The way I love you
99 Go or Survive?
"Maybe this is the best thing for Dhea, ikhlaskan Dhea" said Sheila.
"You're his best friend, why talk like that? Do you want him to leave?" snapped Vean.
"So this is what friends say? Hmh!" continued.
"We are Dhea's best friend, so we don't want her to suffer any longer. He suffered because of you both. Dhea shouldn't have known you. Getting to know you only makes her what she is now" Clara replied.
"Don't fight, Dhea won't like you guys like this" Juna said.
"If I had known the kidney was from Dhea, I would not have received it either. You all heard that, shit? I won't take it!"
"And yes, just make me a criminal here. Maki I'm as big as you guys. Who tricked me here? Who asked for the kidney from him? Surely you will also say that I am ungrateful. Yes, I will not thank you. If necessary, take this kidney again and return it to him."
Brakes
Vean kicked the chair in front of him. They've never seen a Vean that's this bad. Usually the man just remained silent without expression.
The anger of the quiet man was terrifying, and now they could see it from Vean. Don't suppose Vean didn't know that Clara, Aila and Sheila were talking about him in the back.
They only look from an outsider's point of view, from Dhea's friend's point of view. But no one knows what he has been feeling all along, and prayer does not ask people to understand him.
Do they really care?
Do they want to understand?
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Vean sat pensively in the garden. He wants to be alone, not harassed by anyone. He didn't want to hear people talking to him. Whether it's his parents, Fio, or aunt and cousin.
At a time like this, then the doctor will—with a heavy heart—say to release, to mengikhlaskan so that the sick can go quietly, without feeling pain again.
The monitor showed Dhea's vital organs were getting weaker.
Arya brought the orphanage mother and the sisters who were in the orphanage. The man also contacted their old friends at the orphanage who could still be contacted, asking for the best prayer for their friend, for their brother.
Pray for the best, whether it's back to health, or keep going. Leave them and all this pain.
It's not easy for them either ....
Said to leave quietly, as if making them like bad people only. As if cussing or fear made difficult because they have to take care of.
Said to stay afloat, as if making them wrong too. Holding something that can make the sufferer longer. Not sincere about fate or would rather have Dhea in pain than let her go.
So, what should they be?
The hand that was grasped even felt extremely thin and weak. Like no meat and no bones.
Fio Sidah was not strong anymore, he was standing on the side of Dhea's gurney. There are no words spoken.
He pressed his nose firmly, while the tears were no longer contained.
Let go with prayer and sincerity, or ask to endure?
What a heavy choice ....