The way I love you
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Vean looked at Dhea's face, she was like a Sleeping Princess who was still at home closing her eyes.
Wake up Dhea, let's get up! When do you close your eyes? I'm sorry for hurting your heart so much.
Vean then approached her lips to Dhea's ears.
"If you don't want to get up, I'll ask Bram to get this kidney out of my body again. I'll close my eyes just like you. I think maybe the world is better. We pray that we do not have to feel any pain anymore. Right, I don't want to feel this pain anymore either" Vean whispered.
"It's not a threat, I'm just telling you."
Vean again sighed, feeling a little more relieved to have said that.
Right, what's the point of living with this pain.
Not a physical pain, but a wounded heart. Vean patted his chest, feeling claustrophobic and not knowing how to breathe properly.
"I shouldn't be here, right? I'm sorry I made you like this."
Vean returned to the waiting room, sitting near Arya who closed her eyes. He and Arya didn't talk much. It might be because Arya was still angry at him. Angry because of her, Dhea to sacrifice her kidneys. Angry because she has a lover and a future mother-in-law who sucks.
Vean can accept that. Even he, too, blamed himself.
Vean could not sit quietly, he often turned to the ICU door, hoping that someone lying inside would wake up soon.
...💦💦💦...
Vean sat on the bench next to the gurney, grabbing a look at the eye with those wiggly eyelashes.
"What should I do to get you up?"
Nothing, actually nothing Vean can do.
He could only wait with uncertainty.
Hope for a miracle.
Waiting in the eternal.
And that's very unpleasant.
Dhea couldn't see who it was, but she was extremely pampered with her body's gestures.
Am I dreaming? Yes, I must have been dreaming. Vean can't be by my side.
Dhea didn't move a bit. He was afraid, if he moved, then Vean's shadow would disappear. Let him enjoy moments like this, even if this is just a dream.
At least, at a time like this, there is no Fio among us. Let this day be mine.
Dhea wanted to look at Vean as much as possible. Even though what he looked at was only his lower back. She wanted to caress Vean's hair, but then again, she was very scared.
Afraid of losing. Fear of not being able to accept the fact that this is just a dream.
Vean started moving in his sleep. He saw that his eyes were staring at him.
Their eyes stared at each other.
Them ....
They both thought it was just a dream.
Both are silent.
One was afraid that the shadow would leave if he spoke or moved.
Others were afraid that the eyes would fall back shut if he turned his face and left.
Is it possible that this is what is meant by time as if it stops?
Because for them, they both want to stop time. Don't want all of this to pass quickly, and they're back to the real world.
Vean hoped that Dhea would really come to her senses.
Dhea wished Vean was really by her side, even though she had to continue sleeping all her life.
Don't wake me up, inner Dhea.
Don't close your eyes again, inner Vean.