
A longing hug is done by Belva and Eliza. Rania has not come because there is still business about her college duties.
They met at one of the cafes that used to be often used as a place where Belva and Eliza spent time.
"Your vows are more beautiful, Bel," Eliza said as she looked at Belva's appearance from top to bottom.
"No look if it's already one child's mother," continued Belva.
"Son two knows, El."
"Huh? Seriously? What is pregnant again?"
Belva laughed a little. "long story. I'll be telling a story later. But wait for Rania, yeah. Than I repeat the story."
"OKAY. Even though I'm curious about half-dead."
"Not dead, are you?"
"You doain I die, Bel?"
"Handling doang, El. Sensitive highly. Can't get rations from Kak Wisnu what?"
Eliza turned her face when she heard Vishnu's name called by Belva.
Belva looked at Eliza full of probes. "What's up, huh? What don't I know?"
It looks like Eliza is breathing heavily. "I'm the same she broke."
"Why?"
"We just need time to introspect each other, really."
"But your relationship with Rania is fine, right?"
Eliza nodded her head and smiled widely. "OK, coke. We often go together. What happened between me and her sister has nothing to do with Rania. And even Rania's son doesn't want to go out and interfere."
"Thank God. Whatever it is, may you be given the best path, yes, El."
Eliza's head nodded and her lips confirmed what Belva had said.
Shortly after, Rania came and immediately hugged Belva as well. Although Rania's face looks cheerful, but Belva knows that her eyes are not as bright as her face.
Wanted to ask why, but Belva thinks it's too deep for just a pleasantries.
"Mama Zurra how are you, huh? More beautiful," said Rania. His praise was the same as what Eliza had said earlier.
"It could be you, Ran. You good news?"
"I'm good, Bel."
Rania is welcome to sit by Belva and Eliza.
"Well, now Rania's here. You have to tell me about Mama's two kids" Eliza said, reminding Belva that she has a debt story.
Belva breathed a deep breath before beginning her story. Remembering the past actually no longer want Belva to do.
One by one what happened to Belva's life while in Jakarta he told Eliza and Rania.
About the presence of Viona and her son. And Viona's departure makes Belva choose to accept Regina to enter her house with Gilang.
Also her experiences in taking care of two children, one of which did not come from her own womb.
"Why do you want to, Bel? Though Mas Gilang, right, it does not mean you to accept the child."
Belva smiled at Eliza's question. "I don't know why I suddenly want to, El. To be sure, at that time I did not mind at all if the child called me Mama, and lived with us. She has no mother. The only person he had was Mas Gilang."
"I'm so proud of you, Bel. Didn't think you were this old," said Rania praising Belva.
The Belva she used to know was not childish. But his way of thinking is not yet this mature. Maybe that's what trained him to mature.
"I'm not that old, Ran. Sometimes I still grumble when I have to do justice between Zurra and Gina. Even though it's fair to them it doesn't always have to be the same."
"But so far you've been able to live it even though you complain a lot."
Belva nodded in confirming. True indeed. All this time though often complained but he was able to get this far. Even Belva never expected and said when it would all end. When will he stop trying to be fair?
All because Belva is aware that this will never end.
"When what are you, Ran?"
"You're still single now? Or have a girlfriend? You never told me the same."
Rania laughed a little. "Don't talk about it, deh." Then the look on his face changed.
Belva had no idea what made Rania's face change so quickly. Or maybe he was too pampered about Rania's life and made her uncomfortable.
"OK," said Belva relented. He did not want to ask again if Rania was uncomfortable with it.
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There are many things they screw up. Long time no see makes a lot of things left behind and unknown to Belva.
Many of his friends are married. There are some who have died.
Eliza and Belva can freely tell stories and even laugh. Rania is the same. But there's something in Belva's heart.
Rania's laughter wasn't that smooth. Rania's eyes can't lie that there's one thing she's covered up from Belva.
Maybe Belva needs to talk alone with Rania after this. Belva doesn't want anything to go wrong between her and Rania.
Moreover, they rarely meet later.
After they returned from the cafe, Belva did not go home immediately like Eliza and Rania. Instead of following Rania to her house.
"Belva what?" Rania squealed in surprise to see Belva was already in front of her house. He got out of the car a while after Rania got into the house.
"There's something I want to ask you, Ran."
"What?"
Belva took a deep breath and exhaled slowly. He invites Rania to sit on a garden chair in the yard of Rania's house.
"Why you?" belva asked shortly after the two sat down.
"Why what?"
"There's another one of you, Ran. I'm wrong with you, what?"
Rania laughed a little. Belva knew laughter was just a fake. "There's nothing wrong. We rarely meet, right?"
Belva nodded her head. "Yes, we rarely see each other. But I know that your attitude toward me is different. What was? What's wrong with me, Ran? Tell the truth. No one is covered and you are self-serving."
"Bel, I really don't _"
"Don't lie, Ran! I'm not a kid who can be lied to."
There was a long, slightly rough breath coming from Rania's nose. Head lowered. "OK," he said starting the word.
"It's not your fault, Bel. But it's my fault that I can't control myself to assume you're innocent in this."
"What do you mean?" Belva was made to not understand. He doesn't know where Rania's talking.
"Me and Rey are in a relationship. Um, errata! I mean, I mean."
"Early? When?"
"We met at your wedding reception, Bel. Since then, he has been seeing me routinely. Frequent commuting, frequent telephone calls, frequent exchange of news. I think he's sincere. But after a few months, I just found out that I'm just being used as an escape place."
"Descenders?"
Rania nodded her head. "Yes. Escape from you. He still loves you, can't forget you, even when your status is already courting."
"I'm wrong to think you're guilty of this, Bel. Though you're happy with your life and there's no way you're connected to Rey."
Belva's mouth opened, gaping in disbelief with what Rania said. "Ran, by God, Rey and I have nothing to do. Your status is only as a cousin, nothing more. I haven't seen Rey since I moved to Jakarta. Don't let me see, the phone number I don't have, Ran."
Rania has shed her tears. He is completely wrong to have assumed Belva was also guilty in Rey's affairs of heart. In fact, Rey's heart only Rey herself can control.
"I know, Bel. I was wrong to be upset with you because Rey still loves you. That's why I don't feel good about you. Not for nothing."
Belva immediately hugged Rania who was crying. "So this is also the reason you rarely contact me or reply to my messages?"
"I'm sorry, Bel."
"It's okay, Ran. I'm okay."
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