The Underrated Online Writer
Determined Amira

“I Don't Want to Go Back, Mas.” Amira said calmly.

“Amira!”

“Mas!”

The bated cries of the married couple echoed throughout the room.

At first, Amira just wanted to take her wallet left in Devan's parents' house. However, the man instead told her to stay in that hell house.

“I'm not a maid in this house, mas! I'm your wife! Treat me like a wife not a maid who should serve all your family members!”

“Amira!”

“What, mas! You gonna slap me? Go ahead! I don't care anymore.”

Amira shouted loudly in front of her husband. She no longer cared about the rules a wife should not raise her voice in front of her husband.

He really can't take it anymore. After picking up her wallet, Amira goes home to her parents. He also did not forget to take his marriage book and Devan's, as well as family cards and a copy of Devan's ID card.

The mother of Amira could not bear to not ask her son. “Devan why not come here, Mir?” her mother began to suspect there was a problem with her child's household.

“I want to split from Devan, Bu.” Amira.

“What! What was? Why did you ask to separate? Devan is there for KDRT?” ask his mother in shock.

Amira shakes.

“Then why did you ask to separate? The marriage is not still a courtship that can casually ask to break up. Marriage is forever, Amira. You can't separate from Devan. I don't want to know, you have to go back to Devan.” Lian's mother thinks Amira just wants to play with the wedding.

“I can't stand staying at Devan's parents' house, Mom. I can't stand Devan and his family. Them ...”

“Ngga hold what, Amira? You are a woman and a wife. You have to be patient enough to face the tempest of your household. There is no life without testing, you must be patient living it.” Lian's mother cut through her son's unfinished explanation.

“I don't live there, Mom. Me ...”

“Don't just follow your will until you end your marriage. You ...”

“I'm not considered there, ma'am! I was treated like a maid there.” Amira was not aware of who she was dealing with so she dared to raise her voice.

It was not Amira's type who raised her voice in the presence of an older person, but this time, her mentality was already so broken that her emotions were out of control.

“Amira!”

“Mother!”

“They always say Amira can't get pregnant. They always say Amira is barren. Amira is not considered, even Amira is like a maid who serves all their needs.” Amira explained with tears.

“Do not care about others, as long as Devan does not commit violence with you, you just patiently face his family.”

“Devan doesn't love me, Mom. Devan doesn't love me, he just loves his own world.”

“Back now, Amira.” His mother still did not understand his son's feelings. He still tells Amira to go back to Devan's house.

“Dad ...” Amira turned to her father for a defense.

“Don't be like that, Mom. Let Amira here first to calm the mind.” The father could not bear to see his daughter crying in pain.

“This is because of you, well. You spoiled this child so much that he could not grow up and disobey like this”

“Mother! Don't bring anyone else. Blame me, but not with dad.” Amira does not want her father to be blamed even if it is her own mother.

“It's reality. If you are not spoiled by your father, you will not be childish like this.”

“If there is something to blame in this matter, mother is also wrong. If it wasn't for my mother forcing me to marry Devan, none of this would have happened. Mother is too lulled by Devan's kindness and people's judgment of Devan. I don't know what Devan is like.”

“Amira!”

“Why, Mom? Mommy slap me? Please, Ma. Please.” Amira was crying.

Mr. Rian, his mother just kept quiet to see the feud between mother and child. He was afraid of incriminating his daughter if she interfered. Mr. Rian was so aware of his wife's habits that he chose silence.

“Mother!”

“Why? Do you want to defend your kids? Dad spoiled her so much that she was like this. I'm ashamed that Amira is separated from her husband. Their marriage hasn't been even a year, but they're splitting up. Shy mom, dad. Mother.”

“That's because mom was too following mom's will and too listening to what people said.” Said mr. Rian.

“Terasu y'all. I don't want to see Amira still here. He has to go back to Devan's house, or get out of the house. Otherwise, let the mother come out of the house.” Bu Lian said leaving Amira with a million sorrows.

“Well, sorry Amira, yes. Amira can't make you happy. Amira can't go back to Devan. Amira can't afford to have to live under constant pressure, well.”

Mr. Rian hugged his daughter. She was so hurt that she saw her daughter crying in pain just because of the unfair behavior of the person who had taken her responsibility. However, Mr. Rian understands it is inappropriate for them to keep Amira in the house as long as Amira is still valid as the wife of Devan.

“You wait here, let me talk to your mother. We'll talk to Devan.” Said Mr. Rian stroking his daughter's shoulder gently.

Amira arresting her father, “don't, Dad. Amira was afraid that she would get angry and leave. Amira doesn't want me to leave. Poor Alya was a kid, well.” Amira.

Mr. Rian can't do anything. His wife was very firm in her words. If he says A, it's A.

“Amira babe father, mother and sister.” Amira said goodbye to her father.

With a strong determination, Amira left her hometown to calm her mind. He only brought a few sheets of clothes and a savings book as a result of writing them on an app.

[Lia, aren't you busy?] Amira sends a message to her friend in the city that she is going to.

Not long ago, there was already a reply from his friend, [I just ran off to work, Mir. What's up?] Reply Lia.

[I want to go there (with a smile) No, I'll stop by your place?] Amira waits for Lia's reply expectantly.

[Seriously? When's? I am happy to wait for you. But you're not with Devan, are you?]

[There's no way I'm taking Devan to your place unless he's wearing a hijab.] Amira wrote with a laughing emot. He hasn't told me what happened to his family.

By taking a four-hour journey, Amira has arrived at the new city where her friend is located. Amira sends a message to her friend to let her know that she has arrived and is heading for her place.

Amira arrived at Lia's place when the dawn of the Azan. The hunger began to feel. He realized that he was only eating breakfast. After that, he did not touch the food in the slightest.

Fortunately, Lia understood Amira. He prepared food for his friend. While in college, Amira and Lia live together so that Lia knows a little about Amira. He also knew that Amira had mag disease.

“You must be hungry, right?” lia said as Amira put down the bag.

“Know aja, you. There's food, no?” ask Amira. He no longer hesitated to Lia because he already considered Lia as his own brother.

“There. Yuk eat.”

They eat delicious. Amira twice added rice. Either he was too hungry, or too stressed with the back-to-back problems that befell him. Not appreciated in the husband's house, nor received back to his parents' house.

Lia who does not yet know what happened with Amira, so she invites jokes as usual. Amira had gotten used to hiding the problem so Lia did not notice it.

After eating, Amira took the time to send a short message to her father. She did not want her first love to worry about her.

[Well, Amira has arrived in K****i. Don't worry about Amira. Amira's fine here. Titip mom same sister yeah, yeah. Love you dad.] Amira wrote with tears.

Lia begins to notice something unusual about Amira. However, he had not had time to ask because he had to be ready to go to work. Lia works at a restaurant close to where she lives.

“I work first yes, Mir. You just relax here.” Pamit Lia's.

Amira raised her thumb. However, before Lia came out, she asked for a job vacancy. “Lia, no vacancies at your place?” amira asked making Lia frown.

“Iya, I want to work here.” Amira continued after seeing Lia's expression. He knew his friend wanted to ask what he meant.

“Let me ask my boss, yeah. You owe me an explanation.” Lia.

If not in a hurry, Lia would interrogate her friend.

After Lia died, Amira felt dizzy in the head. His stomach is not good either. He felt an incredible nausea.

Amira cursed herself who forgot to eat so that her stomach acid recurred. Amira pulled out her stomach which had just been filled. His body weakened after spitting out all of his stomach contents. He took a glass to drink hoping, could relieve his nausea. Yet, still. He still felt nauseous until he vomited.