always hugged Devan. However, Devan often took off Amira's hand that was coiled around her waist with a sultry reason.

Many times Amira gets rejection from Devan, but she does not give up because by hugging Devan, her fatigue after a day at home will disappear. Amira just needs to hug her husband warmly to calm her mind which is always hit by her mother-in-law.

Either only Amira feels it all or all the wives who live in the house of in-laws but are not considered. Amira hopes that no wife will feel what she feels. Every day had to swallow a bitter pill over her husband's refusal, also enduring the inner pressure exerted by her mother-in-law.

Amira can stand it if not considered by her mother-in-law, but not by Devan. Her tears were very weak when she was treated badly by her husband.

***

The sound of fear echoed throughout the village. Amira looked at the ceiling. A drop of clear hair drenched his cheek. He misses his family. Although he often lebaran in the village of people during college, but now his condition is different. He was close to his parents' house but could not get there. It was because Amira was trying to be a good wife to her husband that she refrained from going home when Devan did not want to.

Amira invites Devan to stay at her house but Devan refuses so that Amira can only quietly think about the atmosphere of her home.

In the morning, Amira misses the bathroom with her family. Amira longs to hear her parents chattering because Amira and her siblings do not want to take a quick shower while they only have one bathroom. Moreover, the distance of Amira's house with the mosque is quite far.

Every day Eid, his parents must scold his children for telling each other to take a bath until sometimes, almost too late to go to prayer Ied. However, the more angry their parents were, the more happy they were. I don't know, Amira and her brother are most happy to see her parents let alone her father angry.

“Mas, wait for me, yes.” Amira. She just finished her shower.

“I want to go now.” Devan said grabbing a dish that has been prepared by Amira.

“Waituin, mas. Just a moment, kok.” Amira.

Amira still had time to see the face of Devan who was upset because he asked to wait. Amira hurriedly put on her clothes and put on her face so as not to make Devan wait for her longer. In fact, Amira only had time to rub a little baby powder on his face. In fact, he intended to use a little lip dye so as not to look pale.

However, Amira is afraid of being left behind by Devan. This was the first time she would pray Ied in her husband's village. Before, he was always with his sister there was his mother.

When he arrived at the mosque, Amira did not find anyone. The atmosphere was still quiet so he was free to choose a place in the first saf.

Devan's not going straight to the mosque. He stopped at his cousin's house, which happened to be next to the mosque. Amira did not follow her husband. She was quite self-conscious about her husband's rejection.

Amira contemplates inside the mosque. A flash of his life memories before being with Devan were milling around in his head. One by one the mosque began to fill up. Amira did not realize the mosque was full by worshippers who would perform the Ied prayer.

Amira raised her head, she looked around. A sense of inferiority appeared in him when he found pilgrims whose faces were fresh unlike him who was like an undead. Pale.

During the prayer, Amira's tears unceasingly flowed. I don't know, Lebaran this time Amira is not excited. In fact, the person who saw him thought he was very happy. How not, Devan is known to be kind and friendly in his village so they think Amira is very lucky to marry Devan.

The other with his in-laws. People in the village already knew what kind of character Bu Dewi was. It's just, they're just focusing on Devan. Moreover, they looked at Amira and Devan like there was no problem at all.

Indeed, they have no problem. Only Amira feels pain during her marriage. He feels Devan's attention just days after they get married. After that, Amira only struggled to heal her own pain. What because Devan doesn't know what his mother did to Amira so he pays less attention to Amira or he does not care at all.

After Ied's prayer, Amira hurried home to go straight to her parents' house. However, he was greeted by several people who had just come out of the mosque as well. Many Amira did not know but she welcomed their greeting well.

Maybe, it was Devan's acquaintance. No wonder Amira is also known because her husband is famous in his village. Famous for his kindness that always helps others.

When she got home, Amira did not find her husband. Amira waits for her husband but it's been half an hour Devan hasn't shown up. Amira understood because Devan had many friends.

Amira decides to forgive her mother-in-law. She saw her mother-in-law sitting in the kitchen. Amira approached him and reached out. Amira kisses the back of her mother-in-law's hand with a takjim.

Her mother-in-law still uses negligee. After Amira forgave her mother-in-law, she also approached her sister-in-law.

“Which devan, Mir?” ask Roni gently.

“Not yet home, mas.” Amira answered with a friendly smile.

Diana looked at Amira with an indecipherable look. Diana was the wife of Roni.