Trouble Honey
Silvana Recognition
In the end Silvana gave up and released her grip from Jiyya. The girl sighed heavily while then dropped her head back on Jiyya's bed with her hand she put it on her stomach as if she was pressing herself with it.
“So, I just suddenly became a little worried. I mean me and Sir Arthur—”
“You're cheated? Do you think you're pregnant now so you're out for three days?” Jiyya continued to interrupt, she stared fixedly at Silvana. Effulgence full of anxiety can be found Silvana from his best friend. He was really worried about Silvana. Yes, Jiyya has always been like that to him regardless of his sometimes rude and offensive way of speaking. But that was the girl's style.
Silvana just closed both her eyes. Unfortunately the girl had mistaken him for the problem he had in his life right now. “No, that's not Jiyya. I'm not pregnant. I am always prepared for all possibilities therefore I make sure to take the contraceptive pill every time.”
Jiyya looked to the side. “Well, something that really very you once. I was really wrong to worry about you because of something like this,”, Jiyya said. Although Jiyya's emotional delivery is very bad, Silvana knows that the girl must be relieved because it is not a matter of pregnancy that is a scary scourge for Silvana.
“Do you think about starting to do it for yourself. I have some advice for you if you want to run the contraceptive program.”
“Crazy! What am I doing it for?”
“Who knows later you want to do it.”
Jiyya kontan blushing. While Silvana who was aware she had managed to tease Jiyya again could only chuckle softly while shaking her head.
“Well, it feels only applicable to you huh Jiyya. You haven't done it yet but I feel you have a heart for Sir Joan. You should see yourself blushing every time I try to talk about Sir Joan in our conversation.”
Right after saying that, Silvana suddenly felt her heart tighten. He still remembered himself and Sir Arthur who had exchanged jokes, even the man gave him breakfast and coffee in the morning, as well as how the man greeted when he was just awake, and Silvana, who rose from her sleep in a position hugged warmly by her burly hands. All of that made her feel that she had just insinuated herself. Holy hooch!
Jiyya was about to get angry at Silvana, but once she knew the girl's expression changed Jiyya quickly returned to her usual mode. “Hey...” Jiyya even waved her hand in front of the dreamy looking Silvana. His eyes looked empty and wandered far away. “Hey, Silvana I'm talking to you. Hey, um, hey,
what's wrong with you?”
“A-ah.. no.”
“Don't lie, there must be something going on right? did the words you said seem to turn around for yourself? that's why you just shut up and make me anxious again?” little Jiyya could actually deduce what caused Silvana to become like this. Although Jiyya had expected it would be fairer if Silvana himself admitted and said it clearly without the need for coercion.
Silvana's eyes now seemed to be trying hard not to see Jiyya. He preferred to look at the beer bottle he was in while agitatedly moving it. Silvana suddenly felt so very awkward, even though things like this were not as difficult as if she was actually pregnant. Silvana was already very open to Jiyya, she could say whatever was on her head without needing to filter her words first. He also believes he can do this one. But somehow he felt unable to admit this potentially vulnerable and weak thing was stupid and horrible for him. He can't say it.
“I just... yeah, I don't know I don't know.” Silvana can only say nonsense while shrugging and then staring at the other directors that she thought Jiyya would not care too much to stare at the same directors. The girl's throat felt choked and tight. His tongue was heavy too.
“How can I help you if you don't know what your problem is. I knew there was a good reason for you, until you found me and asked for a beer as a conversation partner. You want to say something very crucial about your heart, don't you?” Because of the anxiety Jiyya finally said the speculation that a moment ago she swallowed herself. She felt frustrated when she saw Silvana who was always outspoken and cheerful to be a girl who was gloomy and afraid to talk. Though his flirtatious character, and spoiled for the man he liked was a manipulation mask to cover his side of this one. Having been with her for too long, Jiyya was convinced that this girl's feelings were being shaken.
“Ya.”
“You've already talked about this with someone else?”
“I don't think yet, it's just that Jarvis seems to have come to his senses rather than myself, and now you're also saying something like you already understand what my problem is,” I'm Silvana.
Hearing the name Silvana said, Jiyya bet Jarvis already realized this even before Silvana admitted it. Because of that last afternoon, the young man missed the class that Jiyya happened to attend with him. He said he was going home because there was a sudden affair, and now Jiyya knew that his sudden business was to meet Silvana who did not see the trunk of his nose in the campus. Although impressed funk Jarvis turned out to have a caring side and also as sweet as that. Secretly Jiyya smiled realizing that.
“Tell me then.”
“I think I thought about it when we actually slept together, just like that, you know? Which feels even more stupid because before I broke out to sleep with him I respected him a lot and loved to tease him. The man was the best lecturer who could be casual with me without judging my appearance. Yeah, that's how it's about. I mean he was a best teacher, acting like a best friend, and he also defended me from the man in the basket recently. Uh. but when I woke up in his arms at that time, and looked into his brown eyes. I don't know why I feel.My heart hurts when I think about him. And I feel even more greedy every time she does little things for me like preparing me for breakfast, covering my body with a blanket, ruffling my hair, something like that. I really don't think about what happened to me, Jiyya. It makes me feel dizzy. It's something stupid.”
Silvana's words were like a torrent of water, how the girl conveyed them in a hurry but seemed confused at the same time and reluctant Silvana looked into her eyes. Makes Jiyya convinced that maybe her assumption is correct.
“Why do you think that's stupid?” chirp Jiyya from beside her.
“I told you already, I don't know what's going on with me!” Silvana screamed in frustration. “One-time fool! Only a foolish girl would fall in love with the man she slept with after having one night with him. Sir Arthur himself did it anyway because I was risking something, and he was interested in it. He wanted to do it because he wanted me not to bother him anymore. I should have stayed consistent with myself who would get bored after spending the night with my target man. I should have easily done what I told her. But it's different, I feel sorry after doing it. In fact, because of how I felt about him. I don't want our relationship to be uncomfortable. Wouldn't it be disgusting for him if I still wandered around after I swore to stop following him? I wanted more than just to sleep with her. Does that make sense?”
“Silvana!” Jiyya interrupted, and Silvana was instantly speechless at the cry of her best friend. After saying her name aloud, Silvana finally wanted to look at Jiyya again even though with eyes that looked so depressed and desperate. “Why are you talking as if you know what Sir Arthur thinks? It's just your assumptions, right? you don't really know how she feels about you, do you?”