You Are What I Want
88. Over Thinking

Bhumi opened his eyes, turning to his right and left, recalling where he was now, the random alien he chose to park his car after spending nearly two hours driving around without direction.

Bhumi straightened his seat, looking at the watch, at half-five in the morning.

Bhumi got out of the car, looking around the expanse of tea gardens dotted with dew and fresh air.

He does stretching and breathing exercises.Oh my god, aching his body, please understand he sleeps in the car with a narrow space of movement.

Bhumi zipped his jacket to the neck, the air was very cold, his body was shivering.

" How is his wife, last night he was really disappointed in Shavara, he didn't like his wife being close to the man he hated.

one problem is not finished yet plus another problem...

After feeling enough, Bhumi went back into the car, intending to find body-warming food.

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A hoarse hiccup between the cries came from the person whose entire body was still wrapped in blankets in the dark room even though the dawn had fallen.

The sound of screaming and the bang of things from the kitchen did not bother the woman to get out of the bed, she was completely immersed in the sadness she made herself based on the impulse of her mind wandering irregularly.

" Aa.sorry me.I.me.only...hiks....hiks.." that's a word he said a lot from last night.

" Ku.please.ja..ngan.with him..." Shavara squeezed her chest t-shirt which was very tight and painful.

Bayang Bhumi spent the night with Arleta who made himself cry all night.

His mind is preoccupied with the shadow of Bhumi making out with Arleta as he says, what is done between a man and a woman spending the night together other than lovemaking.

Moreover, Shavara knows exactly how intoxicating the touch of Bhumi," Oh my god.. Aa don't let him touch you." shavara said with a tight chest.

It hurts, their shadows enjoy each other or are they safe doing it, in the car? open room? No..no.this is the end of the year of course the hotel room is full of bookings.

Shavara took the blanket off the top of her head, "How did they do it, what with or4l? or reunification? No. nope... Aa Bhumi can't cheat on me, she hates the practice of infidelity..." Shavara bit her fingernails in anxiety.

" But I encouraged her to care about Arleta, but I just cared, softened her attitude a little not for cheating..." Shavara targets her hand on the bed looking for her cell phone.

He changed his position to sit down, opening a search application about the scandal in the school first involving Aditya and Bhumi which requires his mother to intervene.

His hand covered his mouth which gaped in shock at the video despite the blur and the article about Arleta's behavior on Bhumi.

" No. there is no way a schoolchild would dare to do this in school, to his teacher anyway. Well maybe they ak can act naughty but not as vulgar as this.." he was horrified.

" He did know some of his friends who were outcasts during High School, but not like.pelacvr like this.." he thought, not even with Monika who he thought was the bravest woman among his naughty friends.

" Oh my god.how is this, what if Aa is tempted and they have bad4n relationship.How long, how many times, is Aa satisfied.." the question that continues to stretch Shavara's mind.

He was panicked and anxious with thoughts that continued to rage in his head" No. Aa victim of an affair, he could not repeat his father's mistake..." Shavara convinced herself.

" But if he said it was genetic, it could decline.what if Aa was so angry with me he then proved it. alone.no I don't want to..." imagining himself having to share a bed with another woman makes his heart hot, disappointed, and sad.

Shavara throws her phone in any direction, she re-closes herself with a blanket, an ugly habit whenever she feels down.

But it turns out that his habit is more torturous because the shadow of Bhumi bergvmul with Arleta is increasingly real. So cry again.

"Hiiiiihhh..cold ..naturally frozen for a while I'm here." molar Aditya floundered to hold the cold.

Last night it rained back on the earth, which made the air stab to the bone. Aditya increasingly threw himself into a blanket and fell asleep on the sofa

" Edo sir, Bhumi diving so don't come here?" ask Anggara gathered in the living room with other elders staring at the green expanse of well-maintained yard grass.

" So." there was a thin tone of anger from the remark that managed to trick them.

" Tumben Vara is not awake yet." murmured Fena wondered.

" They are on their honeymoon, now the cold weather is natural if it is still in the room." exclaimed Fathan.

" Assalamualaikum." Bhumi's greeting from outside the villa.

" Wa'alykumsalam" they answered in unison

" Lho Bhum, how come you are from the outside, mama kor skalian is still sleeping." Fena asked while receiving a helping hand from Bhumi who was about to regret it.

Because in front of the parents, then Bhumi was forced to experience Edo, a breeze of the day hit the Edo heart when the back of his hand kissed Bhumi even though only a glance.

Once oun with Bian who did not accidentally see that from the terrace, he had to look away in order to hide the smile that was stuck in his lips.

" Yes, Ma....Bhumi to the room first excuse me.."

"Wait a minute, why do you look so haggard?" Fena and the others noticed the appearance of Bhumi whose clothes were tangled, red eyes and sayu, messy hair, face looking tired.

" It's okay, Ma. excuse me Bhumi wants to clean up first.."

" Wait, Mama..."

" Ma, Bhumi is tired, pity.." cut off Anggara which is quite a relief for the earth which then nods small before passing from there.

" Bhumi, please call Vara to come down for breakfast" cried Fena.

" Yes, ma." Bhumi climbed the stairs with lethargic steps, he was very lazy and not ready to face his wife let alone in this tired state, worried about going up.

Czech....

Only the dark room Bhumi received once the door was opened due to the push of the door by him.

He stood up for a moment to adjust his vision in the middle of the darkness, his breath chuckling when he saw the body in the blanket moving like a crying person.

Bhumi slowly closed the door and walked to the bathroom carefully so as not to disturb his wife.

His breathing was violently stifled when a stifled cry was heard under the blanket, but he ignored it. He wanted to refresh himself immediately, his body ache all night sleeping in the car.

As soon as the bathroom door was closed which was deliberately not closed tightly by the bhumi Shavara's cry grew.of course Bhumi wanted to hug her soothe but he held it, he did not want his wife to continue to over think of him.

Shavara is now crying because she feels hurt because Bhumi did not approach her like the nights they had been together since marriage, if Bhumi comes home late he will first come to her then kiss her forehead and kiss her lips a little. The thing he likes best because he feels loved.

Shavara certainly knows Bhumi's arrival since opening the door from the smell of her perfume, she hopes Bhumi comes to her and performs a ritual that Bhumi calls a small form of her love.

Shavara cried so much that she could be heard in the bathroom, Bhumi who stood under the shower pounded the bathroom wall with tears that melted into the air shower.

He was angry with himself causing his wife to cry, but he did not know how to get rid of Shavara's habit of always over thinking without asking first.

His heart sleeps sickly hearing that cry, he is weak, weak against Shavara. Shavara is his weakness. For years he fortified himself from the influence of women out there worried he would be like his father, but now his whole heart and soul has been filled with Shavara.

Shavara, a name that ruined his life. Bhumi ended his bathing ritual, he pulled a large towel and wrapped it around his waist.

His steps came to a halt in the doorway as soon as he saw Shavara sitting there, waiting for him.

" A, let's talk."

" Not now, I'm tired." Bhumi stepped into his suitcase.

" Catten what? Are you really your student?" Shavara squeezed her hands together.

" Don't start, whatever you think, but akh ain't that bad. It's more of you insulting me considering you know my soul bad background, I'm disappointed you think so about me."

Jamb...

There was a knife stabbing his heart, he regretted saying that." Then let's talk, let's clear up this misunderstanding."

" There are no misunderstandings here, I do nothing, you are busy yourself with your over mind it. The habit's mother, it can damage our relationship is still corn this."

Bhumi wearing his clothes in front of Shavara without hesitation, this is not the first time he did it, however they already know outside in terms of each body.

" Come down, they'll just wait for you for breakfast." Bhumi walked towards the door.

Bhumi's steps stopped when he heard Shavara's words, "Why don't you want to talk about this, do you do what I think." Shavara's stubbornness misplaced time.

" Do you really want to talk about it now? by god I'm tired, and also hungry.the right combination to be angry, Shavara." wouldn't Shavara be able to feel that she wasn't struggling to hold back her anger, she didn't want to be sorry in the future.

" You're avoiding me, you're trying to measure time for reasons to cover up your mistakes."

" For God's sake, well we're talking about it now." jolted Bhumi who surprised Shavara.

yep.tak..

Bhumi pressed the switch on the lights, they couldn't possibly scream at each other in the middle of the society.

As soon as the lights were on, Shavara covered her face with glare, slowly lowering her hand which stopped Bhumi from approaching the bed.

she was shocked to see Shavara's appearance, her hair was full of wrinkles, her face was swollen, her eyes were puffy and red, her nose was red and runny. Really worrying.

For people who do not know what happened they will think Shavara frustrated left out of marriage by her lover pas alas. It was not very classy appearance of his wife.

But that sight was the one that evaporated the anger Bhumi lost out of nowhere.

Did his wife cry all night, did she not sleep?.Other questions that made Bhumi undo his intention to talk about the problem that there is no problem.

" We talk after we eat, and you take a bath first. I'll get it

breakfast for you." Bhumi turned back to step outside the room.

" Minimum wash your face, baby. brush your teeth" said Bhumi before closing the door.

Shavara rushes to the bathroom, "AAAAAA.." she akhwat sees herself in the mirror reflection of the sink so badly she looks.

Helaan breathed in a rough, unspeakable breath as Shavara saw her brother and sister sitting on the bed as soon as she came out of the bathroom.

" Get out, still do not have the energy and time to chat with you guys." cried lazy Shavara without interest.

" Oh my God, it's a face, it's a face, it's not a gorilla, it's not shaped at all." Aditya slipped, he was surprised to see the disgusted Shavara who was dumbfounded when he had taken a bath, how if Aditya saw the one before touched the water.

" why? tell me if there's a problem." bargain Vishnu.

" Crying is you human too..." Aditya sings a fragment of the song that is becoming the mainstay of fyp in sad vibes.

" Stop, deck. His face was angry and he was told to cry again. How else is that face supposed to be."

" If you just want to ngehina teteh mending out, teteh headache."

" Sorry, sis. We can't leave you before we get an answer, this is usually an order from Her Majesty the queen." said Aditya.

" This time our punishment is breakfast with two tablespoons of soup soup only if we fail to dig information from you, deck." said Vishnu.

" Therefore, without the need to waste time mending the story.we risk solidarity between brothers."

" Is there another option?"

" Detah was interrogated directly with Mama without Papa's help."

Well it was quite terrible for him, then with a heavy heart he crept up onto the bed and sat in the middle of his brother.

" I went to the hospital yesterday." Eat flowed that story.

" Athaghfirullah, tea. careless once you make the Lord sympathize with Arleta. If not for the ethics of the teacher, adek sure that Arleta has been entered into the prison with God, tea" said Aditya Gregetan with his brother's way of thinking.

She began to question her brother was either good or easily fooled.

" Don't be angry, you know it's wrong, you've seen the scandal." - whine Shavara who leaned on Vishnu's shoulder.

" Lagian there-there bae thought. pantesan fed up pak god murky like water used witch.he hates the most Arleta, even almost one school protects the Lord sir from him, he was the most hated the Arleta, even almost one school protect the Lord from him, he's a master manipulator, don't be fooled. Mother's droplets that dakjal it's her." Aditya's grouch was upset.

" Adek..don't talk rude." reprimanded Vishnu.

" I'm the same overall as you and him."

" Yes, this is how, Aa Bhumi was very angry with you."

" It won't be long, he's too cute with you." Vishnu kissed Shavara's head.

" This is this, due to a hasty marriage, you have not been dating but really married, do not know each other's characters, so complicated itself right. teteh also, how many times sayin, not yet, do not ovt, not good it, ask directly just thought." ceoros Aditya modeled mother-mak berdasterin angry son.

" You, why get angry anyway. I'm tired of being scolded mulu."

" It's good, so that the ovt is gone. kesel I tuh. We've sucked you know the god of the little lont3, but even nawarin for Deket. it's close, continues to be seized nangeeesss...."

"Adek.kok said that. Not very good to do'ain."

" Not a do'ain but..."

" Over, deck. You'll lose by saying the edges will give up." Vishnu mediates.

" Yes we have come out first, you try to use what it is his face, not really sure to see, thought the victim kdrt you know it."

" But his feet are the pressure of bathin." - Aditya while getting out of bed.

" You're not good to hear." Shavara replied cynically.

" Woman with all her plays, she's the one who's making trouble, the guy who's been wronged, whittling."

" That's a girl's job, otherwise the world isn't exciting, deck."

" You're snoring on the outside, your talk is getting more and more uncomfortable in the ears."

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" Lho, Bhum. Where's Vara?" asked Rianti who was arranging food on the dining table.

" In the room, sorry Mom. We're gonna eat in the room." Bhumi steps into the kitchen to pick up the dishes, actually avoiding questions from his mother.

Rianti held Bhumi's arm as he was about to grab some food, "Is there a problem?" well kan.

" Nothing."

" Bhumi, man,"

" There really isn't, if he's not creative in thinking." - Bhumi's circus.

" Solve before widening. Your father told you."

" gr.."

" Obstressed by your mother, there is indeed someone who can escape from your mother's pursuit."

" So, how's your mom reacting?"

" Jump a head of his Vara use money, later also his own brain plate" exclaimed Fena from the direction of the living room not far from the kitchen.

" I. fen..."

" Truly, I don't lie. Papa's habit is that she's in trouble again because of her ovt." Fena does not like her daughter's habits about this one.

Bhumi gave a small smile, "Bhumi will remember, Ma."

" Papa do not know why Vara crammed, but you are patient yes, in a situation like this he must be stubborn." exclaimed Anggara.

" That's why Bhumi wants to bring breakfast to the room, Shava maksa chat this." Aided by Rianti, Bhumi dives food onto the plate.

" Don't use emotions, if Vara can't say mending you out relieve emotions. Papa can't see Vara hurt even though it's his own fault. I'm sorry I didn't intervene, but Papa just didn't have to."

" Bhumi don't get hooked, Pa, Ma."

" In front of the room he passed Vishnu sitting on the sofa, seemingly deliberately waiting for him." Do not get used to going out all night every time there is a problem, we know the risk of a new problem happening is more open outside than separate rooms."

" That guy told you the story?"

" Hmm, and stop being stubborn. You understand there is no point in maintaining selfishness, papa Lo has a lot to make up for his mistakes, he is also not young anymore. Forgiving him is what sets Lo apart from him."

Bhumi was pensive, he had to get rid of his father's problems first, his wife's affairs were much more important.

Tok.dok...

Chequek..

" Let's open."

" My two hands are holding the tray, baby."

There was a hint of warmth hearing her favorite call other than the call 'love.'

" Eat first full and then we slay-bant4ian after." Shavara follows Bhumi who walks towards the sofa.

They enjoy food without talking, even their careful attitude towards each other fearing causing offence is really an awkward atmosphere.

" Are you ready to talk?" Bhumi opened the chat after setting aside their plates.

Somehow, but for sure at this time Shavara's heartbeat was racing, he was worried to hear things that disappointed him.

" Don't start thinking no-no. We'll only talk if your mind is cleared." said Bhumi who saw Shavara's grim countenance.

Inevitably, Shavara nodded, "You give your time to empty your mind."

" Thank you, very kind of you." Shavara said.

" I'm a good person, let alone a person I love."

" Who?"

" You."

" If you love, you won't leave me all night to meet your dearest student." Shavara cursed herself for not being able to control herself.

Bhumi's eyebrows shot up, "That's what the mind wants until you cry all night making

your face is ugly like this."

" YOU..."

" Stop the intermezzo, we start talking seriously".....

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