Who Am I Actually?
Crying in Silence
In the heat of the weather, Bella kept her feet moving towards her house. Not his house, rather his employer's house.
Bella feels her legs are too sore and she also feels very thirsty right now.
"Well, what's this? Where my throat is dry again." Complain Bella.
He came home a little late today because he had to help Kak Siti clean up her place of sale.
When he came home last hour already showed at 02:30. And maybe three o'clock is over.
Where the house is far away. Bella paused on the sidewalk, sitting under a shady tree for a moment to unwind.
"Stop here first, it's okay if you go home mommy." Mumbled Bella.
He looked up at the cars speeding in the middle of the road. "How does it feel to be rich?" Bella asked herself. The girl began to dream.
When it was delicious, suddenly there was a small child coming to him.
"Sir, why are you sitting here daydreaming?" Ask the little girl.
"Again break for a while deck!" Answer Bella gently.
The little girl smiled then she asked again "Where is the big brother's house?"
"It's far from here." Bella answered as necessary. He began to wonder about the child who was now beside him, which direction did the child come from? And why was he suddenly beside her.
"Where is your mother's father?" Bella asked, she was afraid that the child who was now near her was a subtle creature.
Hehe. Where are those pretty ghosts?
"I don't know where my mom went, so they said they went for a while but haven't come home yet." Tell that little girl.
Hearing the boy's story, Bella is confused as to what to do. "Where the hell be a parent, children themselves can not be guarded if kidnapped as well as bad people how?" Bella nagging.
" Side!!" A voice of a man called.
The boy immediately looked across the street and it was his father.
The boy called Sisi smiled. "Well, that's my papa brother!" Point Side.
Bella immediately looked in the direction the child pointed.
"Oh Sisi, you make papa panic aja, papa capek look around,eh it turns out you're hanging out here." Cirps the papa.
The man pinched his son's cheek while smiling happily.
Bella is also happy to see Sisi meet her parents again.
"Let's go home!" Bring papa.
Before leaving, Sisi waved his hand at Bella. Bella replied to him, but her face was suddenly sad.
Seeing the familiarity of Sisi and his papa made him recall his memories with Mr. Mahendra several years ago.
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"Bella! Where have you been? You must be crawling, right. So school is home this afternoon." Santi's mother again scolded Bella.
"Bella's coming home on foot, ma'am" she replied weakly
"The reason, usually you're home no later than 03:30."
Bella does not want to explain another reason why she is late, which will only create a long drama that somehow ends. So the girl could only listen to her mother's nagging.
"Now you're in the kitchen, help me cook for tonight!" Tell her mother in a cold manner.
Throughout her life, Bella never felt embraced and loved by her mother. The only genuine affection he gets from Mr. Mahendra, his father Kanaya.
But now the man is dead. Bella always feels sad whenever she remembers her friendship with her father Kanaya.
Mr. Mahendra loves him very much, and that's why Kanaya never wanted to be friends with Bella.
Kanaya assumes Bella is the one who has destroyed her happiness. He hates Bella so much because she has entered his life and made his love divided.
Until now, Kanaya still put hatred towards him.
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Although hesitant, Bella finally entered as well, to meet her mother.
"Well, are you here again? it's night why haven't you slept, tomorrow you have to get up early for school." Said Miss Santi.
Tonight the woman counted her money. Makes Bella curious as to what her mother always counted the money for.
"Why silence? Is there something you want to say to mom?" Ask Santi.
"Mom, Bella's shoes su...
"And I told you in the glue first!" Said his mother snapping, without waiting for him to finish talking.
Bella's eyes were rounded hearing the scuffling from her mother.
Suddenly, Bella felt alien to her mother, she was not her biological child.
"Mom, you also have a lot of money, Mom, what's wrong with giving a little to Bella." He still wished the woman had given him money.
Miss Santi looked at Bella and said, "Wait until payday!"
Again Bella had to feel disappointed with her mother's answer.
"If it can't now? Bella's shoes are also hollow."
Bella then came out and showed her the pockmarked shoes.
"It's gonna make Bella's feet overheat on the asphalt." Adu Bella
Miss Santi just took a quick look at it, and then replied "On the patch, the cake pack underneath, let's not get too hot just the way." He answered indifferently.
Bella was standing in front of her mother. I wish I changed my mind and gave it money.
"There's no need to stand here for long, there's back in your room! This money I want to save to buy a house." His mother said as if she knew what Bella was thinking.
Bella could only turn her back and immediately walked out of her mother's room, obviously in disappointment.
If the other child can talk familiar and lovingly with his mother, but not with Bella.
And all the children can be spoiled with his mother, but he does not.
Slender....
That's how he feels. He only had a mother, but the woman did not look sincere to him. Miss Santi treated her like everyone else.
Longs...
She does miss the figure of a mother who can be invited to be spoiled, a mother who is always there every time she needs.
Not as it is now. Which he seemed to be ignored.
"If only Mr. Mahendra were still around." Bella Lirih.
Bella stared sadly at the piece of photo that was now in her hands.
In the photo is a boy and a little girl. That man is Kanaya's father Mahendra, and that little girl is Bella.
The crystal light fell down on his cheeks.
After a long time of detention it finally fell as well.
Bella has not cried for a long time, the last time she cried was when Mr. Mahendra died, and it has been over for 4 years.
"Hiks...!"
He buried his face in a pillow, and cried so badly.
"Lord! Why doesn't Mom care about me so much? What's my fault?"
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