You Relieve Me to Take Off
Ch41: Time And Wave

Maybe all this time Ali was glaring. Only she was the victim of her marriage.

But after consulting with a psychiatrist, his way of thinking changed. He also found some things. Which I never thought of before. Or who ever terbesit, but he just throw it away.

Still vividly remembered in his mind, five weeks ago he went to a psychiatrist for the first time.

He had to wait in line and fill out some notes that he had to fill out, before his name was called.

The first session, 45 minutes. At that time the psychiatrist asked the main complaint, which made him see a psychiatrist.

In such a short time, he must convey valid information about his problem. He couldn't say all the things. Given the treatment rates are based on the duration of time so it must be absolutely optimal in utilizing it.

The next session, the psychiatrist diagnoses if he has an Anxiety disorder. This is very common considering there are more than 2,000,000 cases in Indonesia per year.

Ali was pensive to remember it, but from Sunday to Sunday his life was much better.

The man looked out the car window.

“Pak we stop at the beach,” he told the Grab driver.

“Good Sir!”

The man turned his head behind the car window.

His memory returned when the psychiatrist asked him to undergo cognitive behavioral therapy treatment. One type of psychotherapy that aims to improve the process of thought patterns and behavior.

In this therapy session, he was invited to find out. The root of the problem, being aware of the feelings and thoughts that arise when there is a problem. Managing thought patterns to reshape wrong or negative thought patterns.

The following week, he was asked to record the journal independently. The journal usually consists of 3 columns containing trigger situations, automatic thoughts that arise, and accompanying feelings.

It is done constantly aiming to know the progress experienced by him.

Quickly he got out of the car, after thanking the driver.

He stepped closer to the waves. Staring at the expanse of water that seemed to hit the sky, it made his head pulsate.

But the glint of wind that hit his body made him close his eyes. Enjoying time alone.

Seven weeks after the accident, he was grateful that his broken hand had made progress.

He decided to sit on the beach enjoying the twilight. While remembering something.

His lips pulled upwards, the man looked down laughing at his former state.

“What a very selfish, how can I think that way..”.

“Just think of myself ... I assume .. if I am a victim of someone's selfishness ... but what about Aina?” his eyes were glaring, thinking hard.

His hand immediately picked up his phone that was in the jacket pocket. And open the note application.

“What is the reason Aina wants to marry me?”

He tried to analyze the possibilities that happened to Wan Aina.

“Persuator?” His forehead wrinkled his gaze towards the waves chasing each other.

He began making a list of consequences when Wan Aina accepted his father's proposal.

“First, being second will be looked at one eye.”

He grimaced, writing the first consequences on his phone.

“Living an abnormal life. Moreover second wife, unwanted every woman.”

“More, he only saw my photos. Not that he could find, which was more than me. Younger, more handsome, and certainly more able to compensate from all aspects.”

“Lantas why he wants to be second..”.

Hard-boosting.

“Wait-wait ..he once said his presence was not wanted by anyone. What does it mean?”

Ali recalled the incident when he had a fight with his young wife[eps28].

“My presence was never desired by anyone ..hiks!”

“Yes I am useless .. I have always been the root of trouble in the lives of others. Then there is no point anymore I hi—“

Ali massaged his temple, the face of his young wife who was crying. Fulfilling his mind, as if the incident was unfolding this second.

He was bowed in, his heart feeling guilty. Given his behavior towards Wan Aina.

“I'm sorry Aina, as a husband I was too busy with what I was dealing with. Until you forget what burden you bear.”

The thin smile adorned his lips, if he remembered the nature of his young wife as the same as him.

“Reactive ..you are very easily provoked by emotions, as well as I am .. mistress tangent. Perhaps it was a fitting pinned for him,” murmured, trying to predict the face of his young wife.

When she called the mistress. He chuckled amusedly imagining the look on Wan Aina's face when upset.

He let out a long sigh, and suddenly he remembered something.

“Moon-months of marriage, why was I never asked to take her home? Even I never saw him call with his family?”

He felt strange with the attitude of his young wife, who was different from Meisya once a week must be in the news with the family in Banten. And it was done while with him.

“I have to figure this out, and yes. I also have to find out who managed to refocate the wife, to ask me to remarry.”

Stand up from his seat. Leaving the calm waves.

TBC...