When My Wife is Different
Trying to understand husband

Irham gasped with Dinar's reply.

"I'm busy Dinar, that's why I didn't pick up the phone from you." Irham felt guilty, but he was reluctant to show Dinar.

Dinar smiled thinly, very thinly, in her rough swab tears were seeping on her cheeks.

Dinar realized that Irham said last night was really from the heart of the man before him.

But until this moment she did not find where the wrong point that made her husband angry especially to regret marrying him.

There is no longer a gentle Irham figure and always understands himself. Irham is tired of living with him, but Dinar hopes Irham does not regret having Ilyas among them.

The dinar biting on his lower lip was strong. Trying to hold back Isak who tightened his chest.

Is it only four years of their journey across the ocean called household?

Dinar loved her husband. Counted since four years ago. From the day his brother appointed the man who would be his priest.

At that time he was only 19 years old. Dinar a hafidz Qur'an, graduated High School he chose online college while helping his brother take care of Al-Hasan boarding school.

While Irham is a santri who happens to go to school in Al-Hasan boarding school.

That day his brother suddenly introduced a man who would be entrusted to marry Dinar, who in the field would be able to replace him leading the hut, because Dinar is very young and certainly his parents will not bear to put the burden on the princess.

And the chosen man was Ahnafi Irham who was appointed by Ahmad Sulaiman as the only female husband candidate. Nurbaiti Dinar.

If you remember back from the beginning of their marriage, there was never a serious problem. In the second month of marriage, Dinar was declared to contain the seed of Irham.

Between Irham and Dinar six years adrift. At that time Irham was still twenty-five years old when he married Dinar.

Ilyas pregnancy at that time was not easy Dinar through, because the young woman was severely drunk until her gestational age was even seven months.

Not spoiled, but he wasn't allowed to do much because of keeping other lives in his body.

Luckily as Irham's husband is very understanding, all this time he will take care of the house and cook for them.

Dinar only helps occasionally when nausea and dizziness are lacking.

"Prepare, we go shopping for one month's worth." Hearing her husband's words made Dinar return from the contemplation of her heart. Dinar. Seeing the flat face of Dinar Irham choked. This was the first time he saw the wife's expressionless face when invited out of the house. Usually Dinar will cheer exactly like a child given his favorite toy.

"I'm not going, you're going alone." Dinar stood up from his seat. "Mas. I'll go to the room first." Dinar shot away from Irham's hand that was about to touch his shoulder.

Irham was silent. There is a strange feeling in the chest seeing the attitude of the wife who is not as usual.

*****

The night was not like the usual night which was so boisterous with the voices of Ilyas and Dinar. Tonight Irham felt her home was quiet. If usually there will be a Dinar playing in the living room with Ilyas, now the woman chose to lock herself in the room.

Irham rarely spent time with Ilyas, because of his busy life, and grateful Ilyas was not lonely because Dinar always managed to accompany him play like a friend, maybe even more great than another mother.

But, Dinar is very much the lack of Dimata Irham. Dinar could have done a lot for him. Considering Ilyas it's been three years. But in fact until now the woman is still lazing.

Irham looked around him.

From the living room all the way to the backyard nothing looks neat, all messy.

Dinar also does not take care of himself making Irham sick of seeing him.

The clothes he wore were only loose negligence short sleeves, his hair was only tied carelessly. Looks shabby unsightly.

Irham was pensive to think about all the chaos of his household hut so far.

After putting together the groceries Irham sat down to calm himself down on the sofa.

As the night gets late. Irham finally caught up with Dinar to their room.

Irham saw Dinar's body sleeping on her back, four years into a new marriage this time she did just that.

Usually he will always whine in the hug, telling a lot of things that make him more dizzy. But this time, the woman suddenly became quiet.

Irham breathed out, then closed his eyes. Unfortunately, for an hour he tried to sleep still could not. He opened his eyes, shuffled up and sat back down. He looked at the wife's body which looked calm.

Did his words hurt his wife yesterday?

Irham breathed heavily. Honestly, he was tired of being the husband of a wife who could not do anything. He also wants to be a proud husband to have a wife who can please her husband.

"Mas."

Irham gasped in surprise when suddenly his wife called.

"Mas, I asked, are you really tired of marrying me?" Irham.

"What do I do to keep you from getting tired again?" Irham was still faithfully silent "What should go from your side?" Irham flinched, but said nothing, as if it was his one wish. The dinar bit his lower lip strongly. "So you really want me and Ilyas to leave your side?"

Never mind, seeing that there was no desire for Irham to answer any of his questions, Dinar already got the real answer, that the husband who married her four years ago really wanted her to leave.

*******

Irham opened his eyes when the voice of the caller sounded. Looking next to him, he did not find his wife. Tumben, where's Dinar?

It comes down to shower and ablution. As he was about to go to the mosque, he heard the sound of crying from Ilyas's room.

Curious Irham approached the room and opened the door. Irham's body pecked at the door looking at Dinar who was trying to calm Ilyas who was trying to hurt himself.

It's a foreign thing to him. Irham just saw the behavior of Ilyas that is difficult to understand like that.

"Darling, shall we play with the swords? Or want Umi to get you a new toy Grandpa bought?" persuade Dinar, who immediately spilled a large box of toys belonging to Ilyas.

But it comes as a surprise to Irham when Ilyas brutally pelt Dinar's face with a toy that Dinar had just spilled. Irham until jolted.

Unconsciously he entered. "Belch!" snapped it. Which made Ilyas go silent for a moment in shock. And so is the dinar. "What are you doing to Umi, huh!"

Dinar pulled the little arm of his son. "Ilyas, come here to "persuade him.

Irham looked up to find that. Why would Dinar let his son do such insolence?

Irham's heart ached when he saw his wife's white cheeks scratched and bleeding.

Ilyas had more privileges than any other child. Ilyas Tantrum, and Irham did not know about it.

His activities at the cottage were very time-consuming. As much as possible Dinar did not want to add to the burden of his mind.

During this time Dinar will only tell positive things to Irham, invite him to joke that actually tried to strengthen themselves without complaining how tired he was to take care of their baby.

Dinar realized, all this time she had not been able to make her husband happy. Pregnant until now he has not been able to please Irham.

Perhaps Irham was already at saturation point, and perhaps her departure could have lifted her husband's burden.

But what about his heart?